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Post by StevieRayFan » Sat Jun 26, 2010 6:25 am

Thank you Lucy!

We need a reminder every once in a while.

Speaking of which, the Nomenclature…

I could have said, “Reality Check”, instead of, “reminder”, but then those who will read here who have been well versed in the scientology-think, would have been triggered by the hubbardian definition of “reality”, which, would have again triggered a warped, twisted concept of our existence. Imagine triggering that concept 20 – 30 times a DAY for years and years!

Reconstructing the language… reformulating the words into English is so very important (and a real mental exercise worthy of high praise which in itself yields innumerous forms of change).

My very best to you my dear,

Love,

Paul

PS – I’m waiting for the wind to die down for some more pic’s of the flowers/tomatoes and such.

Here’s what I mean:

http://www.youtube.com/user/TheStevieRa ... B&hl=en-GB
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Post by J. Swift » Sun Jul 04, 2010 3:09 am

SRF, that is an intense storm! How bad was the damage?
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Post by StevieRayFan » Sun Jul 04, 2010 6:22 am

Luckily, not too bad! The power stayed on, believe it or not.
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Post by StevieRayFan » Wed Jul 07, 2010 7:08 am

My Baby (Sweetie) after a little cleanup:

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HollyHock, after a little cleanup:

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Post by J. Swift » Fri Jul 09, 2010 12:30 am

Beautiful plants. We had a lot of rain this year in LA and everything bloomed like crazy. This bush in the corner was spectacular:

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Post by StevieRayFan » Sat Jul 10, 2010 4:29 am

Hi J,

That is a very nice shot. Thanks for posting it!
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Could be: "Oh crap" <smile>

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Post by StevieRayFan » Mon Jul 12, 2010 2:16 am

With my daughter's consent, here is the butterfly photo she caught from her phone. Right place at the right time!

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Post by StevieRayFan » Fri Aug 13, 2010 10:24 pm

Here’s our humming bird. I was very lucky to be at the right place at the right time. That, and a little editing. I used my little ‘Flip’ video (Father’s Day present from my daughter). Click on FullScreen once at U-tube… it’s in HD.

http://www.youtube.com/user/TheStevieRa ... =en-GB#p/a

Tomatoes are just about ready to photograph… and a few other things that have successfully grown this year.

Love,

Paul
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Post by StevieRayFan » Sun Aug 22, 2010 6:20 am

Spring...

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Now...

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Camsis... Took 3-years to bloom...

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Daliah... More coming as season continues...

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Something nice...

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Post by StevieRayFan » Sun Aug 22, 2010 6:29 am

5' diameter decorative grasses... three-years in the growing... perfectly planned for this application...

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Latest shot of the house, though very dry, emphasizing grasses (instead of shrubs). Obviously no walk in yet. Doesn't mean it won't happen soon. But if not this year, I'll get over it!

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Post by StevieRayFan » Sun Aug 22, 2010 7:11 am

There was a trio of us guys who had always stayed close since when we were in grade school. All of us had had our experience with scientology over the years. One of them was similar to me in terms of dedication, etc., but he was an alcoholic as long as I can remember. We had our ups and downs over the years since the ‘80’s. Eventually, we lost touch.

My other friend, I still see. He’s in touch with the one I fell out with. I get an update from time to time… don’t (didn’t have anything against him). Looking back now, one of the things I think contributed to our fallen out, was that he never let go of the church… and frankly it made me sick to hear some beered-up, drugged-up guy quoting LRH to me as if he knew what he was talking about. He was just quoting someone else’s thoughts, not his own. So one thing led to another and we fell out of touch.

Now I get the latest… same old shit out of him to my other friend, and MY reaction really surprised me! Here we are, 25-plus years later, and it seems he’s a bit worse with the quoting LRH, etc.

Now I feel like a bigot. I don’t want this guy within 75 miles of me.

My good friend, whom I still see, is not happy either and is insulted that he is looked so down upon. I told my friend to tell the other friend, that he and I are SP’S! Next time he spouts-off with the LRH shit… just tell him we are SP’S. My stomach just turns.

Though there was talk about having a reunion of sorts… now I would go so far as to show him this thread and inform him not to talk to me till he has read it all. But that is just fantasy.

Seriously… I have no more sympathy whatsoever… and I have become hardened. It’s just so fucking old, and I don’t want to waste precious time… not anymore!

Am I a bigot??? I say HELL NO!
“Oh, crip, he’s a crapple” - Peter Griffin
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Could be: "Oh crap" <smile>

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It's getting closer to, "Oh Crap".

