The Affidavit Thread

[Snow White]

Many people have written affidavits in the past which are very informative. I would like to keep adding them to this thread as I come across them so that these stories can be made known once again and discussed. Please add any you also come across.

Here's the first one :

SUSAN SIMMEL


167 Pekara Drive
Deerfield, Illinois 60015


August, 1989


I became involved in Scientology in 1978. I was attracted to the
camaraderie, and impressed with the apparent importance and size
of the movement. Like the promotion had stated, I too envisioned a
better world without crime, insanity, or war. I was hopeful in
improving the state of mankind. I was equally excited by the
prospect of becoming a kind of spiritual super-human with
abilities that mere mortals have only dreamed about. I was
promised that Scientology and its technology had all the answers,
and was the only way to achieve total freedom; LRH had mapped the
only route. This was all possible because of the genius of LRH;
the tech was his great sacrifice and gift to man.


I was urged to join staff, and did so, because staff members were
doing a great service and would also get their services for free.
I lasted only 3 months because I could not afford the job. I was
quick to discover that staff members were not getting their "free"
services. Leaving staff was frowned upon by the group.


By this time I had dropped all my former (ordinary) friends,
proceeded to alienate my family, looked at all non-Scientologists
as I was told to--like stupid, unaware, dramatizing
degenerates--and looked at the world through the veil of
Scientology.


My new husband and myself moved to L.A. so that he could become a
professional auditor which was a much-needed and greatly
appreciated job that was looked upon very highly by LRH. An
auditor, it was said, would make a lot of money. I thought I had
married a guy that was going to be incredibly respected in
society, and very well paid in his profession. I worked, and he
studied. I was offered a job by the Guardian's Office as a
receptionist-plant in an office in San Francisco where I would
keep my ears open and relay information back to the "Church". As a
newlywed, I turned the job down.


We lived for the next seven years in my in-law's basement. We did
so because the rapidly rising costs of Scientology services made
it impossible to move out. There was a lot of pressure to not
spend ANY money on anything except Scientology. My husband's
prestigious position as an auditor proved implausible. Any
prospects he had were swiftly swayed to receive services
elsewhere, like at an Org, and the "Church"'s policy of "field
auditing" was changing, making it difficult to work as an auditor.
We eventually gave up on the idea of earning a living this way.


Our daughter was born, and I was pressured to obey LRH's
preference of no breastfeeding of babies. I went so far as to
write him personally and querry his position, but he reiterated
his preference. Our daughter's front baby teeth were destroyed by
LRH's baby formula which required barley water, milk, and corn
syrup.


There was a fast and furious rumor line in the Chicago area around
that period of time. There were cliques, intense competition
between people and their positions in Scientology, and competition
between the Mission and the "Church". Everyone knew everyone
else's business. Amid this atmosphere, I made a grave mistake. In
my desire to "keep Scientology working", I wrote-up a local
opinion leader due to my doubts about his credibility. Trouble
began, people quit talking to me, my husband was forced to leave
his business, and the group tried to convince him that I was
suppressive. I was publicly humiliated by being forced to answer
to their contrived inquisition. My reputation was slow to recover,
and was really never the same. I had never known upset greater
that at that time. I had never been treated so coldly or judged so
harshly. I had entrusted my life, my entire identity to this
"religious" group, yet I was accumulating more grief, loneliness
and despair than compassion and/or spiritual awareness. The
"Church" had repeatedly promised to straighten out this mess. I
would tell of my plight over and over again to any staff that came
into Chicago from any part of the country. This was always
humiliating and uncomfortable. Always they would promise to help
but under the condition that I buy services. I was talked into
flying to the Washington Org out of desperation; they would help
me if I bought $21,000 of services. I considered a second
mortgage. There was heavy pressure to do this, and I received
phone calls from L.A. and Florida well into many nights. When I
finally said No, there was great, harsh criticism and make-wrong.
I was again ostracized from the group.


A very highly positioned staff member threatened me with expulsion
because I was upsetting the Scientology field. He swore at me,
screamed at me, called me names, and I was not allowed to leave
the ORG until I passed an "end rudes check" proving that I had or
had not lied. All of this degradation and humiliation was because
I had reported on a well-paying member. This treatment was
confusing as I was only obeying LRH and his rules. I spent many
sleepless nights, and experienced great upset.


Meanwhile, the prices of SCN had skyrocketed putting the cost of
our services well in excess of $100,000 each; an unattainable
goal. We knew we could never afford this as those prices increased
each month. We complained that the prices were too high, and thus
called into the Org for a "roll-back" which was designed to trace
down rumors. Not being able to afford our freedom basically meant
that we were unable, no good, and would never amount to anything.
This was a devastating realization. I began to think the SCN was
not for the good of mankind as the average person's income was
even less than mine. People could not have spiritual freedom if
they did not have a bottomless checkbook. This all made no sense.


Negative stories were surfacing about Scientology. The "Church"
had reorganized, people were thrown out, and the prices were
ridiculous. I felt that there was nowhere to turn. I could never
be "free", but was told that if I didn't proceed up the Bridge I
was doomed, and life would be horrible. I was an emotional wreck,
my husband was an unemployed, emotional wreck, there was no
future, and life was no fun at all. The thought of leaving the
"Church" and becoming an ordinary person was sickening and
unthinkable.


I felt like a misfit though; I didn't fit into Scientology's mold,
and didn't fit into society anymore either. I wanted to leave it
all behind me but was constantly reminded that the only way to
make it in life was through Scientology. It was a never ending
delemma, a brainwashing. As I distanced myself, I became more able
to question the things that didn't make sense. Where was the
comfort I had sought through my "religion"? How could a "religion"
cause me so much grief and desperation? Yet, I could not lift that
Scientology veil and see the world clearly. I could not because I
had been told repeatedly by LRH that there was an advanced level
beyond my ability to recognize, 0T 3, and I thought that this
might be the reason for my disaffection. I felt that once I knew
this level I would be able to leave the "Church", that is, if I
lived through it, because I was not properly prepared. When I read
the secret story of 0T 3 and did not die, as I had been told, I
was on the long road to recovery. I have since read the story of
the advanced level OT 8, and did not subsequently spontaneously
combust either.


I have spent countless hours analyzing the effects of Scientology
and the stories of LRH. My experience with the "Church" shows the
malevolent side of the group. My benevolence was exploited. I am
concerned with the repercussions of exposing myself, because I
know the "Church" is a powerful and wealthy organization, but the
truth must be made known.

[Snow White]

DECLARATION OF ROXANNE FRIEND


I, Roxanne Friend, make the following declaration on personal
knowledge except for those statements made on information and belief
and as to those things I believe them to be true.
I have been told that I am asking the court to determine the validity
of Scientology as a religion or the truth or falsity of Scientology's
religious concepts. If the above is true, this would include the
court's having to determine the validity of Scientology's teaching
that human beings are impaired by things called "body thetans" and
"clusters" of body thetans that are stuck together on human bodies
through no volition of their own. Accordingly, Scientology teaches
that these must be gotten rid of, exorcised if you will, through
Scientology auditing/counseling called the "Upper Levels." Scientology
also states that planet earth, millions or billions of years ago, was
originally populated by beings transported here by Xenu of the
Galactic Federation. These beings were tortured, frozen, clumped
together and electronically forced to reside in various volcanoes.
Scientology's beliefs are not the essence of my suit on fraud against
the defendant. Is is my contention that Scientology was presented to me as a science. It was my understanding that everything about Scientology
could be proven factually in the same manner as a scientist proves a
scientific fact. These points are discussed at length in many
Scientology publications. The Scientologist is not exposed to the
above teachings until long after he/she has been indoctrinated into
the group and subjected to mind control. Thus, for me, it became
impossible to see the conflict between the scientific pretenses of
Scientology and the "beliefs."


4. As I stated on page 717 of my deposition, I never accepted
Scientology as a religion or belief and I continued to consider myself
Jewish throughout my association with Scientology. I was also told
that Scientology attempted to gain its status as a religion for two
purposes--one being to avoid taxation for the organization and its
constituents; and two, being to avoid having to come under scrutiny
for its practices of Scientology and the far-out nature of the Upper
Levels while I was still a member.


5. I continually and constantly relied on the teachings of L. Ron
Hubbard, the organization and the classes, auditing and publications
of Defendants. This occurred during a period spanning twelve years and
eight months from May 1977 to January 1990.


6. Originally, I was given a book entitled Dianetics: The Modern
Science of Mental Health. I did not know it then, but this book is the
basic Scientology text, referred to as Book One, and it is re-read and
re-studied throughout the various levels of Scientology. In this book,
Hubbbard claims that all his teachings were an exact science. It was
this claim that there was an exact science that could be the answer to
all mankind's problem that seduced me into Scientology. Hubbard, and
the Defendants, also claimed that it was a truth of science discovered
by studies based on the scientific method, that unwanted emotions can
be cured forever by addressing them psychosomatically with dianetics
auditing.


7. Sometimes it is difficult to address the difference between how I
feel now, having left the "church" of Scientology versus how I felt
while I was actually going through all this. I have had two years of
counseling that has helped to release me from some of the mind control
techniques and indoctrination techniques that were repeatedly used on
me even during times of sleep and nutrition depravation and during
times of great emotional pain and distress such as deaths in my
family.


8. While I was a Scientologist, at any points where I would have a
thought negatively or critically about a church executive, the
organization or the techniques used in Scientology, I would have to
squash these thoughts since if I shared them I would be subject to
expensive auditing or other disciplinary actions or projects. This is
another aspect of the way Scientology controls the thoughts of its
constituents. You are trained to only allow certain thoughts or it
will cost you time, money and your pride since you will be punished
for thinking thoughts that the organization does not want you to
think. For example, you are considered and labeled a criminal if you
are caught not "keeping Scientology working" and many people were
continually indoctrinated into that concept (including myself) by
being forced to take a "Keeping Scientology Working" course under
threat of being kicked out.


9. After having read the Dianetic book on my own initially, the
techniques and goals and products of Dianetics were drilled into my
head on numerous occasions:


(1) when I took the Basic Dianetics Book course;


(2) on the Hubbard Dianetics course;


(3) on the Dianetics Internship which was at the Advanced Organization
of Los Angeles (AOLA), a division of Defendant Western United States;


(4) on the Senior Dianetics Course;


(5) on the New Era Dianetics Course which I took at the Los Angeles
organization.


10. The other book that I relied on heavily that also makes repeated
representations about Scientology as an empirical science and
statements about improvements in health, raised IQ, better
relationships and a better, happier life--i.e., that I would get all
of these benefits by following Hubbard's scientific studies in his
Science of Survival. I had to read Science of Survival three times.
Once on my "Potential Trouble Source/Suppressive Person" course in
1977 or 1978. Then I was to re-do this course between 1985 and 1989,
at least once at AOLA and on another occasion when I was required to
do so by Defendant FLAG.


11. To further show my reliance on the above books plus the numerous
people in the organizations who reiterated the above to me, my actions
and thoughts were completely attuned to what did Scientology want one
to think and do. I didn't do as well as I could have at UCLA because I
didn't have time to study since my days were composed of being on
"course" in Scientology and getting Scientology auditing. My entire
thought processes and life were completely wrapped in Scientology and
I did not have a life or thoughts of my own really except what I was
trained to think by Scientology and as a result of my indoctrination
by classes and auditing in Scientology, thereby becoming continually
reindoctrinated.


12. As I stated on pages 624-630 of my depositions, I believed that
Scientology cured illnesses as this was taught to me in Scientology.


13. As I stated on pages 643 and 668, I truly believed it when I was
told that Scientolgy was a science and not a belief system. It is only
after two years of counseling that I can really even begin to face the
idea that the things I was trained to practice as a science was not a
science. It is very traumatic to be facing these falsehoods and the
detriment the fraudulent claims have cause me.


14. During my relationship with Scientology, I was referred by
Scientology to the Shaw Health Center for regular medical treatment. I
was told that all of the doctors at Shaw were practicing
Scientologists who used Scientology principles and techniques in their
diagnosis and treatment. I was consistently dissuaded by my auditors
and case supervisors from obtaining treatment from nonScientologist
physicians.


15. The "Church" of Scientology forced me to participate in what they
are calling religious practices that I myself did not want to
participate in. For example, in the spring and summer of 1987 I was
given auditing that I didn't want and was not allowed to leave Flag
when I wanted to. I was made to stay there for months to undergo
auditing that I did not want and even though I told them I wanted to
go back to Los Angeles because my father was visiting from the east, I
was not permitted to do so. During this time I went from having mono
to having pneumonia and getting very ill. Still, I was made to do auditing and was not allowed to leave. I also missed being Maid of Honor at my girlfriend's wedding because the case supervisor would not let me leave to go to the wedding. The fact that being at Flag was against my will is in my deposition on page 334.


16. Then around October 1988 I was told by Flag staff member Arda
Froese that I was ordered by Senior Case Supervisor International,
Jeff Walker, to go down to Florida to do a special program he had
written. I was then ordered to go back down and do more "Introspection
Rundown". At that point I said NO.


17. In December 1989 I went back to Florida for the purpose of doing a
process called the Purification Rundown but was again forced to do the
Introspection Rundown auditing. I left without Case Supervisor
approval which was always required prior to leaving the Flag Land Base
in Florida. I left in the middle of the night and took a taxi to a
hotel near Tampa airport because I did not want to be on Scientology
premises or continue the Introspection Rundown. Also, I made phone
calls to the Clearwater, Florida or Tampa, Florida police saying that
I was being held against my will. The Scientologists had the phone in
my room cut off when I did this.


18. During the period the organization had place 2-5 staff in the room
next to mine who constantly watched me and intruded on my life. I had
absolutely no privacy. The followed me to breakfast, lunch and dinner.
If I tried to talk with police, the switchboard cut my phone off for
hours on end which is mentioned in my deposition on pages 471 and 472.
The "Church" of Scientology staff members. They refused to allow me
even to have meals with my friends who were in Florida at the same time.
Additionally, the organization did not allow me to move around freely
as I wished as mentioned in my deposition on paged 476 and 477.


19. After I left Flag without permission in December 1989, I believe
the organization then felt it necessary to force me into their
procedures with greater force than before. This started with sending
several staff members from Florida who came to my apartment in Los
Angeles to try to persuade me to have auditing.


20. The staff members of the Florida Scientology organization
subsequently drugged me (deposition pages 532-535) with the approval
of Flag and senior officials of the "Church" of Scientology. Then they
woke me up in the middle of the night (deposition page 511), took me
in a recreational vehicle against my will (deposition pages 529 and
540) and subsequently held me in the rv and then in a room in Florida
(deposition page 510) for a period totalling about four weeks, all
against my will. I made at least two attempts to escape but I was
bodily forced by the guards to return.


21. None of the above events happened with my consent. And I was kept
imprisoned in Florida even after numerous written requests on my part
to the staff of defendant FLAG, specifically my case Supervisor
Richard Reese, stating I was being held against my will, that I wanted
to leave and that I believed that what they were doing was illegal.
See Exhibits 33 and 34 to Deposition of Roxanne Friend.


22. In addition to the trauma of the kidnapping and imprisonment, the Scientologists took away my privacy. In December
1989 and January 1990, I was spied upon constantly, 24 hours a day. My
phone calls were monitored (when I had a phone in December); my
comings and goings were reported on; and, of course, in January when I
was completely imprisoned, every aspect of my life was under constant
surveillance.


23. Prior to the kidnapping, I went to work, kept up with all the
other regular facets of life, paid bills, and kept regular and
excellent care of my horse. I had a social life, albeit one that was
stifled by Scientology control. I went out regularly on Friday nights
to dinner and a movie.


24. After I was released, I was unable to function at all. I could not
work, I could not take care of personal business matters. I couldn't
think properly or have any social intercourse what-so-ever. I was so
unbalanced by the experience that I was arrested for an assault and
ended up under observation at U.S.C. Medical Center.


25. It is difficult to talk about and describe the feeling of being
held by the Scientologists down in Florida. I felt like a hostage or a
prisoner. I felt that nothing I could do could make a difference and
that I better be quiet so as to protect my self. Today I am trying to
pick up and arrange the fragments of my life and go forward.


Sworn to under penalty of perjury under the laws of the state of
California this 6th day of December 1991.


Roxanne Friend

[Snow White]

AFFIDAVIT OF WILLIAM FRANKS



I, WILLIAM FRANKS, hereby state under the pains

and penalties of perjury that I have personal knowledge of the

following:

1. I joined the Church of Scientology in 1968 and

between 1970 and 1979 at various times, I have worked directly

and personally with L. Ron Hubbard. In December 1979, I

was appointed by Hubbard to be "Senior Management Executive

International." In this position, I was in charge of all of the

administrative bureaus of the Church of Scientology throughout

the world, and worked on a regular basis with all of the highest

ranking officials of the Church of Scientology, including Mary

Sue Hubbard, David Miscavige, John Nelson, Herbert Parkhouse,

and many others.

2. In December 1980, I was appointed by L. Ron

Hubbard to be "Executive Director International" of all Churches

of Scientology throughout the world. I saw an order written by

L. Ron Hubbard himself appointing me to this position. The last

Executive Director International was L. Ron Hubbard himself, who

allegedly resigned from that position in 1966. Therefore, by

virtue of this appointment, which was a lifetime appointment, I

was senior to every Scientology executive throughout the world.

