thanks Magoo and Lucy,,,
Daisy, I know what you mean about the lack of emotions in scientology.
If someone close to you were to die, it was expected that you would have 3-4 sessions and be done with it,,, move on,,, get into present time..
The lack of compasion for "sam" and his family, and all the other who have been traumatized,,,,, only to be told they "pulled it in",,, is just unspeakable.
I am sorry I spent so much time on the "hope Train"... when I was on staff (and I'm sure that this is true of a lot of ex sea org) I was not unaware of the outnesses, or mean/ unjust things that happened,,, I just kept on hoping that tomorrow would be better.
So, my attention was on the good times of the past and the hope that they would come back. Very much like the battered spouse RVY speaks of.
Again, it comes back, I think, to what Sea Ogre was saying --- ACCEPTANCE. I had to finally accept that the group was the way that it was. It just was. and I was either of member of it THE WAY THAT IT WAS, or I wasn't.
I guess I felt I was truly a member of some other group that I hoped would arrive in the not too distant future..
That's what hte hope train does.
Where as ACCEPTANCE is what allows you to really move forward into the future.
The Hope Train hooked many of my friends as well. I remember one telling me that when good stuff happened, he would consciously remind himself to take note of this goodness and this good feeling so that he could hold onto it when the S*** came, (which was inevitable).
I was on the hope train for years.
There are many others still on it.