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Post by Wieber » Sun Aug 22, 2010 9:08 am

StevieRayFan wrote:There was a trio of us guys who had always stayed close since when we were in grade school. All of us had had our experience with scientology over the years. One of them was similar to me in terms of dedication, etc., but he was an alcoholic as long as I can remember. We had our ups and downs over the years since the ‘80’s. Eventually, we lost touch.

My other friend, I still see. He’s in touch with the one I fell out with. I get an update from time to time… don’t (didn’t have anything against him). Looking back now, one of the things I think contributed to our fallen out, was that he never let go of the church… and frankly it made me sick to hear some beered-up, drugged-up guy quoting LRH to me as if he knew what he was talking about. He was just quoting someone else’s thoughts, not his own. So one thing led to another and we fell out of touch.

Now I get the latest… same old shit out of him to my other friend, and MY reaction really surprised me! Here we are, 25-plus years later, and it seems he’s a bit worse with the quoting LRH, etc.

Now I feel like a bigot. I don’t want this guy within 75 miles of me.

My good friend, whom I still see, is not happy either and is insulted that he is looked so down upon. I told my friend to tell the other friend, that he and I are SP’S! Next time he spouts-off with the LRH shit… just tell him we are SP’S. My stomach just turns.

Though there was talk about having a reunion of sorts… now I would go so far as to show him this thread and inform him not to talk to me till he has read it all. But that is just fantasy.

Seriously… I have no more sympathy whatsoever… and I have become hardened. It’s just so fucking old, and I don’t want to waste precious time… not anymore!

Am I a bigot??? I say HELL NO!
Agreed. You're not.

Your close friend should tell your far friend to go back, that things have changed inside scientology, that a lot of SPs have been found, declared and offloaded, that you've heard progress on the bridge is faster. Of course when your far friend goes back he will have to disconnect from both you and your close friend.

What I'm suggesting is actually based on something L. Ron wrote. He said something along the lines of if you're having trouble with dealing with a person turn them around and shove them toward the abyss.

"So here's the deal, Far Friend, either go back into scientology and disconnect from us or STFU with the Hubbard dreck."
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Post by Sea Horse » Sun Aug 22, 2010 8:22 pm

Wieber wrote:Of course when your far friend goes back he will have to disconnect from both you and your close friend.
Well that's one way to get rid of someone. The "Church" of Scientology is very good at this. Let them take care of getting rid of the dude for you.

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Post by Wieber » Mon Aug 23, 2010 1:48 am

Sea Horse wrote:
Wieber wrote:Of course when your far friend goes back he will have to disconnect from both you and your close friend.
Well that's one way to get rid of someone. The "Church" of Scientology is very good at this. Let them take care of getting rid of the dude for you.

:proud:
The real hope in telling him to go back is to wake him up to the idea that he's better off away from scientology.
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Post by StevieRayFan » Mon Aug 23, 2010 4:46 am

Hey Wieber, Hey Sea Horse,

I don’t care about a person’s color, background, etc., and I truly look at a person’s character. Thing is, with this guy in his mind he has been in the church for as long as I have been out… and he used to be one of my best friends long before scientology. He’s been up and down, rich and poor. But he is a scientologist in every way that turns my gut… though he has been “out” for as long as I can remember.

I was just surprised at my OWN reaction. I’ve been through this so many times with other scientologists. They’re not human, they’re not real, they are parrots and they make me sick because at the very underlining consideration they view me as an underling… a misinformed idiot… and that’s how I have been treated by them for as long as I can remember.

I give this guy NO consideration or room for help. He’s WAY too far gone… and frankly he deserves his fate… 2 DUI’s, no driver’s license, no job, WOG wife left him and took the kids, drunk every day, every day, for as long as I can remember. And he is not exactly loyal to his women, either… if you catch my drift.

But he can sit down, half crocked, and tell you what YOUR problem is, all based on LRH quotes. Makes me sick. I give him no hope… and it surprises me that I could be that way. Normally I am not. Not with real people, anyways.

We were teenagers when we got in. For most of my life he has been a best friend.

I wouldn’t let him in my front door at this point, and it upsets me because, I’d take a friend in for as long as it takes to get him on his feet… as long as it takes. I’ve done it.

Like I said, I am shocked at myself. I know that it is primarily because he has never kicked the Hubardian brain washing, which is at the bottom of my feelings. It’s REALLY hard to describe my disdain and disgust. Yet in my heart I know I am justified for having such feelings.

I guess this is another effect from this most horrible experience. Till now I have felt strong in my recovery. But I don’t like what I feel towards this guy, yet I know my feelings are correct and in the end they will protect me.

Damn.
“Oh, crip, he’s a crapple” - Peter Griffin
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Could be: "Oh crap" <smile>

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It's getting closer to, "Oh Crap".

http://www.scientologydisconnection.com/

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