Theoretically, since I held the post of Executive Director

International, no person, even L. Ron Hubbard, could countermand

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my orders. However, as I learned shortly after my appointment,

this was not how Hubbard intended me to operate.

3. Within a period of weeks following my

appointment, I learned that I was required to sign and file a

written resignation as Executive Director International which

was undated and which could be used at any time to remove me by

Hubbard. This was in keeping with the policy of Hubbard that

every Church of Scientology corporation officer or director must

resign in advance of their appointment and sign undated letters

of resignation so that they could be removed by Hubbard at will.

4. Additionally, I learned that I was to receive

all of my orders and directives through David Miscavige, who

held the position of being the direct liaison to L. Ron Hubbard,

who at that time, was in hiding. As the administrative head of

the Church, I actually would receive my orders from Hubbard via

Miscavige and implement the orders.

5. Throughout the period of time that I served as

Executive Director International, I observed the highest leaders

of the Church use documents and activities relating to illegal,

criminal, and tortious conduct against many individuals who have

been designated enemies of the Church. These individuals

include Attorney Michael J. Flynn and many of his clients. At

this time, Michael Flynn was one of the three top enemies of

Scientology.

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6. In 1980 and 1981, I have personal knowledge of

many orders issued by L. Ron Hubbard concerning attacks against

Michael Flynn. Hubbard considered Flynn to be a "whore" and

Hubbard ordered him to be totally ruined. We were ordered to do

a complete investigation of Flynn, find or "manufacture " crimes

he had committed, expose his "crimes" to his clients and to law

enforcement officials, ruin his law practice, have him disbarred

and file numerous law suits or bar complaints against him

without regard to whether the complaints were meritorious or

not. L. Ron Hubbard personally ordered all these activities and

I saw many of the orders.

7. In 1980, L. Ron Hubbard personally ordered

Michael Flynn's trash to be picked up and gone through on a

daily basis. This was part of a huge investigation of Flynn

which Hubbard had ordered. According to Hubbard, and

Scientology policy, any individual who attacked Scientology must

be a criminal. Therefore, Hubbard ordered us to do as thorough

an investigation of Flynn as possible, to uncover Flynn's

crimes. We were ordered to go all the way back to his days in

law school.

8. When Hubbard ordered someone's crimes to be

found, his agents would "manufacture" crimes, if actual crimes

could not be found or did not exist. In fact, Hubbard's policy

on this issue specifically stated as follows:

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"In the face of danger from Govts or courts there

are only two errors one can make: (a) do nothing

and (b) defend. The right things to do with any

threat are to (1) Find out if we want to play the

offered game or not, (2) If not, to derail the

offered game with a feint or attack upon the most

vulnerable point which can be disclosed in the

enemy ranks, (3) Make enough threat or clamor to

cause the enemy to quail, (4) Don't try to get any

money out of it, (5) Make every attack by us also

sell Scientology and (6) Win. If attacked on some

vulnerable point by anyone or anything or any

organization, always find or manufacture enough

threat against them to cause them to sue for

peace. Peace is bought with an exchange of

advantage, so make the advantage and then settle.

Don't ever defend. Always attack. Don't ever do

nothing. Unexpected attacks in the rear of the

enemey's front ranks work best."

Consequently, Hubbard's agents routinely manufactured incidents

and created incidents so that we would have "proof" of the

crimes our enemy had committed. A copy of the policy is

attached hereto.

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9. Once we had found Flynn's "crimes," we were

ordered to expose them. Consequently, the Guardian's Office

agents contacted Flynn's clients, Scientology and

non-Scientology, with the intent of separating Flynn from his

clients in order to destroy his law practice. Those were

Hubbard's orders.

10. It was the policy of Hubbard and the Church

of Scientology throughout this time, to use the law to " attack"

and "harass" its enemies by bringing frivolous lawsuits against

them. Hubbard himself ordered lawsuits to be brought against

Flynn and his clients. These lawsuits were brought without any

concern as to whether they were meritorious or not, the whole

purpose was to "bury" Flynn in these suits. The filing of these

suits was to be very highly publicized by our public relations

people so that Flynn's reputation in the community would be

further harmed.

11. Pursuant to Church policy, because Hubbard

had ordered certain policies and operations to be taken against

Flynn, he would be informed of all actions taken pursuant to his

operations. Therefore, he was regularly briefed about attempts

to find Flynn's crimes, to expose Flynn as a criminal, to have

Flynn disbarred, the lawsuits against him, and other

operations. Hubbard would have also been informed of the

numerous attempts made by the Guardian's office to plant spies

in Flynn's office. These actions would have been taken pursuant

to Hubbard's orders to investigate Flynn as fully as possible.

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12. In 1981, we obtained from the trash, a copy

of a draft prospectus for a corporation named Flynn Associates

Management Corporation (FAMCO). This prospectus made it look

like Flynn was attempting to finance the Scientology litigation

by selling shares in the litigation. From the trash documents

and other investigations of Flynn's finances, we already thought

that he would not have enough money to finance the litigation.

In fact, Hubbard ordered us to find out who was paying Flynn.

This prospectus seemed to provide the answer, and it was sent to

Hubbard. In fact, we later received information that shares in

FAMCO were never sold or even offered.

13. After seeing the FAMCO prospectus, Hubbard

issued an order stating that this proved that Flynn was

sydicating litigation. We were ordered to have him disbarred on

the basis of the FAMCO documents. FAMCO was viewed as the best

method of ruining Flynn's reputation in the legal community

because he had engaged in unethical conduct. Hubbard further

ordered that Flynn's clients be contacted and informed about

FAMCO and that Flynn would be shortly disbarred and sent to

jail. An attorney in Boston, Harvey Silverglate, was specially

hired to make sure that Flynn was disbarred. He was instructed

to file bar complaints and make sure that Flynn was unable to

practice law. At that same time, we were filing bar complaints

and trying to ruin Flynn's reputation, we had received

information that FAMCO shares had never been sold and nothing

was ever done with this corporation. In other words, we knew

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our allegations about Flynn and his involvement with FAMCO were

false. Nonetheless, pursuant to Hubbard's instructions to ruin

Flynn, we still made the allegations and attempted to have Flynn

disbarred.

14. After Hubbard ordered me to fire his wife,

Mary Sue Hubbard as controller, I no longer saw copies of

Hubbard's orders to the Guardian's Office. These went directly to

Norman Starkey and Terry Gamboa. Nonetheless, Starkey and

Gamboa frequently referred to orders they received from Hubbard

including his instructions on how to follow up on the

disbarrment proceedings. Again, pursuant to Scientology policy,

because Hubbard had ordered certain actions to be taken, he

would have been briefed and informed about all actions taken

pursuant to his instructions.

15. In November 1981, I came into increasing

conflict with David Miscavige, the man who relayed Hubbard's

orders to me and everyone else in Scientology. The reason for

this conflict was because I attempted to block many of the

criminal and illegal operations implemented by Miscavige and the

Guardian's Office on behalf of Hubbard. In December 1981, I was

removed from my position, and then held against my will and

locked up in Gilman Hotsprings, California for a period of

weeks.

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16. While I was Executive Director of the Church

of Scientology, we continually attempted to shield L. Ron

Hubbard from any legal liability as a result of Church of

Scientology activities. To do this, we continually lied in

sworn affidavits and depositions about our contacts with L. Ron

Hubbard, his control of the Church of Scientology, and our

knowledge of his whereabouts. These perjurious statements were

intentionally and willfully made, with the knowledge of Hubbard

himself. In fact, he ordered many of the statements to be made.

The principal responsibility of attempting to shield Hubbard

from legal liability was handled by Norman Starkey and Terry

Gamboa. I had numerous discussions with Starkey and Gamboa

about shielding Hubbard from legal liabilities, despite his

total management control over all phases of the Church of

Scientology operations.



Signed under the pains and penalties of perjury

this 3rd day of April, 1985 in Boston,

Massachusetts.


http://gerryarmstrong.org/50grand/legal/affi-franks-1985-04-03.html

[programmer_guy]

Affidavit of Dennis Erlich
http://www.holysmoke.org/cos/erlich-aff.htm

[programmer_guy]

Affidavit of Garry Scarff
http://www.anti-scientologie.ch/affidavit-scarff.htm

[programmer_guy]

Declaration of Joyce Stephenson
http://www.whyaretheydead.net/krasel/aff_js86.html

[tom_]

[Snow White]

DECLARATION OF MARTIN OTTMANN
I) PREMISE
I, Martin Ottmann, am a witness in the case before the Superior Court of the State of California, in and for the County Los Angeles, known as "Uwe Geertz and Steven Fishman vs. Church of Scientology International et. al.", Case No. BC 122 467.
I am a German citizen, 30 years of age and I am living in the town of Stuttgart of the German state Baden-Württemberg. From 1990 until 1992 I was a staff member of the Scientology organization "Flag Service Organization, Inc." in Clearwater, Florida.

Mr. Fishman and Mr. Geertz asked me to give an account about my experiences with Scientology and the Sea Org for their case, which I want to do hereby.


II) ACCOUNT OF MY EXPERIENCES WITH SCIENTOLOGY AND THE SEA ORGANIZATION
List Of Contents:
A) Brief Description Of My Scientology Career
B) The Managing Of The Flag Service Org In Theory And Practice

C) How Scientology Ethics Was Applied

D) Nervous Breakdowns, Collapses, Etc.

E) The Politics Of Control Within The Sea Org

F) The Term "End Of Cycle"

G) The Campaign Against Time Magazine

H) "Fair Game" Or The Designated "Handling" Of "Squirrels"

I) The Fear Of A Raid

J) The Scientology Theory Of A World Conspiracy

K) My Personal Opinion About Scientology

L) List Of Attached Documents



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A) Brief Description Of My Scientology Career
The Start
In 1989 I was living in Stuttgart, Germany. I had a job as a Chemical-technical Assistant and worked in a little laboratory. My hobby was playing saxophone, which I practiced a lot.
One day my Saxophon-teacher Albert Lee lent me the Dianetics-book, which I read within a few days. In the back of the book some "Dianetics Centers" located in Germany were listed. I chosed one in Munich and wrote them a letter, saying I was interested in getting "Auditing", the Scientology-Therapy. Few days later I got a call from a man of this organization, who convinced me to come to Munich for auditing as soon as possible. Two weeks later I drove to Munich to get 10 hours "Book-1-Auditing", which cost me 200,-DM (=120 $). After the Book-1-Auditing I was convinced by two registrars of the Scientology-organization (Scientology Kirche Bayern e.V.), which was located directly next to the Dianetics-Center, to buy 37.5 hours "Life Repair-Auditing", worth of 5,000 $. I didn't have that much money on my bankaccount, so they persuaded me to take a loan from a bank. The next day I dorve back to Stuttgart to get a bank-credit of 6,000 $, which I completely used for the Life Repair and the "Purification Rundown", another Scientology-process consisting of taking vitamins, jogging and doing sauna.

At the end of the Life Repair I became accustomed to the idea of "past lives", as I was reading the Scientology-book "Have You Lived Before This Life" at that time, so one day, while I was getting auditing and "going back in time", I thought I was looking at an atomic blitz. The auditor asked me in a repetitve way what it was, I was looking at. Then I told him that I had the idea, that the light I saw was the explosion of the atom bomb over Nagasaki in Japan and that I had been a survivor of that incident "in my last lifetime". The auditor told me that "my needle was floating" (of the E-meter), which was a kind of acknowlegdement, that my "cognition" was relevant. That was the end of my "Life Repair". I got later a certificate about the successful completion of that "rundown".


Being A Scientology Public
Until December 1989 I received the further auditing steps: Interiorisation-Rundown, Objectives Rundown, Scientology-Drug-Rundown and the Clear Certainty Rundown (CCRD). After I had finished the CCRD I was told that I was not clear. Until that time I had spent approximately 20,000 $ for Scientology auditing and books. After the Munich org had recognized that I couldn't make up more money to buy my next auditing steps, they lost their interest in my person. At that time I believed that I had lived thousands of "lifetimes" before and that I actually came from outerspace to earth, 3,876 years ago. In March 1990 I got contacted by a staff member of the Stuttgart org, Alfred Löw, who wanted me to get back "on lines". He persuaded me to do the "Mini-money-Course" (MMC) in order to solve my financial problems. Besides the MMC I bought the "Basic Study Manual" and the "Student Hat". Instead of solving it my financial situation started to get really bad. In May 1990 I took another credit from another bank and spent about money for the "L-Rundowns" (another auditing step) at the "Flag Service Organization" (FSO) and for membership-donations to the "International Association of Scientologists" (IAS). Until July 1990 I had spent approximately 50,000 $ for Scientology and had 40,000 $ worth of debts. At that time a recruitment-mission from the Flag Service Organization came to Stuttgart, who were supposed to hire Scientologists for the "Sea Org", the elite organization of Scientology. Susanne Reich, "Dissemination Establishment Officer" of the FSO, and Daniela Petretto, "Flag Personnel Procurement Officer" of the "Continental Liason Office Europe", pushed me to overcome "all barriers" in order to get to the FSO by the End of August. That meant that I had to quit my job, to give my landlord a notice and last but not least "handle" my financial obligations. Susanne had the clever idea to get my parents pay my debts. She trained me to make my mother pay me the money. After several tries, the coaching of Susanne was finally successful. My mother paid off all my bank-credits and even a bounced cheque for the FSO, worth of 7,000 $. On 30 August I left Germany for the Sea Org in Clearwater, Florida.

In The Sea Org
In Clearwater I started in the "Estates Project Force" (EPF), a Sea Org-unit, where I had to work 8 hours a day and study courses for 5 hours a day, which were a prerequisite for starting in the Sea Org. The courses were "Introduction To Scientology Ethics", "Welcome To The Sea Org", "Basic Sea Org Member Hat" and the "Personal Grooming Course". I was taught in the courses, that my primary duty as a Sea Org member would be to follow "Command Intention", the disciplines and orders of the "Commodore", Lafayette Ronald Hubbard. These were laid out in "Flag Orders", the general instructions for Sea Org personnel. I learned that the purpose of the Sea Org is to get ethics in on this planet.
I graduated in September 1990 from the EPF, after I was security-checked and got a pass from the "Fitness Board" of the "Qualifications-Division" of the "Flag Land Base" (FLB), a kind of control unit over the different Scientology-organizations in Clearwater.

First I was put on the post as a "Communicator" of the "Flag Service Consultant International" (FSC Int.) Bo Wennberg. The FSC was a network, which consisted of different Flag Service Consultants, who were located in every major Scientology-organization around the world. Its purpose was to make a lot of money by "regging publics" (=getting Scientologists pay for courses or auditing) of other orgs. My duty was to supervise the income statistics of the "FSC Int. Office" and to do whatever Bo Wennberg wanted me to do for him. After two weeks I had a breakdown, as I was totally confused and couldn't understand what was going on in that office. Around nine people were working there, mainly calling other FSCs in the world and making them produce more money and controlling their "reg-cycles". Senior executives of the FSO were regularly visiting the office and putting pressure on Bo Wennberg and his juniors. I neither didn't understand what they were doing exactly nor what I was supposed to do, and how.

As I didn't want to work there anymore, I was assigned to "MEST-Work" (any kind of "inferior" like painting, cleaning, etc.). After few days working in the Westcoast Building the "Dissemination Secretary FSO" Mike Carlson took me to his office in the Coachman Building and told me that I was originally recruited for "Division 2" and therefore belonged to the division, where he was head of. The Dissemination Division, or Div. 2, consisted of four different departments, which had the overall "Valuable Final Product" (VFP) of making a lot of money (Gross Income = GI) by regging publics. I was put into the "Department of Procurement", the Department 5.

The department 5 had four sections:

the "Addresso-Section" was a set up of a handful computers which stored all the addresses of the publics and "prospects" of the FSO together with additional informations, f. e. their standing with Scientology. There were five to six people updating the data bank, which had approximately 200,000 names in it.
The "Central Files-Section" consisted of 125,000 folders of FSO-publics and prospects, who had bought courses or auditing or who had had at least filled out a questionnaire one time in the past. The personnel of that section had to administrate the filing of the folders, which were used in other departments of the FSO too.
The "Letter Reg.-Section" had to use the CF-folders and write to the persons, to get them interested in FSO-services, so they would make an advanced payment to the FSO. I had to write to the Scientologists in Germany, Austria and Switzerland. When I started in department 5 there were four of five other letter reges.
The "Advanced Scheduling Registrar-Section" (ASR-Section) had to follow up the "hot prospects", which were turned over by the Letter Registrars to the ASR. The ASR had to make these people pay in full for the services, they were interested in.
The product of department 5, its statistic, was "Procurement GI". From October 1990 I wrote letters, day by day, around 300/400 a week. Additional to that I had to study several courses on my "Product 1". Within the Sea Org-hierarchy I was an "Expediter", someone, who still has to get familiar with the Sea Org by studying Scientology-courses, 5 hours a day, and fulfilling his duty on the assigned post. It took me until December 1990 to finish Product 1 and to start on "Product 2".

