There are no professionals who specialize in helping people deal with spiritual problems.
I have spoken with many therapists about this and I have told everyone here, at great length (see a few months back, its some good shit for my thread), how many shrinks I've seen, and what happened.
You guys have the memory of a squid, because each time I tell you what happened, and how my experience went (roughly 15 years of therapy) you forget that, because, well.. your interest is purely "Who are we trying to keep in our section of the playground" and those kinds of things aren't looked upon in great depth.
The problem is not being able to tell a mental health professional, the problem is being able to tell REAL people about it, to share the story and to be able to face the grinding "unwanted discovery" reaction.
Which is what happens when people look at something they do not want to see, they shut down and say that the person needs to be sheltered somewhere else, given special treatment to suddenly make them "more like everyone else" and they insist, because they don't understand it, that I'm crazy.
Do people all insist that George Anderson, Dannion Brinkley and Sylvia Browne are insane? ABSOFUCKINGLUTELY.
Do I need help straightening out my energy? Absolutely.
The therapy that i require is referred to as "lightwork" and since I don't subscribe to the religion of purifying white people for the purposes of making them better corporate slaves, I don't really need therapists anymore.
I went to a psychic yesterday, while I was in town and she told me so many things that were really accurate. She said that reading for me, because of the negative energy that constantly surrounded me, was like reading for two different people. ON the one hand, I have the energy that I got from that vision and the energy that I am supposed to be doing (my normal life path that was subverted for this spiritual mishap).
And she said that all my energy systems are all out of order because of that and often I make bad decisions based upon working this energy out, instead of following my regular life path.
She suggested a therapy that involves candles, chanting, etc.
I'm not going to go and she could see that in my eyes immediately. She said that I'm just wasting my time with this. I told her that since it happened, I was afraid to let the energy go, because I didn't know where it would manifest and I feel responsible for it.
It was an interesting conversation.
I'm aware that most of the people who posted in this thread are not into and do not acknowledge the value, place and validity of my spiritual belief system. I kind of really do not care, because I gain strength from people's reactions. I learn to stop believing them and again, rely on myself.
And I remember just how forgetful people are and that we've been on this round-a-bout several times about whether or not I "desperately need help".
BTW, I am so sensitive to chemicals that traditional pharmaceutical therapy doesn't work for me. The only thing that worked slightly was Luvox and what that did was take away the memories for a while. It stopped the tapes from playing and re-playing in my head and is probably very valuable for someone who needs to concentrate on a job.
I've only recently gone back to work and absolutely am so disinterested and removed from the emotions of these events now, that I do not need help concentrating anymore. I like my job and have no trouble getting into it. In fact, I get too into it, from years of not being able to do that I love it so much.
And all without the help of one single shrink, this year, two things have helped me the most.
A) The intervention of someone I considred to be very important, who gave me encouragement, several e-mails, said nice things about my writing and who offered to read several of my friend's scripts. I realized that I could pursue my dreams and my life was not indeed over, even though I started my life very late in the game (because of the tangent I went on)
B) Being able to deal with the idea that many people will think I'm crazy, but still knowing that I'm not. Accepting my own spirituality and not accepting the assertions of others that my spirituality is crazy and that I'm crazy for believing it. That's why we have freedom of religion in this country. I also accept that what I did was harmful to me, and that it wasn't right, according to the spiritual system I have because martyrship is an illusion based upon ego. The illusion is that you believe that you are helping someone by taking upon yourself, their bad karma or energy.
C) I also learned that people LOVE to use people like me to make themselves feel smarter, better and more "sane". That people love to find comparisons where they can see how someone's life was much worse than theirs and how that person has so many worse and stupider problems than them, that they actually relish the idea of that comparison and take every opportunity to re-play that comparison, making them feel a whole lot better about their own miserable lives.
That is wrong, it helps nobody and only puts off the learning process for all souls involved.
So, I learned some valuable lessons about spirituality from this experience. Some of those lessons would never have been learned from a psychiatrist or psychologist, of which I have seen many .
Are you sure you didn't already re-post my diatribe from my live journal about the ten shrinks that I'd seen over the years? I thought you did.
Oh well, its there if you want it. Have fun!