It hit me like a ton of bricks, like a bolt from the blue. One day I
was just wondering why isn't there a Scientologist doing the TV talk
show circuit demonstrating exteriorization (leaving their body) or
rattling off 200 or 300 facts about their last lifetime and challenging
anyone to prove any of those facts to be wrong. Why isn't the CIA,
FBI or White House freaked out that Scientologists are going exterior
and listening in on top-secret briefings? Why aren't Scientologist
rewriting history books based on what they actually saw in their past
lives? I stopped. It was at this point I felt sick to my stomach. I
became light headed and felt I might pass out. I had to sit down.
Then I said to myself maybe no one is doing these things because they
can't. No one has those abilities. No Scientologist (including
staff) had ever told me not to tell anyone if I could go exterior or
recall past life details. In fact it's encouraged, just read some of
the advanced magazine OT ability stories. People going exterior,
moving heavy objects by thought alone but none of these people ever
appeared on Oprah or gave a demonstration to local Scientologists. No
one is stopping them, they just can't do it, no one can. This was
the point when I realized Scientology was a con, a horrible hoax. Yes,
it sounded to good to be true from the beginning but I bought it, hook,
line and sinker. I felt very stupid and very betrayed. I felt I was
getting something incredibly valuable for practically nothing. Yes I
was willing to pay $300,000 or even more to find out who I was. It
seemed so cheap at the time but now my most senior stable datum in
Scientology has crumbled. Am I a spiritual being? That's what I
wanted to know 26 years ago when I took my first step into Scientology.
I didn't know then and after doing OT 5, L10, 11, 12 and lots of
training, being on staff at two different orgs, I don't know now.
What I didn't realize was neither did Hubbard. He was just another
snake oil salesman but I just didn't see it until I woke up.

Today I'm very much awake with have both feet on the ground and the
sun seems just a little bit brighter than the day before. Friends I
thought I had are quickly fading but new ones are popping up all over.
I also speak out more and more each day about my experiences in
Scientology because I know what a difference it would have made to me
26 years ago if I would have read a story like mine.

If you have left Scientology and haven't told your story, do so now.
Your story could make all the difference to many people.

Steve

I just Looooooooooooooovvvvve stories like this.

Steve, if you read this MB, then well done on waking up and getting out of SCN.

Keep talking and posting to let people know the truth about the cult.

Opter

This is great. Makes me feel good!!!

I have found that even the smallest thing I do in my daily life helps others more than EVERYTHING I did as a $cientologist or "OT ambassador".

In fact, when I saw that, I realized that EVERYTHING A PERSON DOES IN $CIENTOLOGY IS GEARED TOWARD HELPING NO ONE BUT THE DWARF, AND IS ACTUALLY DETRIMENTAL TO ALL OTHER LIFE.

I'm glad when anyone leaves, but especially an "OT".

Arnie that was a great little story . Thanks for posting Steve story on here . Hey post more of steves stuff on here soon k Keep telling the true harms of scientology . Scientology is Evil to the bone and needs to be know as it really is. IMHO Tommy Gorman

Thanks for posting this Arnie ... Steve if you happen to lurk OCMB Congratulations!

Hey i really would love to read more from Steve's life in scientology . Arnie please get more man . Keep telling the true harms of scientology .IMHO Tommy Gorman

Thanks for your great post Steve, devastatingly simple and straight to the target.

Your mentioning how badly you wanted to find out if you were a spiritual
being and the part it has played to fall into the clutches of $cientology has
brought back many bitter memories, I understand EXACTLY what you mean.

It is particularly important when it is an OT that comes out with these statements, after many years of indoctrination and lies.

Now you can REALLY help others, by exposing as much truth as possible about the spiritual mafia and helping as many people as possible not to fall into their clutches and as many current deluded members as possible to leave asap.

Well done and thank you again.

I commend you for your courage on telling your story. This is the first time I share my experience with Scientology... I was at a fair in Ottawa, Ontario. Scientology was there selling their book "Dianetics" with the classical tell-tale Volcano on the book. My friend and I went there of course not ever hearing about Scientology before... and they had the e-meter and we took the test (of course... their typical words... You have issues...) and of course purchased the Dianetics book. They did mention it was part of Tom Cruise's success in acting at the time. I knew something was fishy there and I didn't trust the people there. When I got home, my father told me that it was Scientology, I started doing my research, I viewed xenu.net for the first time sometime later, and I haven't touched "Dianetics" since... I know the truth behind it now. I don't even know where the book is anymore. Lets hear more stories people. Lets expose the TRUTH about Scientology. Its too bad they kept you in their control all those years. Don't feel bad... it happens to the best of us. It is better to tell the truth then withhold it all. I want to hear your stories from inside and the horrors that went on. Even if you are scared, I am here, we are all here to support you and everyone else here who wants to share their story with us all.

And of course, thank you for sharing your story with us.

That is great pharbizorg how you found out the true harms of scientology so fast and got away. Good job on being so smart man. Keep posting . Scientology is Evil . It is great when you speak out. IMHO Tommy Gorman

Good for you Steve, welcome to the rest of your life.

It is so cool Steve can have fun from now on and live better. It can be really hard to leave scientology . I am just happy for him that he did not die in scientology. Steve your now free of crap and Evil. Keep telling the true harms of scientology everyone . IMHO Tommy Gorman

Thank you Arnie, I needed to read this and remember.

Scout

I would love to get more details of this guys story, Arnie. Thanks for the post.

I know many OT5's and the majority of them end being very weird after doing the level. I am sure it is becuase they are talking to their so called Body Thetans all over their body asking the command "Who are you? What are you?" over and over. This can make someone a Schitzo just like the founder was LRH. I would love to hear this guys full story to hopefully soon. Keep telling the true harms of Scientology!

IMHO Tommy Gorman