The courses I had to study on Product 1 were the "Key To Competence", the "Hubbard Qualified Scientologist", the "339R-Checksheet-How To Expand Your Org", "Staff Status 0, 1, and 2" (they consisted of various Policy Letters for Scientology-organizations), the "How To Make Work Easier"-course and the "Letter Registrar Mini Hat", which listed the general guidelines for my post as letter Registrar. From the time I finished Product 1 my studytime was limited to 2 1/2 hours per day.

On my post I had to work from 8 o'clock in the morning until 11 o'clock in the evening. Every second saturday I could get "libs" (liberty time), which meant, that I could do whatever I wanted in the afternoon of that day, if my statistics (stats) from the previous week were up-trending and if my senior had approved my written application for libs.

On Fridays and Saturdays the staff of the FSO got their pay from the "Department of Disbursement", Department 7. At the time I was in the FSO the staff of the FSO got 30 $ per week.

I had to wear a white uniform during Spring and Summer, and a blue and black one during Fall and Winter. I ate together with the other FLB staff in the Elks-Building near the Fort Harrison. My living room, which I shared usually with three or four other staff was in an appartment building at Hacienda Gardens, on Saturn Street in Clearwater.

I stayed on the post of a letter reg until September 1991. At that time a "Recruitment Mission" from the "Flag Bureaux" (FB), the lower level of the Scientology-management in Los Angeles came to the FSO. The "Mission In-Charge" (I/C) was Brian McCarthy who was holding the post of a "Deputy/Director of Procurement International Flag Bureaux" at FB. His mission was to recruit at least five more letter reges for Department 5. Hubbard had written once, that the outflow of letters would automatically regulate the income of the organization. Therefore the FSO had to produce more letters in order to get more income. That was the purpose of the Scientology-management behind that "Man Up-Mission". Shortly after I had been promoted at "Sea Org Day" in August to "Petty Officer 3rd rank" (PO3), an internal Sea Org-"rank", Brian made me the "Letter Registrar I/C", which meant that I had a higher "post". From now on I was the head of all the letter reges.


The Promotion
In November 1991 Brian busted the Director of Procurement, Flor Hellberg, from her post, after she fell to comply with one single order he gave her. In the "Captain's Office" of the Coachman Building he told me that he would like to promote me to the post of the Director of Procurement and asked me if I would take it. I said I would and from then on I was an executive of the FSO.
I represented now the department, I had to control its production and I also had to demand higher statistics from every staff of the department in every week. I also was part of GI- and executive-meetings.

I got five different seniors: The Dissemination Secretary, Rosalynne Harris (later Matt Pesch), the "Deputy/Flag Case and Course Intensive Product Officer for Gross Income" Kim Hickock, the "Deputy Flag Representative" Phillippe Renevez, the "Flag Promo-Tours Operations Officer" (FPTOO) and the "Deputy/Director of Procurement International FB". All of them could individually give me instructions and orders, verbally or in written form.

Until Spring of '92 I finished further courses, the "Letter Registrar Full Hat" of my prior post, the "Organizational Executive Course Volume 0" and "Volume 2", which covered all the policies regarding the Division 2.

Soon I had to work more than the usual 14 or 16 hours a day on my new post. As I lost personnel in the CF-Section (One staff didn't return to Clearwater after handling his visa-situation in Argentina, another one had to leave the Sea Org, as his wife got pregnant) I had to administrate the Central Files alone. I filed "invoices" and papers from the "CF-backlog" during the night, often leaving me without getting any sleep for 48 hours. There were periods, when I worked for consecutive two months without having one "libs-day". I was getting more and more numb, simultaneously I got more and more doubts about the Scientology-management. We, the staff of the FSO, worked the whole day and the whole week for 30 $ or less, and we got treated for that like we were criminals: We were shouted at by the "senior executives" of the FSO at staff musters. When the GI of the FSO dropped, our food was sometimes limited to rice and beans. Staff, who didn't produce enough, were sent to the "Rehabilitation Project Force" (RPF), the Sea Org penal colony, or assigned to MEST-Work. I couldn't understand, why we were treated like that, so I got suspicious. I began to read the "Suppressive Person-Declare"-folders, which were stored in the "Book Warehouse", where I had to collect old CF-folders from time to time. The reading of the SP-Declare folders was forbidden, but I did it anyway.

In spite of all the circumstances the GI of my department was uptrending, we even made two "Highest Evers" in May of '92 with around 105,000 $ in one week.

I even got auditing, almost two years after I started in the Sea Org. During one repair session of the "Int. rundown" I came to the conclusion that I had blasted a planet several million years ago. In July 1992 I left the FSO secretly to get a new visa, as my old one had run out in September 1991. I organized the money from Germany and took a flight from Saint Petersburg to Frankfurt, Germany, while my senior, the Dissem Sec. Matt Pesch, thought I would follow the steps of the "Leaving Staff Routing form" and wouldn't leave without notifying him.


The Mousiol Company
In Germany I stayed with my parents and planned to leave for Clearwater three weeks later, after I had gotten a new visa. The American embassies in Germany denied a new visa. So I stayed in Germany and started to work in a printing-company of a Scientologist, I had known from Clearwater. The company belonged to Peter Mousiol, who had paid around 1,500,000 $ into Scientology and who had to leave the Sea Org in Clearwater due to his debts. I planned to stay six months and then apply again for a visa.
The situation in the company was very severe. The company itself had 2,500,000 $ debts, per an estimation of Peter. Several Scientologists, Karlheinz Schneider, Roland Wolz, Kay Barre and Peter had taken money for Scientology from the company funds. They had upgraded their statuses in the "International Association of Scientologists" (IAS). Peter Mousiol and Karlheinz Schneider received in 1991 the status of a "Patron Meritorius" for paying individually 250,000 $ into the "war chest" of the IAS. Roland Wolz paid 40,000 $ to become a "Patron". All three of them paid their IAS-donations from money of the company.

In Summer of 1992 Karlheinz Schneider, Peter Mousiol and Roland Wolz received an ethics handling by the Scientology-organization in Hamburg. They were threatened to get "SP declared" if the company should get bancrupt. Kay Barre, the "Field Staff member" of the IAS who regged them and took a 10 % commission of their donations, was omitted by the threat and not placed under an "ethics handling". Peter wrote a long report about the situation and sent it "up lines", to the Scientology management. I wrote several reports to the Scientology-management about that fact too and demanded a repayment of the donations into the company, but received no proper answer. In October I accompanied Roland and Peter on a trip to Hamburg, where they received an ethics handling by the "Executive Establishment Officer" of the Hamburg Org and a financial counselling by another staff, Christian Zugmayer, another "Patron".

Back in Frankfurt I spoke with a staff of the Mousiol company, Nora Medernach, another Scientologist, and asked her about the happenings in the company when Karlheinz Schneider had owned it and Peter was in the Sea Org. She told me that Karlheinz had manipulated the balances, which had to be submitted to the tax office, and that he was helped on this by a tax consultant, who also was a Scientologist.

One evening I listened in on the calls, which were stored on Peter's answering machine. Franz Riedl, today the spokesman of the "Church of Scientology Germany", ordered Peter to a further "ethics handling" in Hamburg. During those days in November and December of 1992 Peter spoke about selling the company to a group, which would fire all the staff and just keep the printing machines.

One evening Roland Wolz, who had left the company, called Peter and told him about a proposal which was made by Hamburg Org. They recommended the bankcruptcy the company, but "in a silent way". He also said that Achim Bendig, the registrar of the IAS, had been "RPF'ed" (sent to the penal colony of the Sea Org) in Saint Hill in England. Achim had regged Peter, Karlheinz and Roland with the assistance of Kay, but was also responsible for the "reg cycle" of Detlev Foullois and Karl-Erich Heilig. Both had paid individually 1,000,000 $ to the IAS and were awarded with the "Gold Meritorious"-status. In 1992 Karl-Erich and Detlev were sent to jail, because they had violated the tax laws: it was a major public flap, as Scientology had to pay back the donations, they had already received.

In those days in December of 1992 I secretly made a notice at the bureau of investigation of tax offences and at the German CID. Soon after I left the company and Frankfurt in December 1992. An unknown source told me last year that the company went actually bancrupt few months after I had left it and that Karlheinz Schneider was sent to jail in 1994.

The FSO nevertheless tried to get in contact with me several times until March 1993, but I stayed disappeared, as I didn't want to return anymore.

In December of 1993 I made a notice for visa fraud committed by the Flag Service Organization at the American Consulate General in Frankfurt, but I never heard anything back on it.


B) The Managing of the Flag Service Org In Theory And Practice
The Organizational Structure Of The Flag Land Base In Clearwater
The Flag Land Base was composed of nine different Scientology-organizations:
The "Commodore's Messengers Organization Clearwater" (CMO CW). The CMO CW had the function of an enforcement and execution arm of the WDC and the RTC. In the hierarchy of all the organizations it was the highest on the "base".
The "Flag Land Base"-Org (FLB) was an organization to administrate and refer the orders from the middle and low management-levels in Los Angeles to the "Flag Service Org" and "Flag Crew" (FC). The "Commanding Officer" (CO) FLB Allen Hubbert, later Janet Herring, was senior to the COs of the FSO and FC.
The "Flag Service Org" is often referred to as the "spiritual headquarters of Scientology". It is the biggest service-organization of Scientology. Of the 1,000 staff at the base approximately 550 were members of the FSO. The average "Gross Income" (GI) between 1990 and 1992 was about 1,500,000 $ per week. 30 -50 % of that money was sent to WDC Reserves. The head of the FSO was Debbie Cook, CO FSO.
The "Flag Crew" was the organization, which managed the hotels and the other Sea Org-buildings.
The "Office of Special Affairs East US" (OSA EUS) was supposed to do all legal work and all the operations against "Scientology-enemies" on the East Coast of the United States. The "Public Relations Secretary" Richard Haworth was the official spokesman for the FLB.
The "International Association Of Scientologists Administrations Membership Tour East US" (IASA EUS) was the organization, which collected membership-funds on the East Coast area of the United States for the "war chest" of the IAS. The IAS provided the money for the fight against the enemies of Scientology.
The "Scientology Missions Expansion Office" (SMI Expansion Office) was an arm of "SMI International" in Los Angeles and was supposed to establish Scientology-missions (beginner organizations) in "pioneer countries".
The "Flag Ship Service Org Relay Office" (FSSO Relay Office) was part of the FSSO, which is located on the ship "Freewinds". This organization was to get publics signed up for services aboard the "Freewinds".
The "Super Power Project", earlier "Religious Trust", was designed in 1990 to create funds of 35,000,000 $ (Quota of 1991) for a new gigantic "delivery-building" in front of the Fort Harrison.
The "Flag Renovations Project" (Flag Renos) was the organization, which did the planning, building and renovating of the Scientology-buildings. It was composed of Sea Org-members, Scientology-publics and non-Scientologists.

Who Was Supposed To Manage The FSO?
The official guidelines to the "authority flows of Scientology", the "Command Channels of Scientology", state the following:
The Flag Bureaux is that part of the Flag Command Bureaux which manages individual orgs via "Flag Operations Liason Offices" (FOLOs), themselves a part of the "Continental Liason Offices". The Flag Bureaux has the function of seeing that International management's strategies, evaluations and programs are tactically and successfully executed in each org, enabling the org to expand up to and beyond the size of old Saint Hill (a certain productionlevel).(page 18, "Command Channels of Scientology", 1988, USA)
The Central Bureaux Order 5 USB, 6 September 1982, "FB-FSO COMMAND CHANNEL" written by L. Ron Hubbard says:
There is no FOLO between the FB and FSO and no need for one.
According to that the FSO gets managed by the FB in Los Angeles through the execution of programs, which are based on evaluations and strategies created by the "International Management". Who creates the programs and strategies? The Command Channels of Scientology, p. 13, say:
The Executive Director International and his International Executives do not manage orgs or sectors. They handle the functions that orgs DO. Their job is to provide management units and service orgs and units with the bright ideas, strategies, evaluations and programs they need to get every org up to and beyond the size of the old Saint Hill.

The Role Of RTC, WDC And The CMO
The Religious Technology Center is not part of International Management. It is a parallel policing body which ensures that the Church of Scientology International, whom it has licensed to use the trademarks and service marks, does put the trademarks to good use and is Keeping Scientology Working.
The Command Channels Of Scientology, p.6.
The Watchdog Committee (WDC) is the highest ecclestical authority in the Church. WDC does not manage. It is an inspection and police organization which inspects the actual management units of the Church and sees that they are established and functioning. It is responsible for forming up management units where they do not exist or re-forming them where they may be ineffective...If these management units fail to function at any point, WDC has its parallel observation and enforcement arm - the Commodore's Messenger Org - which it activates to investigate and handle the situation and get management corrected and functioning.
The Command Channels Of Scientology, p. 9-10.

The CMO is the enforcement and execution arm of the Watchdog Committee. When WDC issues an order to a managment unit, while it would expect that unit to comply, the CMO would verify the FACT of compliance...The CMO units form a parallel network, autonomous to the mangement lines, which reports to the Watchdog Committee and enforces its orders, thus achieving its purpose of putting management units there and seeing that they manage.
The Command Channels Of Scientology, p. 10.


I studied the "Command Channels"-course in 1990 and I read also the stated paragraphes. I learned that the FSO was managed by the Flag Bureaux (through the "Flag Representative" and other relay-posts at the FLB of the "tactical management" of Scientology). The CMO, WDC and RTC would not interfere or manage the FSO. How did the reality look like?

How I Experienced David Miscavige's Role In Scientology
During my time as a Sea Org member it happened two times that I personally met David Miscavige in his function as Chairman of the Board RTC (COB):
1.) In Fall of 1990 all the registrars of the FSO were ordered to the registrar office of Division 2 in the Fort Harrison. We were told that we would receive a briefing by COB.

We gathered together in David Foster's office and waited. Finally David Miscavige came and talked to us for about 10 or 15 minutes. The topic were the services of the FSO and the new pricelist, which we were awaiting and which had been announced by the senior executives of the FSO. In a subordinate clause Miscavige remarked, that he had fixed the prices for the FSO-services in the previous week.

I found that confusing, as I had learned from different issues of the Scientology management that the "Gross Income Executive International" (GIEI) Kathy Klemmer was responsible for fixing the prices of the FSO. I came to the conclusion that Kathy was therefore nothing but a recipient of an order by Miscavige in her function as manager for the FSO-prices.

2.) During Spring of 1992 I was told by my senior, the Dissemination Secretary Rosalynne Harris, that I had to expect an inspection by David Miscavige. Nothing happened though for several weeks.

In May or June the rumors of an inspection of the FSO by the COB took shape. My seniors told me several times that the day of the inspection would came nearer, but nobody knew the exact date.

Finally the "Watchdog Committee FSO" Sue Porter made a pre-inspection and took also a look at my department, the department 5. Then, I think it was June, the day of the inspection was officially announced. Everybody in the FSO was ordered to clean the different rooms and getting the FSO in perfect shape, in order to show COB what an "upstat" org the FSO was. My seniors were so frantic in hiding every possible flaw, so David Miscavige couldn't see it, I had the impression that they would have to face severe punishment, if Miscavige would find too many "out-points" in one particular area.

On the day of the inspection I was filing some folders at about 9 pm, when David Miscavige suddenly came into my department via the backdoor. He was wearing civil clothes and was followed by his wife, by CMO-staff, by Debbie Cook and by other people, who I supposed, were from Scientology management. He greeted me and I wished him a good morning and he went directly into the letter registrar section. He demanded a letter written by an American letter registrar in order to check it. He got furious after he learned that we had just two English speaking letter reges. Finally he got a letter from Judy Gilbertson. He looked through it and criticized that the content of the letter would turn it actually into a HCO-letter and therefore disqualified it as a Div. 2-letter.

After that Miscavige wanted to see a folder from the CF. He asked for the file of a guy whose last name was "Rounds" (I forgot the first name). I looked through the CF and told Miscavige that there were several folders and asked him if he wanted to have the "pt-folder" (present time-folder). He said no and that I should give him an earlier one. While I was looking through the folders Miscavige noted my short-sightedness and asked me if I had trouble with my vision. I answered him that I was short-sighted. When he got the requested folder, Miscavige took a seat at a desk of the Addresso-Section, opened the folder and read the letter on top. After few seconds he turned to Debbie Cook, who stood by in an afraid manner, and told her how "off-policy" and disgusting that letter was, but that it had been written "before her time". He told that the letter registrar of that particular letter had written to a tennis-club to get in contact with Rounds. He asked Debbie what Rounds would do now and if he was still "off-lines" (not doing Scientology-services). Debbie answered that she didn't know. Miscavige closed the folder, stood up and went to the exit. The inspection of my department obviously came to a fast end. Then suddenly he turned around and told me: "And you, you gonna get glasses!" I replied with "Yes, Sir!".

He turned and walked to the exit-door, when he saw the backlog of the CF-papers in the boxes which were stored on tables at the other side of the department. He asked Debbie, if there would be any unanswered letters from the public in that boxes. Debbie answered with "Definitely not!", whereupon Miscavige left the department. His wife made a picture of the backlog and then everybody of the inspection group went out.

