This excellent article may explain why anxious and upset newbies "get benefits" from Scientology, numbing themselves to the naked emotions of ordinary people:scared, alarmed, worried and even greedy. The beauty I had envisioned was nowhere to be found.
Seeing emotion didn't make my life happy. It scared me, as the fear I felt in others took hold in me, too.
1. The "bull-baiting" training routines teach them to brush off obscenities and nasty insults
2. Repetition routines like walking and touching a wall for hours puts them into a numbed (if annoyed) state
3. The Tone Scale discourage most emotions like fear, anger, and empathy. Only enthusiasm is ok if it's working frantically or applauding the photo of Hubbard.
4. The Tone Scale teaches to dismiss and look down on other peoples' emotions.
5. Us-versus-them teaches to look do upon non-Scientologists as wogs, or (for the disabled) degraded beings. So their emotions are to be ignored.
6. Keep Scientology Working teaches that anyone who criticizes Scientology is a contaminant, an SP or PTS. So their emotions are to be ignored.
7. The "Adults-in-Small-Bodies" theory teaches that it's ok if children are put to hard labor, or left alone while Mom and Dad go to the org. The child's emotions are to be dismissed.
8. New CoS students often have been hurt or humiliated by others, and really LIKE the thought that the student will become "Homo Novis" and "handle" them effortlessly.
9. CoS teaches the goal to eventually clear the planet, which means non-Scientologists will be gone, so their emotions aren't important in the long run.
10. CoS's demands for money make the public members obsess about making money to make donations, no matter if it hurts others' feelings.
11. CoS's demands that staff obsess about stats and money collection, no matter if it hurts others' feelings.
* An Experimental Autism Treatment Cost Me My Marriage, by John Elder Robison, NY Times Science, March 18, 2016, http://well.blogs.nytimes.com/2016/03/1 ... ealth&_r=0