But, what I don't understand, Toney, is why? WHY? I can accept your decision and respect it, but I can't understand it.
I respect and understand your decision against a liver transplant. I just don't like it. I think every life, whether damage to the body was intentional or not, is worth a great deal. Mine is, yours is and so is everyone around us. It's valuable and precious.
When I contemplated suicide, I was isolated. All of my family, that I had known over the years, was gone. I was completely alone and there was no one around to lean on. I realized, eventually, that I was isolating myself and making myself unhappy by surrounding me with nothing but negativity. I changed that and now have myself surrounded with people who care and love me for who I am....not who anyone thinks I should be or wants me to be.
If there is a chance at life, I think you should take it. But, those are my feelings. If you have accepted death and embrace it, I respect that. I just don't understand it. I came to understand the root cause of why I wanted to die. I'm just trying to understand YOUR root cause of wanting to die.
Notice, I don't give up very easily.