Miscavige made a whole tour through the FSO and its several divisions. He also visited the technical divisions, where the auditing and the Scientology-courses were delivered. The day he returned to Los Angeles, the technical divisions 4, 4a and 4b received several telexed orders, "cramming-orders", by the RTC. It led to an immense crash of the weekly statistics in the technical area. There was no doubt that David Miscavige was the source of these orders, which bypassed the whole "official" management of Scientology.

A few days later I checked the folder of "Rounds", Miscavige had requested. I found out that Rounds himself had actually written that letter from the tennis-club to the FSO. I wondered how Miscavige, the highest Scientologist on earth, could confuse sender and addressee of a simple letter.

I also received the following informations by Sea Org members who had to deal directly with David Miscavige:

1.) During an executive meeting in the conference room of the Coachman Building in Spring of 1992 the Commanding Officer of the FSO Debbie Cook told us: "Every time COB comes for a visit to the FSO, the first thing he asks me, is: "How much is your GI?"".

Debbie Cook used that little story to let us know, how much pressure she received from her seniors and even from David Miscavige himself to make the FSO produce at least 2,000,000 $ every week.

2.) In Spring 1992 all the registrars of the FSO received a briefing by delegates of the "Central Marketing Unit" (CMU) of the Scientology management in the Coachman Building. A woman told us that a big graph with the weekly GI-figure of the FSO had been made up at the CMU. The graph showed also each piece of promo that had been sent out by the FSO every week. One could therefore compare the effectiveness of the different promotional campaigns in relation to the Gross Income that followed weeks later.

She meant further that this poster stayed in COB's office for a whole week. With that remark she wanted to stress, how much devotion Miscavige applied in an evaluation of the promotional campaigns of the FSO.


Miscavige and the Scientology-organization in Hamburg, Germany
In 1991 Miscavige made an inspection of the Class-V-organization in Hamburg, which was the biggest non-Sea Org service organization in Scientology at that time. He was accompanied by several senior executives of the Scientology-management. After the inspection he gave the "Executive Director", Wiebke Hansen, of that organization a so-called "RTC pass", which meant that her organization would fully apply "standard tech" and "standard admin". This was published in an interne Scientology magazine with a picture of David Miscavige, his juniors and Wiebke Hansen at the front of the entrance of the "org".
At the beginning of the year 1995 Wiebke Hansen disappeared. She was replaced by Mark Lizer, a Sea Org staff, who had had the post of "D/FCCI PO for Call In" at the FSO. In a TV-interview Ursula Caberta, a known Scientology critic, told that Wiebke Hansen had falsified her "Gross Income"-statistic by adding the income of real estate-dealers to it and was therefore removed from post. Franz Riedl, the spokesman of the "Church of Scientology Germany" denied the allegation of Caberta in that interview.

During the year Wiebke Hansen sent a letter to the "Spiegel" magazine from Los Angeles saying that she had moved for "spiritual enhancement to sunny California". Wiebke was "New OT 8" in 1995.

Few weeks ago I met an Ex-Sea Org member from Flag Crew, Anita Deininger, who worked in the room service of the Fort Harrison and the Sandcastle for seven months in the last year. She told me, that in Spring of 1995 Miscavige made an inspection of the Flag Land Base and its orgs. Few days before the May 9th event she saw David Miscavige together with Norman Starkey, "Executive Director Author's Services International", discussing with a German staff, the "Senior Case Supervisor", from Hamburg Org. Few days after a staff from HCO FSO told her that the man from Hamburg, a "Class VIII Auditor" and a high OT, was at Flag for correction because he had made serious mistakes on his post. He further said that David Miscavige had given him the "choice" of joining the Sea Org by being RPF'ed or getting SP declared. The man choosed the RPF.


Mark Rathburn's Investigation At The FSO
In 1992 a scandal happened on the "Base". An already declared SP (Suppressive Person = a person, expelled from Scientology) came to the FSO and got "on the tech-lines", that meant he started services in the FSO. It came finally out, that he was "a declared one" and he was thrown out.
Few days after the scandal, Mark Rathburn, "Inspector General Ethics" of the "Religious Technology Center" came to the FSO to do an investigation. He resided in the office of the "HCO Area Secretary" (HAS) Beverly Mannasse and used minor-aged "messengers" as executors of his orders. The investigation took him one day. The day after 5 people lost their posts: The Senior C/S' MAA Emil Roest, the Public MAA Wanda Quinones, the Captain's MAA and the Director of Personnel.


Mark Yagers Interest In The ASR-Booklet
In 1992 a new booklet was created by the Scientology-management. It was designed to be sent to interested public in order to get them paid for FSO-services and arrived at Clearwater. This "Advanced Scheduling Registration"-package was sent out to many publics. Two or three months after its official start of usage Marc Yager, at that time "Inspector General Admin" of RTC, demanded a report about the success of that booklet. My senior, the Dissem. Sec. FSO Rosalynne Harris ordered me to compile all the responses of the public to that booklet. She gave the compilation to CO FSO Debbie Cook, which reported directly to IG Admin.

Other Inspections
Mark Yager and Ray Mithoff, at that time IG Admin RTC and IG Tech RTC, were at Clearwater from 1990 until 1992 at least two times, to inspect certain areas of the FSO.

The Role Of WDC FSO Sue Porter and the CMO CW
From what I experienced at the FSO I can say that Sue Porter had ultimate power over the FSO and its personnel. Sue Porter interfered constantly with the dealings of the FSO. She directed and supervised this organization through the CMO on a daily basis.
Here are some examples:

1.) Sue Porter ordered that the whole FSO Crew was placed under the "Rice and beans"-Flag Order of Hubbard. The staff of the FSO had to eat for a certain amount of time nothing else than rice and beans. Liberty time on Saturdays got cancelled and the crew didn't receive any pay. Sue Porter gave later the order to lift it. That happened three times from 1990 until 1992.

2.) Sue Porter personally selected the personnel for the "Sandcastle"-hotel in Spring of 1992. During the selection she ordered Stefanie Kuba to the RPF.

3.) Sue Porter gave me the order to report her every attempt of a "personnel-rip off" in my department by other orgs or departments.

4.) Sue Porter ordered the Dissemination Secretary and the Flag Representative to post Melanie Burness in department 5 of the FSO.

5.) I was part of a "Board Of Investigation", where three staff of the FSO, including me, had to investigate a personnel-transfer from two Australian FSO-staff, who had left the FSO. We had to report directly to Sue Porter.

The CMO CW was inspecting the FSO on a daily basis. My department was subject of at least 5 utilization-investigations by the CMO. When the CMO did their "utilization-surveys", I knew that they were looking for personnel, whom they would shift from one area to another. When I asked them, on what orders they were acting, they answered me most of the time: "On orders by WDC FSO."


The FSO Under Hubbard
When I started on my post as "Director of Procurement" I got from HCO a "Hat Pack", in which all the instructions and policies were contained, which were necessary to know. The first pages of the "Hat Pack" contained so-called "LRH Advices", telexes Hubbard had sent to the FSO from 1976 until 1982. I was surprised, when I read them, as I had been told that Hubbard resigned from managing the FSO in 1975 when the "United States Base" (USB) in Clearwater was founded, which was later renamed into "Flag Land Base".
The LRH Advices were direct orders to the "Commanding Officer" of the FSO or to other senior executives of the base. Hubbard clearly violated his own policies and Flag Orders by doing that.


A Personal Resume
The official representation of the Scientology-management structure and the distribution of powers within the hierarchy is a lie. The "tactical mangement level" of Scientology, the Flag Bureaux, which was supposed to manage the FSO with the programs, created by the "Senior Exec Strata" got constantly bypassed by WDC, and especially by WDC FSO, which officially had the purpose "to create and correct management units". In fact, WDC and RTC could order anyone directly at the FSO, and they did. In a personnel dispute, when one of my staff was ripped off by the CMO due to an order by "Audio Visual Executive International" (AVEI) I used an order by a "Reports Officer" of RTC directly to get the guy back in my department.
I made the experience that the structure of the management of Scientology didn't play a role, if someone from the top of the management wanted to get an order across. RTC and WDC crossed the corporate lines at will and had the power to do so.

The crossing of corporate lines was not even an invention of the "new" management. When Hubbard was alive he did it too.

I experienced Miscavige as the man who was at the highest command point of Scientology and who determined the course of management. There was no question for me that Miscavige had the final say in Scientology.


C) How Scientology Ethics Was Applied
The Pretension Of The Sea Organization
The Scientology-organization claims to be a religion with a high ethical awareness. Hubbard wrote many policy-letters about the subject ethics and within Scientology exists even an own judicial system. The Sea Organization, the fraternal organization on top of Scientology, is composed of the most dedicated Scientologists and should be therefore a treasure of applied humanity and kindness. Here are some quotes from different Flag-Orders (FOs) written by Hubbard, which reflect the claim of the Sea Org best to be a community with the highest ethical standard on earth:
The Sea Organization is composed of the „aristocrazy“ of Scientology. These people alone and on their own are all stars in the sky of their areas. It is like one of the old regiments of gentlemen where any private would be, in another but common regiment, a colonel.
FO 137, 12 September 1967.
Our purpose is maintaining the exact degree of ethics, Scientology technology and policy on the planet. Our responsibility - the future of mankind. Our business - missions. The Sea Org is an organization of expansion. And our prize is a sane planet.
FO 1686, 24 December 1968.
That organization which functions at a high level of confront and standard. Its purpose is to get ethics in on the planet and eventually the universe.
FO 508, 16 March 1968.
The basic purpose of the Sea Org is to get in ethics. It also executes other projects, but all these are to assist getting in ethics or to assist the Sea Org itself.
FO 228, 9 October 1967.
These Flag Orders were part of the "Basic Sea Org Member Hat" and the "Key To Competence"-course. A fresh Sea Org member was expected to consider them as basic Sea Org guidelines.
If it is true that the real character of an organization is revealed by the treatment of its own members, then Scientology and especially the Sea Org must be classified as highly schizophrenic, if the above instructions mean anything to the Sea Org and Scientology of today.

Here are some examples how I experienced Scientology ethics in application:


Euthanasia
On my post as letter registrar I found in several folders of the Central Files the same obituary notice, which had been published to the FSO-staff in 1987 and whose backpage was used as a carbon copy for the letters of the registrar, due to scarcity of paper. The text of the notice read about as follows:
Senior HCO FLB

Name of the FSO-staff

Key To Life-Supervisor FSO

(name) left his body on ... ... in 1987. He suffered for several years from a brain tumor, which affected (name)'s body in a substantial way. Eventually (name) got tired of having the brain tumor, so he decided to leave the body to get a new, healthy one. He got assists, which enabled him to exteriorize and to leave his body completely. (name) was FSO-Staff from 1979 (?) until 1987. He has helped to establish the Key To Life-Course in 1986.
(name) is soon to be expected on post again.

Name of the Senior HAS FLB. I guess it was Vivienne Baxter, but I am not sure.


The Rehabilitation Project Force
The Rehabilitation Project Force (RPF) is the penal colony of the Sea Org. Its members have to wear black uniforms, get a reduced pay and it is forbidden to them to address other Sea Org-members. In Clearwater they lived in their own quarters, the worst of the whole base. Most of the time they worked and lived totally secluded from the other Sea Org members, except sometimes you could see one ot two at work on the base.
RPFers have to do hard physical labor the whole day. Any order a RPFer has received by his senior he has to fulfill. In case he would "backflash", the Flag Order 87 "Rocks and Shoals", 2 September 1967, would be applied by his senior: The RPFer has to run around the next building, until he had "boiled off".

In Clearwater the RPFers were supposed to move in jogtrot, the whole day.

Additionally RPFers had to "twin up" and use five hours per day for working on their cases by auditing themselves.

The theory says that "redemption" is the basic purpose of the existence of the RPF (FO 3434, 7 January 1974). People were assigned to the RPF because they had failed on their posts. This failure was caused solely by the "case" of the person.

RPF-assignments were regularly published to all FSO-staff. They were printed on yellow paper like any other publications by the HCO FSO or the Senior HCO FLB.

Per my observation an assignment to the RPF lasted at least several months, that meant that the person assigned to it, had to live for a long time under the above desribed conditions.

Sea Org staff from the "Freewinds", who got RPF'ed, were sent to Clearwater, as the ship, where the highest OT-level, "New OT 8", was delivered, wasn't supposed to be filled with "out-ethics particles" (Scientology-jargon).

How did people get a RPF-assignment? Here are some examples:


Stefanie Kuba, a German registrar, who worked in the bookstore to sell special editions of Hubbard’s books, was found "unutilized" by the CMO CW one day. While an inspection WDC FSO Sue Porter ordered her to Flag Crew to work in the kitchen of the Sandcastle hotel. Stefanie refused whereupon Sue Porter RPFed her. That happened in Spring of 1992.

Jean Nichols was the Director of Income FSO in 1991. She had to book all the money, that the FSO had made and was supposed to make additional "GI" by "phone regging publics". She made an average-GI of 90,000 $ each week, which was not enough for her seniors. At a GI-meeting Kim Hickock, "Deputy Flag Case Course Intensive Product Officer for Gross Income" (D/FCCI PO for GI), screamed at her, she should knock off her counter-intentions, when Jeannie had replied, that a quota of 100,000 $ per week would be unreal for her to achieve. Jeannie finally gave in, after she was threatened with an "ethics handling".
Several weeks later it came out that Jeannie had falsified her statistics to achieve the 100,000 $ quota. Jeannie blew from the base, but returned later, as her children and husband were still in Clearwater. When she came back to Clearwater, she was immediately transferred to the RPF.


In 1992 a Class-IX-Auditor was found to have an affair with a "squirrel" (an ex-Scientologist, who would do practices similar to Scientology) on her "libs-days". She was sent immediately to the RPF. Debbie Cook, the CO FSO, was furious about that scandal at a staff meeting and screamed that the Auditor would receive a very harsh ethics treatment.

Wanda Quinones, "Public Master At Arms" (Public MAA=Ethics Officer in the Sea Org), was removed from her post after an investigation by Mark Rathburn. In her "Committee of Evidence" (a Scientology court) she mentioned that she would prefer to be sent to the RPF, due to her performance on post and the lack of training she had.
Debbie Cook told the FSO-staff at a meeting, that they should tell the publics, who would ask for Wanda, that she was doing fulltime-training and was therefore off-post. That happened in 1992.


Mike Kehrli, was the Commanding Officer of the Renovations Project FLB in 1991. His main duty was to build the new "Sandcastle Delivery Building" for "New OT VI and VII", which was to be opened on the May 9th event. The building should be financed solely by funds of the FSO, which wasn't flowing in an amount big enough to get the project done on time. Mike Kehrli was forced to make debts of 2,000,000 $.
At the event in May the building was finished as planned, but few days after Mike Kehrli was sent to the RPF in Los Angeles. The CMO had looked into the financial situation of "Renos" and found Mike Kehrli guilty.


The "Senior Case Supervisor Crew FLB" (Senior C/S Crew FLB) Dusty Rhodes was sent to the RPF in 1990, after it was found out, that he made a lot of technical errors in his auditing-programs. He stayed for almost a year in the RPF, before he returned on the post of a Class-IX-Auditor of the FSO.

Emma Schammehorn happened to be the "Medical Liason Officer" (MLO) of the FLB until 1992. During an investigation of the whole base the CMO CW found Emma and the head of the "Cadet school" (the Sea Org school in Clearwater) guilty of "not doing their posts". They were sent to the RPF immediately. After few days, the RPF-Assignment got cancelled by a higher CMO-staff.

A Class-XII-Auditor made several mistakes in his auditing in January (?) 1992. As he was classified once by Hubbard himself as "Dangerous Auditor" he was sent directly to the RPF. When I left the FSO in July 1992, he was still in it.

In 1991 the sprinkler-system in one room of the Coachman Building went off. The man from Flag Crew, whose task had been to supervise the system was sent to the RPF.

In 1988 or 1989 the "Qualifications Secretary FSO" (Qual Sec FSO) was sent to the RPF after a Committee of Evidence, mainly because of the following reasons: a) neglectence of her post, b) she had failed to study the different guidelines of her post ("Full hat") although she had been on that post for a while. In 1991 she "graduated" from the RPF and returned to the FSO as Ls-Auditor.

IFrank McCall was a Sea Org member since its beginnings in 1967. During the eighties he established a "Sea Org museum", which was located in the Bank of Clearwater in 1990, before it got transferred to the "book warehouse". Evelyn Wartha told me, that Frank McCall was sent to the RPF, because he had had arguments with the CMO over certain points. Since that time the CMO would try to sabotage his museum. He had to get a written order by Diana Hubbard, which placed the Sea Org museum directly under the "Int. management", to prevent, that his project would get constantly ripped off of personnel by the CMO CW.
When Frank McCall was RPF’ed, he was nearly 60 years old.


The SMI-Expansionoffice FLB had the purpose to open pioneer-countries for Scientology by establishing missions in those areas. These were financed through the selling of "Mission Starter Packages" (a set of Scientology-books, -films and -tapes. As the sales were bad in 1991 and the "CO SMI Expansionoffice" dared to falsify her statistics, she was sent to the RPF in the "Pac"-area (Los Angeles).

