Toney, Toney, TOOOOOOOONNNNNNNNNNNNEY!!!
Think about your Mother and your Father for a moment. I don't know how your earlier life went, let's say it was at the worst, terrible. Still and all,
they gave birth to you no doubt with the greatest of hope for you, and wishes for your life to be that of joy. I cannot imagine how horrible it must be to find your son in such a state, that he's ready to take his life.
Damn it Toney, whether you're drinking or not, will you please THINK about your own future. I don't believe you can take your life without some serious consequences. Too many people are hurt. I've been around a dear friend who took his life, and I've told you before, he was in Shock once he realized really, for real, it was O V E R ...for good. It's not a clean exit....and somehow my guess is in your heart, you're an actor of sorts. Make a clean exit. Remember, "Exit Stage left"?
And please, don't come onto a message board such as this, knowing we're not professional Doctors, and claim you're going to take your life, and then make us wrong for trying to help you. That's just not right, Toney. I wish you the best, and I hope you'll return to tell us you're all OK, and you've decided to stay. Either way, take care of yourself. You're singing to the wrong crowd here trying to say, "nothing has changed".
Little Tommy Cruise made sure of that! Just as I'm telling you, "There IS Karma"...so I told C of S. I wasn't sure how, but I said it over and over:
"you cannot hurt people like you are, and not experience some serious Karma. I have no idea how...but I'm sure it shall be some way you least expect".
So when TC did his thing on TV.....their Karma began! The media has rocked here ever since, and the doors of the phony 'church' are wide open for all to see. Two more major stations called me tonight! I was on CBS Friday night at the 5:00 news. Now some will say "She just wants Attention". BS! I want the word out, so people know to LOOK, READ, make up your own mind, BEFORE you get suckered in. And that is happening around the US, at least. I'm not sure re Europe, but someone should get on that, if they haven't.
Well, enough. Take care of you, and be well, dispite your hopes to end it all. It's not over, Toney. You haven't finished what you came here to do.
If you had, you wouldn't be taking your life. It would be done.
So...Look for the lessons. Which ones have you still not gotten? It is my belief that we all have lessons we're here to learn. Once we finally get them, we can then do a clean "Exit Stage left" and move on to higher plains. That is *my* belief at this time, April 2, 2006.
If you'd like to call, give me a jingle.