In 1991 a lot of propaganda was made for the new delivery building, which was planned to be built in front of the Fort Harrison-hotel. 35,000,000 $ should be sponsored by the public into the "Religious Trust Project" to finance the construction. Several experienced Sea Org member formed the project. They travelled through the United States and "regged" the most wealthy Scientologists.
In Fall 1991 the whole project was cancelled. The I/Cs of the enterprise were RPF'ed and sent to Los Angeles. Eva Zacharias, who was part of it, told me that the regges created a lot of "bounced cheques" and falsified their statistics.

In 1992 a new project with new personnel was created. Its name changed now to "Super Power Project".

Expulsion From The Sea Org
I witnessed it almost every few weeks that a staff member of the FSO or from another org on the base left the Sea Org because either he was thrown out or he "blew", as he or she couldn't stand the living conditions in the Sea Org anymore. The change of personnel was very high. In 1994 I got a copy of the FSO-magazine "Source". On one page was a photo, on which all the FSO-staff were shown. Just 50 % of the persons, who were pictured, I had seen before.
Here are some examples of persons who were thrown out of the Sea Org:

Libero Pietracupa was the CF-Officer in department 5 until 1992. He was married to an Italian FLB-staff, who worked in the Cadet Org. She became pregnant in 1991. Libero and his wife didn't tell that fact to the HCO, because they feared that they would be sent immediately to a Class-V-Org somewhere in the world. In late 1991 it came out and the HCO forced Libero to think about a solution. He was told, that he and his wife had created a serious problem for the FSO. Libero got more and more desperated about the situation.
At the beginning of the year '92 his wife gave birth to the baby. Soon after Libero, his wife and his child were thrown out of the Sea Org. Although Libero had worked several years day and night in the CF, the FSO didn't bother to help him in some way. Eventually he found a job in a store in Clearwater.


A Class-IX-Auditor, who "graduated" from the RPF, was thrown out of the Sea Org in 1991, because "he had made jokes about the NOTs-material while being in session with a Pre-OT". This was heard through the "listening-in-system" by one "Case Supervisor" (C/S). A lot of auditing rooms in the FSO were bugged to allow the CSes to monitor the auditing sessions.

Crystal C., the daughter of Linda M., was a teenager in 1992. She got "beached" (thrown out of the Sea Org without a Committee of Evidence), because it was found out, that she had done petting with a staff from the CMO.

Lisa B. joined the Sea Org in 1990 and got promoted for the post as "D/FCCI PO for Call In". Few weeks after her appointment she disappeared. Several months later Lisa B. was officially thrown out of the Sea Org. In an "Ethics Order", which was published to all the staff of the FSO (!), it was written, that Lisa had blown from her post and gone "Out 2 D" (she had sex) with several men. She confessed that in an ethics interrogation, when she came back to the FSO.

Victor D'Andrea, a former professor of a university in Venezuela, joined the Sea Org together with his wife in 1990. He worked in the "Department of Promotion and Marketing" (Dept. 4a) of the FSO. When his wife got pregnant, they were thrown out.

Ed Smith was a Scientologist for 20 years. He joined the Sea Org in 1991 and got transferred in my department as an exchange for the "Letter Registrar I/C" Aaron Tweddell, who got promoted to the CMO. Ed was 60 years old and couldn't keep up with the daily demands for a high production. So he got fired from the HCO FSO.

Ken Kramer, an American, joined the Sea Org in 1990. He had been recruited by Dee Ann Prince, later Dee Ann Roest, the "Sea Org Recruiter" of the FSO. He told me, while being on the EPF, that he had taken Angeldust several years ago and that he was worried, if he actually was able to join the Sea Org. He had admitted his drug use right from the beginning to his recruiter and he had written it on his application form for the Sea Org. Dee Ann Prince told him, that he still would be able to join the Sea Org.
Ken spent two months on the EPF, working eight hours a day. In late September he got thrown out by the "Fitness Board FLB" because of his use of Angeldust.


Arlene Rich and her sister were living in Clearwater and had been publics of the FSO for several years. Arlene was new "New OT V", her sister even "New OT VIII". In 1990 they joined the Sea Org. Arlene found her way in the Sea Org and even climbed on the post of "Technical Secretary for Division 4 a" for a while. Her sister however experienced several difficulties. I saw her one time having a nervous breakdown before a staff meeting. She finally was "routed off" the Sea Org in 1991.

Lorenzo Delzanno, a Swiss FSO-staff, was married to the sister of Desiree Matlock. She worked until 1991 as receptionist of Flag Crew in the Fort Harrison. During that year she got severe physical problems, mainly at the region of her heart, which made it necessary for her to take certain medications and to spend more time off post. Lorenzo had to finance the medications, as Flag Crew didn't pay it. In 1992 she had to leave the Sea Org, as she couldn't work anymore.

Zamira Gebhardt-Seele was a Clear and 60 years old, when she joined the Sea Org in 1990. She hardly was able to make it through the EPF, but finally she graduated and started in department 5 as "Addresso Clerk". When her best friend was transferred to Hamburg Org as "Flag Service Consultant", she had a breakdown, as she felt now very isolated within the Sea Org.
She got very ill and couldn't work anymore. She was laying the whole day in bed at her room at the Hacienda, as she couldn't move without help. She got visited twice a day by the MLO Emma Schammehorn, who brought her food and the medication she needed and which Zamira had to buy from her own money.

In Spring of 1992 her son, Stephan Gebhard-Seele, who had taken approximately 800,000 $ from her in order to finance his OT-levels, complained in a letter to the CO FSO Debbie Cook, that the Sea Org would not care about his mother.

The letter created some disturbance. Soon after a flight to Germany was booked and Zamira was flown to Germany in company with Eileen Haworth, a FSO-staff and wife of Richard Haworth, the "PR-Secretary" of OSA EUS.

The flight-tickets were both paid by Zamira.


A Mexican woman who had joined the Sea Org in 1990 went pregnant in 1991. Few weeks after it had been known to the HCO, she was thrown out of the Sea Org.

I want to emphasize here that all these people had given up their prior existence completely, when they joined the Sea Org. They had given up their jobs, their houses, etc. A lot of staff, like me, came from foreign countries. As long as they were able to function and produce for a minimal wage, they were welcome in the Sea Org. When they "became a problem", they got fired almost immediately.

Scientology Jurisdiction
L. Ron Hubbard developed its own method of jurisdiction during the sixties. Like the auditing technology he accomplished a detailed work of various ethics-actions, penalties and even Scientology-courts. The ethics actions alone, which are to be applied "in degree of severity", contain 36 steps (HCO Policy Letter of 29 April 1965, Issue III, "Ethics Review").
The idea behind this internal jurisdiction procedures reads it, as if Hubbard had actually looked for a human way to settle disputes:

The jurisprudence employed must be competent, acceptable to the members of the group and effective in accomplishing good order for the group and personal rights and security for its individual members. Justice used for revenge, securing advantages for a clique increases disorder.
Justice should serve as a means of establishing guilt or innocence and awarding damages to the injured. The fact of its use should not pre-establish guilt or award. Justice which by its employment alone establishes an atmosphere of guilt or greed is harmful and creates disorder.

...

I have been working for some time on a system of justice acceptable to Scientologists and have evolved one in Committees of Evidence. These work excellently by actual test and satisfy the requirements of justice...

(HCO Policy Letter of 7 September 1963, "Committees of Evidence - Scientology Jurisprudence, Administration of").

As a staffmember of the FSO I participated in two Committees of Evidence (Comm Evs). I also have further knowledge about other Comm Evs, as the appointments and "findings" of most of them got published and distributed to all the staff of the FSO.

Kaspar Hunziker - His post was "Overseas I/C" of the FSC Int. Office. He had to control the production of several FSC-offices in Europe and Australia. As the production of these offices lacked for several weeks (they made not enough GI), Kaspar received a Comm Ev in Fall of 1990.
I got appointed as a member to that Comm Ev. The Comm Ev itself was composed of four persons: The Chairman Karen Paradiso, the secretary (a staff from the "Staff Training Org" FLB), me and another member. The Comm Ev. convened and exchanged the ethics- and personnelfiles of Kaspar. Every participant had to read them first, before we could interrogate him. We further discussed the charges against Kaspar, which were listed on the appointment-sheet for this Comm Ev by HCO. The charges were relatively common, but also very vague in such a case: "Committing a problem", "Neglectence of post", "Violation of KSW No. 5: Applying the technology", etc.. Karen, the Chairman, was very determining at our first meeting. I had the impression, that the verdict for Kaspar was already clear: Guilty. I was told that he was already removed from the post, so there was no choice that we could find him not guilty.

I got his ethics- and personnelfile, which I had to read until the next meeting. When I opened the ethics-file at home I got quite a shock. It contained several pages in which Kaspar had described sexual experiences in detail, which were looked at as "Out 2-D" (Overts on the second dynamic). He must have written them up, while being in an assigned "lower condition". The purpose of such self-incriminations was to get rid of the negative consequences these overts had in the long run ("overt-motivator sequence"). Nevertheless once these self-accusations were written up, they stayed in the ethics-folder forever and here I had a result of it in my own hands: Kaspar's "write-up" was about two years old.

But that wasn't the only thing in his ethics-file. There were several ethics-chits or "Knowledge Reports", written mainly by his senior Bo Wennberg, the FSC Int., in which he listed several "out-points" of Kaspar's performance on post.

From his personnel-file I could see Kaspar's career in the Sea Org. He had held several posts in the Sea Org and even in the Scientology-management before. He was Commanding Officer of the "International Training Org" and later even "Establishment Officer RTC". But he stayed on these posts regularly just for a year or for a few months. There was quite an inconsistence there. I found it strange at that time, that the ethics-record of his time in Los Angeles, wasn't in the folder.

When Kaspar came for the first hearing, he made it very easy for us. He pleaded guilty on all points. Nevertheless Karen obviously wanted a higher punishment than just a removal from post which already had been happened. She told that she wanted him to do MEST-Work (inferior labour) so he would change his attitude, which she didn't like. At the next meeting, which was held at 11 pm on another day, Karen attacked Kaspar for his bad performance on post and demanded a more far-reaching self-accusation from him in front of the Comm Ev. But Kaspar began to defend himself the first time. As we saw that the discussion would complicate the whole procedure and we wanted to go to bed, we sent Kaspar out of the room and discussed it. The secretary objected that Kaspar had already pleaded guilty on all points and that the interrogation should be terminated. We agreed finally and made a commendation for the "Convening Authority", the "Continental Justice Chief East US" (CJC EUS). We found Kaspar guilty and commended a removal from his post. We submitted it the next day, but we never heard anything back on it.


Linda M. - Brian McCarthy came in Summer of 1991 to the FSO. He was the head of a mission from Los Angeles, which had the purpose of "manning up" department 5, in which I was working. He had to recruit at least five letter registrars, which wasn't that easy. He had to recruit people, who were willing and able to join the Sea Org. They had to leave their job, sell their appartment or house and sign up for a billion years contract.
In his search for prospects he found Linda's file in the HCO. Linda had been SP-declared (SP=Suppressive Person) and expelled from Scientology. He looked into the procedures that had led to the declare and found several outpoints, so he spoke with CJC EUS Elyssa Alexander, a fifteen- or sixteen year old girl at that time, and let her convene a Committee of Evidence. The members of the Comm Ev were all staff of department 5.

We looked into her folders and found that she had went two times on staff at the FSO and every time she had gotten into trouble with men. She had engaged in relationships while being in the Sea Org and had ended up being thrown out of the Sea Org. On her first post as recruiter she had signed up "degenerated beings" (dbs) which also led to her dismissal. It didn't look very good for her. I interviewed some security personnel about Linda and they confirmed our first impression. They said that Linda had created a mess within the FSO and within the Clearwater Scientology-community when she had been a public, after being in the Sea Org. One security-guy told me that he had met her daughter in the middle of the night and that she had looked like a prostitute, although she had been just nine years old at that time.

At our first interrogation I decided to confront Linda with all these facts the

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hard way. Linda cried and told us that she would know, that she had been "out-ethics" and that she had changed now. Nevertheless we found her still "suppressive" and submitted it as a commendation to CJC. It got refused. We changed the text, but we still got it back. I spoke with Fransyl Buchanan, the "Director of Inspections and Reports FSO" (Dir. I'n'R FSO) of the HCO about it, because we didn't know what we had done wrong. Fransyl had a much simplier approach for that whole matter: "Just declare this bitch!" But that didn't help us at all. Finally after the fourth or fifth meeting about the findings, we finally recognized that we had to find Linda innocent, because Brian McCarthy needed her as a recruit for department 5.

At that time things went easy without us. Brian discovered that the "International Justice Chief" (IJC) never signed the SP-Declare of Linda. So it was unvalid. Brian dissolved our Comm. Ev. and lifted the "Non-Enturbulation Order", which was the ethics action prior to the SP-Declare by getting Linda's acceptance of the "General Amnesty" of 1991. Linda became a FSO-staff member.

She stayed in the Sea Org until the beginning of 1992. As she was still working in a flower shop and living in her appartment, when she joined the Sea Org, she got quite a pressure from HCO to join the Sea Org completely. In January 1992 she finally moved into the Sea Org-dorms at the Hacienda. She also found a replacement for her job at the flower shop.

In the meantime I had some problems with her, as she didn't keep her schedules and was still fighting a strange battle with one of the security men, Hughes. When I asked her about it, she told me, that Hughes had killed her father in an earlier life. I reported this to my senior, Rosalynne Harris and she told me, that I should write it up and send it to HCO. The D/FCCI PO for GI Kim Hickock told me later, that HCO had found out, that Linda had received a Lithium-preparation years ago and this would be the proof that she was "nuts", as Lithium would destroy the brain.

Linda got finally off-loaded. At the end I met Arthur Baxter, the Chief of the Security. He told me, that Linda's SP-Declare was signed by "Deputy International Justice Chief" and was therefore valid from the beginning.


Comm Evs, Courts Of Ethics And Other Punishments
At one evening in Fall of 1990 I left my department at the Coachman Building after a working day, when two persons were entering the building. One was a FSO-staff from a technical division, the other was John Travolta. Travolta staggered and looked as he had been beaten up. The tech-guy tried to soothe him: "It's going to be all right, o.k.?"
Two days later we received a condition-order about Richard Reiss, "Senior Case Supervisor FSO". He was assigned "Treason" and got removed from post, because he had messed up a celebrity. He had neglected his actual post, because "he was too busy auditing". He allowed the celebrity to end the auditing-session, which was a basic Auditing-failure. Reiss was sentenced to MEST-Work and a re-train of the "Class-VIII-Course", "star-rate". Richard Reiss left for Los Angeles, after he had done some hard work on the estates, which had the purpose "of getting him back into present time" (pt).

Few months later he climbed back on the post as Senior C/S FSO and stayed there until John Eastment, "Senior C/S International", busted him from post again, while doing a thorough inspection of the FSO in Spring of 1992. He found the course-rooms in the FSO empty, and after he fired the "Director of Correction" from her post, he removed Richard Reiss and promoted his wife Carla Reiss for the highest tech-post in the FSO.

Today the post of Senior C/S FSO is again held by Richard Reiss.


The "LRH Communicator FSO" Andrea Lettieri was dissatisfied with his post in 1992. He got comm. eved and ordered to Flag Crew, where he worked as a waiter at the Sandcastle Restaurant.

Desiree Matlock, a fifteen year old girl was put on the post as "Tours-Adminstrator" of Dept. 17 b. She had to administrate the expenses of the FSO-Tours, an enterprise, that promoted the FSO through events around the world. The costs for the Tours-department were about 100,000 $ a week and Desiree was supposed to "handle" the spending of the money. She failed, was removed and placed in a lower condition. She had to do amends and was put on the post of a receptionist in the Public-MAA-area. Again her seniors weren't satisfied with her performance, she got removed and placed in a lower condition again.
Finally she ended up as a letter registrar in department 5. When I left in July 1992, she was again in lower conditions, which had been assigned and followed up by the HCO.


At the end of 1991 Christian Winter, the "Bookstore-officer FSO", had one time a bad week regarding his book-sales. On Friday night after his working day he was thrown into the pool of the Hacienda in full uniform by his senior, the "Director of Publications", because of his low statistics.

Christina Martinez was the Tech Sec. 4 b. She was responsible for the delivery of "New OT VI and VII" at the Sandcastle. During 1991 only few OT VIIs graduated, so she falsified the statistics, not to get into more trouble. It came out, Christina got comm eved and demoted. Debbie Cook told the executives in a meeting, that she was happy to have Christina off her post, as she had found her always strange.

In early 1992, when the GI of the FSO repeatedly under the 1,500,000 $-mark, Kim Hickock, the D/FCCI PO for GI was fired from her post. Together with Rosalynne Harris, the Dissem. Sec FSO, Paul Hickock, the Director of Registration and Ginger Aguilar, the 16 year old Director of Publications, she was assigned a lower condition, had to do amends and landed at the end on a lower post in the hierarchy of the FSO.
Kim's new post was "Deputy FSC Int. West US". She had to run the different FSCs in California and make them produce a lot of money. After few weeks she was assigned to the "EPF Part 2". In the Condition Order that followed it was stated that Kim had told "entheta" about the FSO (she was critical about the FSO) to her juniors in L.A. over the phone, which caused a collapse of the FSC WUS-GI-statistic. She got assigned Treason and had to do the EPF again.

After she had graduated from the EPF Part 2 she got posted in the technical area as "Director of Processing".


In 1992 the GI of the FSO reached in one week only 1,100,000 $. When it looked in the next week, that the FSO "wouldn't pull it off", all the staff were placed under the "Rice and beans"-order. We didn't get any pay for three weeks and could only eat rice and beans twice a day.
In the last week I was so hungry I couldn't think about anything else but food. I was tired the whole day and wasn't able to think straight. I still had to work sometimes through the whole night to keep my Central Files in shape, but I used this opportunity to go to the kitchen in the Elks-Building and get a piece of bread.

The "Rice and beans"-Order got finally lifted, as WDC FSO Sue Porter obviously recognized, that the GI wouldn't rise with a starving FSO-Crew.


A teenager, who was staff of the FSO, made a harmless joke about David Miscavige in 1992. My senior, Dissem. Sec. Matt Pesch, wanted to assign him the condition "Treason" for that. I interfered and could prevent that the boy was punished.
I told him later that he shouldn't make any jokes about the "Chairman of the Board".


My roommate Timmo Graeber, had the post of "Flag Banking Officer FSO". This was a very difficult post as he had to deal with millions of dollars. His senior, the "Finance Director FLB" Sonny Klinsiek didn't support, supervised or briefed him properly , but screamed and terrorized the hell out of him. Timmo failed on that post, got removed and received a Comm Ev. In the Comm Ev under the supervision of Chairman "Flag Representative FSO" Angela Quirino Timmo defended himself by arguing, that his senior hadn't told him properly what to do. In the recommendation Angie Quirino stated that Timmo had blamed his senior for his own failure on post.
Timmo was ordered to do "MEST-Work" and was put on a post of the room service of Flag Crew after he made his "conditions".


I witnessed it two times that couples were placed under a "Separation order", which didn't allowed it to them to see or speak each other. Both times the reason for the separation order was the fact, that one of the two wanted to leave the Sea Org. In the order it was always stated, that the separation should help both parts not to get enturbulated by each other.

During the year 1992 I was part of several executive meetings, which were being held at the fifth floor of the Coachman Building. As the GI in those days was not high enough, the CO FSO screamed at us. She roared that we wouldn't deserve it to be in the Sea Org, that we should make "our fucking quotas", etc. She wasn't very shy in using profanities. She also used to pick one of us to make him utterly wrong in front of the whole group. Her favorite was Bo Wennberg, the FSC Int..
Peter Mousiol, who had to represent several times the "CO SMI Expansion Office" at the Flag Coordination Council at the Westcoast Building, told me that Janet Herring, the CO FLB and Debbie's direct senior would scream at her during these meetings. When I was accidentally one time at the WB Building and this meeting took place, I listened at the door. Actually I could hear Janet screaming at Debbie.

When senior execs from L.A. came to the FSO, they treated Debbie sometimes like a little child. While the inspection of David Miscavige I could see that Debbie, who was standing right next to him, was full of fear.

Screaming at juniors was common at the FSO. I got screamed by Debbie Cook, Rosalynne Harris, Matt Pesh, GIEI Kathy Lemmer, a senior executive from CMU, a senior executive from Flag Bureaux, etc. I screamed myself at my juniors, at Franco Carbognin, at Guillermo Colin, at Judy Gilbertson, at Lorenzo Delzanno, etc.

One day in 1992 a young letter registrar, Crystal C. didn't follow my orders. She was just 15 years old. I tried to break her will by punishing her: She had to sort out files in the filthy book warehouse, who had been dumped there in 1987.


At the book warehouse I found dozens and dozens of SP-Declare folders. I studied them at the beginning of 1992, when I had to do other things at the warehouse. I read them and didn't have the impression that these people, all of them Ex-Sea Org-staff, happened to be bad or vicious people. I could see, that they just tried to do their posts as good as possible. When it didn't they got desperate, then they got resigned and in the end they blew from their posts, which was punished from the Sea Org by declaring them "Suppressive".

Three times a day a muster for all the FSO-staff of took happen at the auditorium in the Fort Harrison. We had to stand in line by divisions, so that the MAAs could check if all the staff were present. They would call our names from a list. We had to answer, whereupon the MAAs marked off the names of the persons who were present.
In 1992 an announcement was published by the HCO. It said that if a staff was found three times not present at a muster, he would automatically receive a "Court of Ethics" and it would lead to the assignment of the condition "Treason". The staffmember had then to do amends, make up a self-accusation and wouldn't receive any pay for the time he was in a lower condition.


Kitty Georgius was a registrar of the department 6 in Division 2 of the FSO. She made an average GI of about 100,000 -150,000 $ per week. During some weeks in early 1992 the GI of the FSO was around the 1,1 and 1,3 Million dollar-mark. The pressure to make more money was therefore very high. When Kitty made in one week just about 90,000 $ an investigation by HCO found out, that she was reading novels and drinking coffee at night.
Debbie Cook, CO FSO, was screaming in front of the registrars and later in front of the whole crew about Kitty and diparaging her in front of the group. She said, she could place a bottle on the desk instead of Kitty sitting there and the public would still pay the same amount of money.

Kitty received a Court of Ethics and a lower condition.


In the beginning of 1992 Debbie Cook told the FSO-staff during a meeting, that the FSO must find its real condition as an org, if it wants to pull the statistics off. It led to a discussion, in which the FSO-staff assigned themself as a group the condition of "Confusion". The first step of this condition was "to find out where you are". At the next weekend noone from the FSO was allowed to have liberty-time.

To "man up" the Sandcastle Hotel the CMO CW found Evelyn Wartha, who was working with Frank McCall in the Sea Org museum, "unutilized". They gave her the order to work in the kitchen of the Sandcastle and threatened her with a RPF-assignment, if she wouldn't follow it. Evelyn could leave finally the Sandcastle and return to the museum, after she had written a complaint to Diana Hubbard, who safeguarded the museum-project.

Martina W. was only 15, when she got promoted for the post of a "Establishment Officer" for the "Public Contact Division" in Fall of 1991. Few weeks after her post-assigment, she was pulled off and put on MEST-Work.
In the Condition-Order, which was published to all the FLB-staff it was told, that Martina had went "out-2 D" (she had sex with another staff) with several minors and was therefore removed.


In the Fall of 1991 a "General Amnesty" was announced to all Scientologists. Everybody, even the ones with a bad ethics-record could come up clean and revealed from all overts against Scientology. Everybody in the FSO was forced to do a write-up of all overts they had done against Scientology. These declarations of self-accusations were submitted then to the HCO.

James Raisis worked in Division 3, the "Treasury-Division" of Flag Crew. He had to do all the purchasing for the FSO and Flag Crew. As the FSO and FC had an immense budget, James was completely overloaded with work. In the year 1991 he made some mistakes and didn't purchase enough food for the staff, which led to a Comm Ev for James.
James got a lower condition-assignment and had to do amends.


Fred Siewert was put on the post as "Director of Records, Assets and Materiel FSO" (Dir. RAM FSO) in 1991. He stayed there until it came out, that he had falsified his statistics. He got comm ev'ed and placed on a sales-post in the book store, after he finished the usual condition-assignments.
He stayed there few weeks until it was found out that he had "false stats" again. He got comm ev'ed and landed finally on the post of a "tech page" in Division 4.


John Danilovich happened to be the "Chief Officer FSO" in 1990. This was a very high post within the FSO, his direct senior was Debbie Cook.
He also got orders from the management in Los Angeles. Besides his job of supervising his area, John had the task of getting certain programs done from the management in Los Angeles (f. e. 339R-programs). Those programs and also most of the orders contained various points John had to fulfill by a certain time. If he didn't report on time, he would be in trouble.

John missed it a few times to report back on time, so he got automatically removed from his post. It was a running joke in the FSO, that John D. was the first staff of the FSO, who got removed by a computer, as the removal of John was recommended by a computer-program of the management.


Simon Fuchs, a waiter of the Hibiscus-restaurant in the Fort Harrison told me in 1992, that the Commanding Officer Flag Crew got removed from her post. She was additonally punished by an assignment to the post of a "Deputy Garbage In Charge". She had to care about the garbage, which was the most inferior work at the FLB.

Physical Attacks On Persons
In 1990 I was in the HCO of the FSO at Coachman Building in the second floor. I saw Adam Dunn, MAA, pushing Bernardo Atriano, HCO Receptionist, in a very aggressive way against a wall. Bernardo wasn't following Adam's orders.
Tristan Buchanan, "Supercargo FSO", told the Captain's MAA in 1991, that he had had a physical fight with Victor D'Andrea, staff of the department 4 a.
In 1991 in a dispute Libero Pietracupa and Lorenzo Delzanno, both staff of department 5, screamed at each other and finally clashed, before they could be separated by other staff of the department.
In late 1990 as a "Director of Department 5" I physically attacked Flor Hellberg and one week later Lorenzo Delzanno. They were "backflashing" and weren't following my orders, so I tried to discipline them by physical means.
The "Director of Publications FSO" told me several times in 1991 and 1992 that he had physical fights with Harvey Jacques, the "Planetary Dissemination I/C". His senior, the Dissem. Sec. Matt Pesch agreed to use physical force in the attempt to break Harvey's will. Harvey was seen by the seniors as eccentric and hard to supervise.
When Brian McCarthy was on his mission in department 5 he had difficulties with the "Director of Procurement", Flor Hellberg. Mainly she didn't comply with his orders, he wanted her to follow. One day I saw her sitting at her desk and Brian standing directly in front of her. He was screaming at the top of his lungs directly in her face. I had never heard anyone scream like that. It sounded as if he wanted to blast her against the wall behind her.
Flor got later removed from Brian and I became her successor.
Paul Miller, a registrar from department 6, had a sleep problem. He often fell asleep during "reg-cycles" and created by doing that "a flap on public lines". Although the "Dir. of Registration" Paul Hickock was often sympathetic with Paul, he beat him from time to time to punish him for such mistakes.
In a "Board of Investigation" (B of I), which I had to do for WDC FSO together with Paul Ferguson, the Shipping Officer FSO, and another staff from the FSO in 1991, we had to investigate the recruitment of two FSO-staff members, who "joined" the FSO in Australia. It came out that these staff, who were earlier Scientology-staff in Sydney, had been physically attacked and dragged out of their offices, after they had refused to join the FSO.
Conclusion
Scientology- or Sea Org-Ethics has nothing to do with the concept "ethics" as it is used in the "normal" world. The Scientology-definition of "ethics" means something totally different and Hubbard even admitted it in one of his HCO Policy letters:
The purpose of ethics is to remove counter intentions from the environment. And having accomplished that the purpose becomes to remove other intentionedness from the environment.
(HCOPL of 18 June 1968).
In a speech Hubbard said in addition:

What we have then, in ethics, is a system of removing the counter-effort to the forward push, and that's all an Ethics Officer is supposed to do.
(6711C18SO).
The purpose of Scientology-ethics is therefore to impose one’s will on others. The purpose of the Sea Org, which is to get ethics in on the planet, is therefore to dominate the world. Scientology has exposed itself as a fascist organization, who reaches for world domination and nothing else.


D) Nervous Breakdowns, Collapses, Etc.
In 1992 Phillippe Renevez, the "Deputy Flag Representative FSO" (D/Flag Rep FSO) investigated the mailing of the ASR-packs (a promotional tool). He was not satisfied with the number of mailings and threatened me with an ethics investigation. I stayed calm and told him I would supervise more closely the mailings which were solely done by Judy Gilbertson. I went to her and asked her about her way of sending the ASR-packs to the publics. I told her that we would need to send more ASR-packs in order get that particular statistic up. She got angry and "backflashed". Phillippe Renevez heard that and told her that he would start an ethics investigation on her.
Judy flipped totally out. First she just screamed at Phillippe. Then suddenly she took a big pot with a plant in it and threw it at Phillippe. She missed him fortunately. Judy started to cry and left the department.

Phillippe requested an investigation of Judy at HCO, but it never got done, due to an overload of other things HCO had to do at that time.

In 1991 I organized a radio for the "letter registration"-section, so that we could hear some music, while writing letters. Often we had to turn the radio off, as Judy flipped out, when a rock song from the sixties was played. She started to scream that the musicians would have used hidden messages to turn the listeners into druggies and that she couldn't stand this kind of music. We regarded Judy's reaction as completely exaggerated, but we stopped the music, as we felt that Judy could go totally mad.


Peter Mousiol was posted in early 1991 as "Resign Product Officer FSO" under Kim Hickock, the "D/FCCI PO for GI", his senior. Kim didn't like Peter too much, so she was giving him a hard time. After a few months Peter got busted from his post and received an "ethics handling" at HCO. He told me later that he had had a nervous breakdown while he had been at HCO because of the pressure Kim had forced on him during the previous weeks.

An Australian minor was transferred in 1991 to department 5 as an exchange for a FSO-staff, who went to AOSH ANZO in Sidney. He was just a few months in the Sea Org and started as a letter registrar in my section (I was letter reg I/C at that time).
After few weeks he started to become homesick. One time he told me that he would feel very desperate and that he couldn't stand it anymore living in the Sea Org. He started to cry and I had a lot to do to calm him down.


My roommate at the Hacienda, Len Thomas, told me in 1991, that he had to watch a public at the Sandcastle, who had gone "PTS Type III" after auditing (PTS Type III = someone, who has gone crazy). He said that the woman was put into a room, which she couldn't leave and that he had to watch her, without saying anything to her until she would get better.
Few days later, when I asked him about that woman, he told me, that she was sent home, after she had calmed down.


On my post as a letter registrar I stayed in correspondence with a woman from Switzerland, who was "New OT IV" and had done all the three "Ls" at Flag. After I had sent her a formal letter of interest, she started to write me letters on a regular basis. I found her letters had sometimes a strange tenor. When I looked more closely in her previous C/F-folders, I found a letter written by her daughter, who was staff at "CMO International". She made complaints about the fact, that her mother got very strange and behaved as if she were silly, after she had done the "Ls-auditing" at the FSO. She said her mother would have odd ideas about her sex-life and would send sometimes her under-wear to other people.
One day in 1991 the Swiss woman called me in my office. She told me, that she wanted to go on staff in "AOSH UK" (Saint Hill). Her voice on the phone startled me, as it sounded as if she were crazy.


One morning in Spring 1992 I went into the closet of my room to get dressed. I felt terrible that day as I hadn't slept enough the previous nights and hadn't reached the quota of my production, I was supposed to make. I thought about the up-coming registration-meeting with the CO FSO, Debbie Cook, which took happen every morning before production. The pressure on the GI-lines was very high in those days, so I expected that Debbie would scream and threaten with "ethics handlings". Suddenly I felt very giddy. I got dizzier from moment to moment until I finally completely passed out.
Minutes later I found myself lying on the floor. I was shocked and made it to the department only after a few hours. The following days I experienced a strange misty feeling.

When I saw the "Medical Liason Officer" Weissenburger, she told me, that I should take protein drinks and eat enough.

Later I had an interview at the "Staff Training Org FLB". I mentioned that I had "passed out". As a result I received a "Pain-Drug-Hypnosis-Security Check" (PDH-Sec. Check), as the "passing out" was a indicator that I had gotten a brainwashing treatment in the past by a psychologist or psychiatrist with the means of drugs, inflicted pain and hypnosis, per LRH.

I received the PDH-Sec. Check by a trainee of the "Saint Hill Special Briefing"-Course (the training necessary to be a Class VI-Auditor). She was New OT VII. She used the E-meter for the Sec. Check, a simple ohmmeter, which had the function of a lie-detector. I had to answer questions like the following: if I had reasons not to tell if I had been "PDH"ed, if the PDH was hidden under hypnotic orders, etc.. While I was answering the questions my auditor looked at the reading of the e-meter needle to see if I was telling the truth. I felt really bad. I started to think about the possibililty that my parents had brainwashed me and I was therefore really nuts. I spoke with Markus Ginter, the "Executive Establishment Officer Organizing Officer FLB" (Exec Esto's O/O), about it, who calmed me down.

The PDH was never finished on me, as it was found out that the Auditor had made mistakes. As I went to Germany in July, the PDH-sec check happened to be the last auditing I received in Scientology.


My Psychic And Physical Condition In Spring 1992
After being half a year on the post as "Director of Procurement" I felt very exhausted and burned out. At the end I thought the whole time about my statistics, which controlled the two feelings I had left: Guilt, in case of a low statistic, and relief, if I got a "stat up".
In those days I even didn't relax during sleep. I woke up in the morning with the feeling of being as tired as in the moment when I had gone to bed. During the day I couldn't concentrate on my work like I intended, because I was weared out by the different orders of different seniors.

I worked through several nights to file hundreds of papers in the folders of the Central Files. I found myself sleeping on the floor of my department at 3 a.m., just to wake up in full terror five minutes later, as I realized that I was not reaching my target, which I had set for the night, if I would fall asleep.

Sometimes I felt shivers coming from my head. That felt very strange, I had the feeling that something inside my head was getting re-structured. At that time I thought that I really needed a short break from the Sea Org to get physically in shape. I started to organize a flight-ticket with money I got from my parents. That took a while, which made me additionally completely nervous, as I feared that something could happen, what my planned "leave of absence" could prevent.

With a lie to my senior I finally could escape (I still planned to return after three weeks) and take a flight from Saint Petersburg to Frankfurt. It was the first time in almost two years that I had left Clearwater. During the flight I slept on my seats. It was the first time I had a "real" sleep for several months.

Today I still have a certain kind of nightmare, which pursues me from time to time. It has always the same content and it is about the worst situation one can get into in these days: Being a Sea Org member and having no return ticket.


E) The Politics Of Control Within The Sea Org
During the time I had spent in the Sea Org in Clearwater I experienced a continous control of my physical presence, of the extent of my production and of my loyalty to Scientology, the Sea Org and my seniors. The control was executed through various channels and belonged to the everyday life of any Sea Org member.

The Means Of Control
Daily musters
Three times a day the staff of the FSO had to attend a muster in the auditorium of the Fort Harrison, where we received briefings about the level of production in the FSO by the senior executives. We were continually urged and ordered to rise our personal production. If the Gross Income of the FSO was low, we were screamed at and threatened with "ethics handlings" by Debbie Cook.

Before any muster took place the staff of each division was counted and cross-checked by the "MAAs" of HCO. If anyone of the staff was absent without a valid excuse he was liable to punishment by HCO. One key part of those musters was "Chinese School": We had to repeat in chorus various quotations of Hubbard's works that dealt, f. e., with the selling Scientology to the publics. One favorite quote was the following:

HCO PL from 26 September 1979, Issue III, "Copywriting":

Hard Sell means insistence people buy. It means caring about the person and not being reasonable about stops and barriers but caring enough to get him through the stops and barriers to get the service that's going to rehabilitate him.

Weekly staff meetings
On Thursday nights at 11 p.m., we had to attend a staff meeting in the auditorium, which lasted most of the time at least two hours. The meeting was designed to get a reflection of the production of the previous working week (from Thursday, 2 p.m. until the next Thursday, 2 p.m.). Debbie Cook presided over the meeting and briefed us about the course of the FSO for the following week. She further called up individual staff members, who had to show their statistics to the 550 FSO staff, explain what they did wrong on their posts ("Flaps"), how they would handle these flaps in the coming week and what "targets" they had on their "battleplans" (BPs) for the coming week.


Daily registrar meetings
Every morning, except on Thursday and Saturday, all the registrars and the executives of the money-making departments and divisions had to attend a meeting where the production and the quotas of these areas were discussed with the Commanding Officer FSO, Debbie Cook. Sometimes we received briefings by senior executives of the management of Scientology, who explained us various dissemination- and defense-campaigns and how much money they needed for their execution. The meeting took place in the "reg office" of the Fort Harrison.


Weekly executive meetings
On Sunday afternoon every executive of the FSO had to attend a meeting in the conference room of the Coachman Building. Debbie Cook headed the meeting. The idea of this meeting was to impinge on the lower executives in the FSO-hierarchy, who had to impinge on their juniors in order to reach a higher production-level and therefore higher statistics. Debbie Cook regularly screamed at us to create a higher impact.

Sometimes we drilled "Product Officering" (getting juniors to make their quotas). Some executives played juniors of single executives, who had to overcome the excuses and problems of their juniors by simply ordering them, screaming at them or handle them with physical means to get the juniors produce again and reach their quotas. The idea behind the drilling was to get familiar with channeling pressure downwards on the lower levels of the FSO and create an "ethics presence" of the executives.


The daily control of production
Every day I had to report my senior the level of my production and the quota I had for the day. He would notify it on a board and see immediately if I would be "on" or behind my quota. If my production would be low, he would either impinge on me or bypass me "to handle the situation in my area" and assign me the "danger"-condition.


The weekly control of production
Every Thursday after 2 p.m. I had to report the weekly statistics of my area to my senior and to HCO, which had to report it to Scientology-management. If my production-level was above the level of the week before I was in the "condition" of "normal" or above and was able to receive "bonuses" and "liberty-time" on Saturdays. In case of a lower production, compared to the previous week, it wasn't allowed for me to get "libs" or receive "bonuses". If the production would drop on a very low level or stay low for a few weeks, it would lead to an ethics investigation by HCO.


Briefings
Briefings on campaigns and actions of Scientology-management against its enemies were used to show the staff of the FSO the necessity of a high production, especially of a high GI. We were told that only a GI of 3,000,000 $ per week could finance all the actions the Scientology-management planned to do. The briefings were held by senior executives of the Flag Land Base, such as Angela Quirino, Flag Rep FSO, and Sonny Klinsiek, Finance Director FLB or by senior executives of the management, like Bill Dendiu, "Chief Officer" of "Golden Era Productions" or Heber Jentzsch, President of "Church of Scientology International".

In 1992 Heber Jentzsch gave the registrars of the FSO a special briefing in the "Green Room" of the Fort Harrison, where he spoke about the crimes psychologists and psychiatrists were committing against mankind and where he encouraged us to make a lot of money, so that the fight against the enemies of Scientology could be continued. We also received briefings by the Scientology-management, which were recorded on film.

In one film we were shown a briefing by "Inspector General for Ethics" Mark Rathburn held on board of the "Freewinds", where he spoke about the fight against the "psychs". In another film David Miscavige, Mark Yager and Ray Mithoff announced inspections throughout the orgs of the world. This film was shown two months before the actual inspection of the FSO by Miscavige took place. Miscavige and the others told the viewers, Scientology staff members, that the management would only tolerate the correct application of Scientology-technology. Miscavige's comments had a character of commands. He talked in generalities, but is was clearly, that he was sending directions and warnings to us via this film.

All the different briefings had one common message to us: We, the FSO-staff, had to produce a lot more than we produced at present time. The quota for the desired production-level was set in late 1991: 3,000,000 $ per week.


Security Checks
I received about 20 Security Checks in various forms from August 1990 until July 1992:

Standard Security Check - I was questioned by an auditor or MAA from a prepared list. That happened in a secluded room and I was attached to the E-meter. The questions dealt either with my personal background or with my situation on post.
Meter Check - I had to hold the cans from the E-meter, while at the same time the MAA would watch the reaction of the needle-reading. Nobody was allowed to say anything. If a certain needle-reaction showed up, I would be further investigated.
Ethics interviews - It happened a few times that I was ordered to HCO, because a staff member had written an unfavourable report about me or because I had a problem with my post. I had to explain my point of view of the situation in this interview and the MAA would tell me his opinions. The MAA had always the last word and I had to follow his orders.
MAAs are senior executives within the Sea Org and have the power to remove executives and other staff from their posts
(FO 1422, 30 September 1968, "The requirements for senior execs...").
Normally the order to attend for an ethics interview at HCO ended up in receiving an assignment of a lower condition, which was combined with the order of making a write-up of a self-accusation, which had to be accepted by the staff members who were asked by the sinner to sign up his application for re-entry to the "ethical group" and with additional work as a punishment for the "overts" one had committed.
Rudiment Checks - At the beginning of every auditing session, "Wordclearing" or any other practice, which involved the use of the E-meter, the "ruds" were checked by the auditor. I was asked a few questions, f. e., if I suppressed anything which I didn't want to get known to others, etc.. Although the idea behind that practice was to get rid of overts in order to be able to concentrate upon the auditing, it was just another way to control and investigate the thoughts of the staff.
Missions
Missions from Flag Bureaux or from higher levels of the management regularly visited the FSO. The Sea Org doctrine says the following about missions:

...to handle downstat orgs and areas the Sea Org simply gets in ethics. This is done in such a way as to enable that org or area to get in tech, which makes it possible then for them to get in admin. In order to do this we send out missions. These have unlimited ethics powers and enough force to accomplish their purpose of getting in ethics.
(FO 228, 9 October 1967, "Purpose of the Sea Org, Character of Missions").
The missions I had to deal with were recruitment- and GI-missions, that had to get certain areas of the FSO to produce more money or had to hire Scientologists for the Sea Org. During the time the mission was at the FSO, the staff of the concerning areas were constantly watched and had to report directly to the missionaires. As part of two GI-missions I had to do a "O/W-write up" (O/W=Overts and withholds), in which I had to accuse myself and others of the area about making violations or crimes against the Scientology-technology. I had to get a clearance on these write-ups by getting a sec. check on the E-meter.
The missionaires had ultimate power to do anything in the area they were assigned to. I saw how several people were removed from one area to be placed somewhere else in the FSO. The missionaires could also send staff to the RPF.

Weekly Inspections
The workplaces and dorms of the staff were inspected by senior executives of the FSO or by CMO-staff on a weekly basis. The rooms in the FSO and on the Hacienda had to be clean and dust-free. At the Hacienda it occasionally happened that some staff were closed out of their appartments, when they were considered as being dirty. The final penalty for dirty living rooms was the assignment of "pigs berthing". The staff member had then to move into the most decayed room of the whole Hacienda and stay there for several weeks.


Programs
As an executive I had to follow three different programs which had been designed for my area. These programs consisted of a number of targets, which I had to accomplish within several weeks. The targets were designed to create a higher level of production by accomplishing them. The three programs were:

The 339R-program. I had to report on that one to the Flag Representative FSO, Angie Quirino.
The Captain's Mini-program. I had to report to the CO FSO, Debbie Cook.
A program created the Flag bureaux. My senior on that one was the D/Dir. of Procurement Int. FB.
It was expected that I got one or two targets done on each program every week. If I had problems with one of these programs or I couldn't manage it to show at least some progress, I would receive an investigation in my area.


Studytime and auditing
Every staffmember, who had graduated from Product 1, was expected to study the works of L. Ron Hubbard 2 1/2 hours a day. He was programmed by the "Staff Training Org" of the FLB-org to do certain courses, which should provide him with the necessary knowledge about his post. Auditing should make the staff more able to handle their posts. Staff on senior executive- or important sales-posts were more likely to receive auditing than other staff. The FSO couldn't make any money through the auditing of staff, therefore it was only interested that key personnel like registrars or C/S'es would receive auditing sessions by the designed "Sea Org staff auditors".


The Security Personnel of the FLB
The FLB had its own security guards. They had their own uniforms and were stationed in the Fort Harrison and in the Sandcastle. In all the important places of the base, like the entrances, video cameras documented the happenings, which were surveilled by Security in their offices.


Other means of control
If a staff member didn't show up on his post, HCO was immediately to be informed about it. A staff from HCO would then go to his appartment and get the missing person to HCO. That was the procedure, which had to be kept in, even when the guy was sick.

When some of my juniors didn't show up, I used to get a bike, drive to the Hacienda and get them back on post by myself.

If a staff would leave the base unauthorized, he was at risk to get expelled from Scientology and be "SP declared". If someone wanted to leave the Sea Org he had to go to HCO and receive an thorough "ethics handling" first.


The Result
The result of these control mechanisms is a new kind of fascism. I didn't have any opportunity to criticize the system, as Scientology was viewed as the "only tech on the planet". I couldn't criticize my seniors, as it was against "Command Intention". I was constantly under surveillance by a lot of people and was expected to supervise my own juniors in the same way. I even couldn't think of critisism, as I feared that critical thoughts about Scientology and the Sea Org would be revealed in security checks.
When the FSO-staff were placed under the "Rice and Beans"-Flag Order, noone protested against it or mutinied. All the staff had given up their previous lives or lived in the Sea Org for several years, so they were left totally dependable on the Sea Org.

Retrospectively I must say that the FSO was a big concentration camp where the most intimate thoughts and the privacy of people was entered for the sake of a totalitarian belief-system. By abusing the good intentions of most of the staff, the Sea Org turned its own members into slaves. It held and controlled them against their free will, in the true sense of the word.


F) The Term "End Of Cycle"
I heard the term "end of cycle" the first time when I was a letter registrar in department 5. I think Judy Gilbertson or Franco Carbognin, another letter registrar, mentioned it to me and wanted to refer to the death of a person, by using this term.
In Scientology the death of a person was described either by "dropping the body" or by "end of cycle", whereby the last term wasn't used that much.


G) The Campaign Against Time-Magazine
In May 1991 at a staff meeting on Thursday evening the Commanding Officer of the "Office of Special Affairs East US" briefed us about a negative article on Scientology which had been published by the "Time Magazine". She told us that the management of Scientology planned to take steps against "Time". Debbie Cook said that in that article the blame for the suicide of a Scientologist had been put on Scientology (She told the name, but I can't remember now. From reading the article today I suppose she meant Noah Lottick). Debbie told us that psychiatrists were in fact responsible for the death of that person. We were further told not to buy and read the article, as it contained pure lies and "entheta" (disencouraging news).
At the end of the briefing Richard Reiss, the Senior C/S FSO, proclaimed that the best answer to that article was "to flourish and prosper". Every staff should give his best on post, that would finish eventually all problems with the outside-world.

Weeks later we were introduced to the ad-campaign in "US Today" by during a staff-muster by Richard Haworth, the "PR-Secretary" of OSA East US. Richard visited us almost daily from then on to show us the newest ads. He told us that the continuation of the campaign would depend on the GI the FSO was making, as the ads in the newspaper were partially financed by the FSO. Debbie Cook directed us additionally to use this fact in the sales-talks with the publics as a "go-button", to get them paid for their services.

The campaign turned out to be not only as a attack against "Time Magazine", but also against the pharmaceutical combine "Eli Lilly". We were told that the negative article in "Time" had been created by the pharma industry, the "psychs", to destroy Scientology's credibility in the public opinion.


H) "Fair Game" Or The Designated "Handling" Of "Squirrels"
A "squirrel" is described by Scientology literature as someone, who is doing off-beat technology (HCOPL from 6 February 1965). In general understanding it is someone, who fell off of Scientology, but who is still applying practices of Scientology like auditing for example. "Squirreling" was considered as "suppressive". The "Squirrels" received therefore the same treatment by Scientology as other "SPs". During the year 1991 I was in contact with a German public, who was living in the US and happened to be New OT IV. She was unable to "move further on the bridge", as she had received some auditing by a squirrel living in Scotland. She couldn't come to the FSO, as she was still looked upon as PTS (Potential Trouble Source), because the squirrel was still practicing. Her duty was, in order to be able to receive Scientology-services again, to get this squirrel to stop practicing. Furthermore she had proove that he wasn't doing Scientology-related practices anymore. The woman was quite disencouraged because of all these barriers and didn't want to do anything against this squirrel.
When I discussed that matter with Eileen Haworth, who also was a letter registrar at that time, she told me, that she would give this guy in Scotland hell and do whatever it was necessary, if she would be in a similar situation.

I wrote more letters to the woman forcing her to do something about that squirrel. I even called her, but she still didn't want to do anything.

During those days I read the "Fair Game HCOPL" of Hubbard and its follower the "Cancellation of Fair Game". I interpreted it the way that the term "Fair Game" had been cancelled but not the "handling of suppressive persons", as it was stated in that policy.


I) The Fear Of A Raid
In November 1991 Debbie Cook told the staff of the FSO during a muster that the organizations of the FLB could receive a raid during the following weeks. She said that everyone of us had to be on "night watch" in one of the buildings once a week from 11 p.m. until 3 a.m.. Each staff received during the next days an individual schedule from the Security of the FLB. I had to be on watch every Friday and my first assignment was the West Coast Building, where OSA EUS and the CMO was located.
The "Security Alert" was strictly followed during the first weeks and each staff who failed to show up on his watch got punished with a "Court of Ethics".

Last year I spoke with Steven Fishman about that incident. I found out that at the same time the IRS actually planned to carry out a raid upon the FLB.


J) The Scientology Theory Of A World Conspiracy
To understand the behaviour of Scientology against psychologists like Dr. Geertz one has to get familiar with the conspiracy theory of Hubbard and in which way this theory gets transported into the minds of the staff of Scientology. I was indoctrinated for four years with the idea that the world in which we lived was the product of a conspiracy of psychologists and psychiatrists. During my stay in Clearwater I had no chance to compare the Scientology theory with the facts. In this chapter I want to described how I got obsessed with the idea of a world conspiracy and what it took to get it off.

Quotes Of Hubbard
In 1954 Hubbard held a speech where he spoke about one of its early organizations, the "Hubbard Dianetic Research Foundation". He told the following:
The one group, the oldest group headed by the Hubbard Dianetics Research Foundation has two appendant groups. It has been in these two businesses for a long time. It was interested in civil defense and was doing things about civil defense. Those activities have been pooled together in an allied affiliated corporation known as the American Society of Civilian Defense. It knows Dianetics works and says so loudly. That organization stands 100% behind Dianetics as the only process it would even vaguely use on hysterical or distressed people. The other is the Freudian Foundation of America organized to be a free offer to any of the people in Russian-held Vienna who wish to take advantage of it. It is the only authorized agency of any kind in the United States authorized to use the name and works of Sigmund Freud. All other Freudian Foundations have no charter or franchise from the old Master. Nobody has. But we have one from the Freudian Foundation, which makes us the only legal Freudian Foundation. This organization knows that as a sequence to the great work of Sigmund Freud (!), Dianetics is the solution to psychoanalysis and it freely says so.
During the following years Hubbard changed completely his tune about psychology and psychiatry, the "psychs" became Enemy No. 1. Hubbard not only wrote a countless number of policies and bulletins, in which he condemned the psychs as murderers and torturers of human kind, but even used articles about auditing or his self-created admin technology to give the psychs a side-swipe. By being a Scientologist and reading Hubbard's works one inevitably internalizes the hatred against psychiatry and psychology.

Here are some few quotes of Hubbard from articles he wrote against the "psychs":


As a technical action, it is of interest to any auditor to know that pain and ideas is a basic "therapy" used down the years by psychiatrists and such lot. The practice is very general and very old...Any HAS ("Hubbard Apprentice Scientologist") knows more and can do more about the mind than any psychiatrist. There is no real level of comparison since psychiatry as used is a destructive technology...The psychiatrist has masters. His principal organization, World Federation of Mental Health, and its members, the National Associations of Mental Health, the American Psychiatric Association and the American Psychological Association, are directly connected to Russia. Even the British Broadcasting Company has stated that psychiatry and the KGB (Russian secret police) operate in direct collusion.
HCO Bulletin of 16 July 1970, "The Psychiatrist At Work".

Scientology has fought a consistent and winning battle for human rights for two decades. During that entire time, not one crime has been found in Scientology. But during that time psychiatry has seized and killed tens of thousands of people they don't like. It is said Scientology breaks up families. They don't. But psychiatrists call their own rape and death of men's wives "necessary treatment". Any type of crime this psychiatric group accuses the Scientologists of has been traced back to be standard psychiatric practice...To enlarge their sphere the psychiatrist (UN Tech Series 9 plans to knock out all churches in the field of mental healing. Scientology is their first target. If they win there they will take on other churches and so build their empire...The psychiatrist handling almost none of the "trade" yet obtains hundreds of millions from governments annually over the world. For this he gives no service, injures or kills his patients, seeks to seize anyone and everyone at a whim, yet is strangely immune from the correct murder charges. Not even a medical doctor is allowed to kill people. How could the allied nations hang Germans at Nuremburg for these crimes and yet award heavy appropriation at home to run their own death camps.
Freedom Magazine, 27 February 1969, "A Reason Psychiatrists Front Groups Attack Scientology".

It has often been noted (and reported routinely in the papers) that criminals "treated" by psychologists and psychiatrists go out and commit crimes. It could be suspected that these "practicioners" used pain-drug-hypnosis and other means (under the guise of treatment) to induce the criminal to go out and commit more crimes. And possibly they do...So let us look at the psychs again - what they call "treatment" is a suppression (by shocks, drugs, etc.) of the ability to think. They are not honest enough, these psychs, being just dramatizing psychotics themselves for the most part, to publish the fact that all their "treatments" (mayhem, really, when it is not murder) make people more stupid...Their "treatments" make the criminals more stupid. The stupid commit more crimes. It is pretty simple, really, when you look at it. Why does the state support psychiatrists and psychologists? Because the state is stupid? Or does it want to more citizens robbed and killed? It's one or the other. Take your choice.
HCO Bulletin of 26 April 1982, "The Criminal Mind And The Psychs"

...Then Dianetics and Scientology appeared. Here was a real, an actual working technology. They worried about it and considered it was a direct threat to psychiatry. And they made a very ghastly mistake. Secretly they spent time and money all over the world to discredit and suppresss Dianetics and Scientology. Working through heads of press chains they controlled, working through ministers of health they had appointed with lies and false alarms, they continuosly secretly fought Dianetics and Scientology. Enduring these attacks and alert, Dianetics and Scientology people somehow kept going and kept watching...Because Scientologists broke no laws committed no crimes and had a factual, effective mental technology they could not be destroyed. The public was on their side. But this was not the case with psychiatry. The most basic laws of humanity had been broken by them. Mayhem, rape, torture, murder were commonplace crimes amongst them. Decaying bodies, dead by violent torture, were exhumed in the ground of psychiatric asylums. Vicious political connections, misappropriated funds, incarceration of patients for political reasons, these with a parade of social, sexual, drug and unnatural offenses began to fall out of the skeleton-filled closets of psychiatry.
Freedom Magazine, 24 September 1969, "The Fight For Freedom".

How I Came To Believe The Conspiracy Theory
In the Sea Org I was exposed to a continous flow of "informations" and "data" about "man's biggest enemy": psychiatry and psychology. There were different sources and means, which transported the ideas Hubbard's into my mind and helped to settle them there:
Daily study - I had to study Hubbard's policies and bulletins 2 1/2 hours a day. Hubbard used to fill his works with attacks against his believed enemies and as I had no opportunity to compare the allegations with informations from other sources, I got accustomed with his theories.
Events - On events, especially held by the "International Association of Scientologistsi" (IAS), the "war against the enemies" was celebrated by the leaders of the Scientology-management. One key element of the dramaturgy of these galas, which were held every few months, were the actions against the "psychs". The "Citizens Commision for Human Rights" (CCHR) was the declared tool to wipe out psychiatry from earth.
Len Thomas, one of my room mates and, at that time, ex-staff from CCHR in Australia, told me that one statistic of CCHR was "the number of psychologists/psychiatrists who give up their practice".
During those events one of the managing agents of Scientology, mostly Heber Jentzsch, told the audience about the wins against psychiatry and some "new facts" about psychiatry which formed a contrast and emphasized the urge of the necessity for further actions, which were announced by Jentzsch or other staff from management.
All staff had to watch those events, which took place either at "Flag" or in another big org. In the last case the events were televised to Clearwater and we watched it together with the publics in the auditorium.
Briefings - Two people briefed the staff regularly about the fight against psychiatry, Interpol or the IRS: Richard Haworth, the PR Sec. OSA EUS and "Birk", from IAS Administrations. They simply told us the same stories we could read in the "Impact magazines", the voice of the IAS.
Sometimes we could watch a televised briefing, which was originally held on board of the "Freewinds", f. e., a briefing by Mark Rathburn, the IG Ethics RTC.
One day Heber Jentzsch gave the registrars a briefing in the "green room" of the Fort Harrison. He talked most of the time about the crimes psychiatry would commit (administering electric shocks to children) and encouraged us to continue with our efforts to make a good GI.
Mouth to mouth propaganda - It was forbidden for us to speak to others about "our case" and to give someone "entheta" (bad news), but it was not forbidden to talk about what Hubbard and the management thought about psychiatry. Like the great majority of the Sea Org members, I believed in Hubbards words and in the informations the management had given us, too. So my personal conspiracy theory got his final touches through its confirmation by other staff members who gave me "additional data":
Len Thomas told me that the "psychs" had practiced their business for "thousands of lifetimes". He said they had done thousands of "overts" and would be really professionals in suppressing people.
Christian Winter read Hubbard's science fiction-books from time to time. He told me that the character of the "psychlos" in one of those books wasn't a pure make up, but that it was based on Hubbard's past life experiences. The "psychlos" are the enemies of mankind in Hubbard's book "Battlefield Earth".
A staff from FLB told me that in the seventies a crazy psychologist from Los Angeles ("Jolly" West) killed an elephant by administering it LSD.
When I left the Mousiol company in December '92 I knew the Scientology-organization was wrong, but still my head was filled with the ideas about a world conspiracy. I thought, especially after hearing "Ron's Journal '67", that the events and occurrences on earth were the product of the actions by a few people who had the power to control the world, like Hubbard described it in RJ '67. Furthermore I believed that Scientology was basically right, that Hubbard had created a workable system for man, which enabled him to free himself from the bonds of the psychs.

How I Came Off Again
In December '92/January '93 I wasn't willing to talk to anybody about my experiences with Scientology. I lived at my parents' house in a little village in Germany, where I spent the next months mostly with reading books and walking about with our dog.
I felt physically exhausted but at the same time I wanted to gather as many informations about certain things as possible.

I became interested in the history of the "Third Reich" and of Adolf Hitler. In Eugen Kogon's book "The SS-State" and in Hans Buchheim's expert opinion for the Auschwitz-trial "The SS - The Instrument Of Power" I could detect similarities between the disciplines and structures of the Sea Org and the SS.

I've read Solschenizyn's book "The Archipel Gulag". I had the feeling that the author was talking directly to me, when he wrote about his experiences in the Russian concentration camps. The first time after a long period of time I felt understood.

But I still believed in a theory of Scientology, that Hitler was just a product of an experiment by the psychs. As I got more and more familiar with real reading again I got confident that I was able enough to find out who the real conspirators were and are. I became a member of two libraries, one was the largest of the state Baden-Württemberg, and went to work. During the time from Mid-December '92 until May '93 I did the following:

I read approximately 100 books about Nazi-Germany, the SS, the concentration camps and the annihilation of jews. The most comprehensive book about Adolf Hitler by Joachim C. Fest with its over 1,000 pages I read twice.
I've studied the structure of the SS and made an own organization board, which should help me to find a secret hierarchy, by which I could detect "the men behind Hitler".
I read the books of Ernst Klee, who was an expert writer of the euthanisa-project of Hitler, the project which led to the death of thousands of disabled children and adults in the gas chambers of psychiatric institutions. The killing of the victims was actually supervised by a psychiatrist Werner Heyde. That actually fit in my world picture, but when I read more about the structures of that project I discovered that Heyde had to report to two SS-men, Viktor Brack and Christian Wirth, who had to report themselves to Philipp Bouhler, the head of the "Führerkanzlei", directly under Hitler himself. I finally found out that there hadn't been any psychiatric conspiracy during the Third Reich and Hitler hadn't been definitely a puppet of somebody else.
As I still believed in a conspiracy I read about 20 books about various secret services: The CIA, the KGB, the NSA, the BND (the German secret service). I couldn't discovered that they were actually directing the course of the world, although they had the tendency and the claim to do so.
I read 20 books about secret societies and tried to make links between them to find the common denominator. Although the wildest speculations were mentioned in those books about world conspiracy of Free Masons or the Illuminati, they couldn't come up with an actual proof that such a conspiracy really existed.
Frank McCall, a founding Sea Org member wrote me in one letter about the "New World Order", another variant of the Illuminati-theory, which was made popular in the US by Gary Allen's book during the seventies. When I found that book in the library and read some chapters of Allen's stupid allegations I finally realized that the believe in a world conspiracy was rather a sign of a mental shortcoming than of a sound mind. My interest in finding the "conspirator of earth" dropped down to zero.
I began to read the critical books about Scientology I was forbidden to read while I was in Scientology. First I studied the more harmless books, then I dared to read the "dangerous ones", f. e., the books of Friedrich Wilhelm Haack, a cult expert from the Protestant Church in Germany, who had been one of most hated people by Scientology in this area. I learned:
that Hubbard had been a member of an occult order with the name O.T.O during the midforties.
that during the seventies the "Guardian's Office" of Scientology had committed burglaries into the Finance and Justice Office of the US and that Mary Sue Hubbard had been sentenced to a four year prison term.
that on OT 3 one would have to audit "body thetans", invisible beings, which are stucked to the body.
that 75,000,000 years ago the head of a galactic confederation, Xenu, implanted the population of 76 planets with atomic bombs, exploding on volcanoes, and with a 3-D motion picture which was shown to the victims for 36 days.
I read several critical books about Scientology, but I still believed that Hubbard was basically good and that his ideology had to have something essential. Then finally the affidavits of Anne Rosenblum and Tonya Burden, both Ex-CMO messengers, "came across" in one book. I read these declarations several times and I got a real conflict in my mind.

Then on one evening in May I asked myself what I would loose if the whole ideology of Hubbard revealed itself as nothing more than crap. I thought I would loose nothing and that was the moment I was finally relieved from Scientology and its ideas.

During the time I spoke with noone about my views, except with one friend of a human rights group, who told me that he didn't believe in a world conspiracy, but that I should check it out by myself. I didn't receive neither any de-programming nor counseling by cult-experts. The subject Scientology wasn't discussed in my parents' house.

Before I started to look independently into the above mentioned matters I had been completely obsessed with the ideas of Scientology. I was determined to spend my whole life in the Sea Org, working 14 hours a day and more. While in the Sea Org I believed every written or spoken word of Hubbard. During that time I disqualified every non-Scientologist as a wog and every Scientology-critic as a "suppressive person". I was the standard example of a dedicated Sea Org member: Physically and mentally exhausted, but 100 % fanatic.

When I was finally forced to proove the ideas of Hubbard against the actual facts I came into trouble, as his ideology wasn't based at all on actual research or on his "urge to help mankind" but was created by the Hubbard's deep fear of himself.


K) My Personal Opinion About Scientology
The Scientology Ideology
I think one reason why Hubbard created Dianetics and Scientology was sub-consciously to find a way of a solution for his severe psychic problems. The letter Hubbard wrote to the Medical Veterans Administrations in October 1947 shows a deeply desperated man unable to deal with life in general and himself. He couldn't find appropriate help then and invented therefore a system which should proove that the world was wrong and he was right.
On the OT-levels the Scientologist has to get rid of "spiritual beings" who are attached to his body, the "body thetans". That can be viewed as a kind of modern exorcism. One advocate of the Social Psychiatry, Gaetano Benedetti, gave two characteristic features

[Snow White]

of schizophrenia among others in his great book "Death Landscapes Of The Soul": Hallucination and mania. The OT-levels of Scientology are very good examples of both of these characteristics:

On "OT III" one reads in the classified documents that Hubbard claimed to have found out the big secret of this universe, that 75 million years ago, a galactical head with the name "Xenu" had enslaved the population of "this sector" by the means of hydrogen bombs and mass implanting (=mania).

On "New OT VII" the Scientologist has to free himself of millions of body thetans and, as a final drill, communicate with plants and receive communication by them (=hallucination).

These "sacred scriptures" are treated as highly confidential material and are stored behind high security areas, like the ones at the FSO. Hubbard invented Scientology to force his reality about life, his paranoia and schizophrenia, upon mankind. Maybe he really wanted to free himself and others from the "beings", he believed he and other men were surrounded with. Who knows. However that may be, Scientology is a secure, artificial way into schizophrenia. If one gets forced to believe that he is surrounded by millions of ghosts, if he isn't actually, and if he has to believe, that he is a victim of a galactical conspiracy, which hadn't happened, then one has to get schizophrenic.

Hubbard was schizophrenic and paranoid and his ideology is a direct product of the state of his sick mind.


The Scientology Organization And David Miscavige
As the Scientology ideology reflects Hubbard, the organization reflects his personality too. The Scientology organization wants to draw a picture for the "outside world" of a religious group which is beneficial for all mankind. But if one looks behind the curtains one will find a cynic, totalitarian slave system that doesn't accept anything except Hubbard, Scientology and its demagogues of today. If one, like Steven Fishman, leaves a paranoid system like Scientology, he was part of, and holds a mirror to it, then the system must do anything possible to destroy him. The system cannot endure the fact that someone shows the world how it really is. One characteristic of paranoia is the inability of reflecting oneself. The behaviour of Scientology against Steven Fishman and Dr. Uwe Geertz shows to what extent the organization is paranoid and dangerous.
Judge Breckenridge wrote in his memorandum of the Armstrong-case in 1984: "The organization clearly is schizophrenic and paranoid, and the bizarre combination seems to be a reflection of its founder LRH." That judgement is still valid today.

If one is a Scientologist he is both a victim and a perpetrator. The higher one climbs in the hierarchy of Scientology the more he solely gets more and more a perpetrator. Miscavige is truly the successor of Hubbard. He isn't indeed the "great inventor" like Hubbard. It is also not clear if he actually believes in the "technology". But being the leader of a totalitarian, criminal and paranoid system like Scientology, he must be at least a criminal and paranoid perpetrator of the same quality as Hubbard was.

People like Miscavige, who are treating other people dependable on him like slaves and are responsible for severe crimes, are a threat for every society. If one acts like Miscavige but wouldn't bother to cover it as "religious matter", he would immediately be sent to prison or placed behind psychiatric bars through the legislation of every modern state. Miscavige should be treated the same way. Noone has the right to enslave human beings and destroy men of a different opinion just because of "religious reasons".

L) List Of Attached Documents
A) Brief Description Of My Scientology Career
In The Sea Org
Document 1:
Certificate about the successful completion of the course "Staff Status I" on „Product 1.
Document 2:
The "Posting Order", which made my promotion to the "Director of Procurement" official.
Document 3:
The application letter for a new visa at the US consulate in Germany. The most interesting sentence in it: "He will not be involved in the selling of articles or the solicitation or acceptance of donations."
Document 4:
The flight ticket from Saint Petersburg to Frankfurt/Germany
The Mousiol Company
Document 5:
Impact No. 34, May 1991, the magazine of the "International Association of Scientologists".
Page 16 above, from right to left: The "President" of the FSO, Peter Mousiol, Achim Bendig, Kay Barre and two other Scientologists.
Page 18: Karlheinz Schneider receives the "Patron Meritorious"-plaque by Guillaume Lesevre, "Executive Director International".
Page 19: Peter Mousiol receives the "Patron Meritorious"-plaque by Guillaume Lesevre.
Page 20 and 21: Detlev Foullois and Karl-Erich Heilig are awarded with the "Gold Meritorious"-status by Guillaume Lesevre and Janet Light, "President IAS Administrations".
Document 6:
The report of Peter Mousiol, written in October '92.
B) The Managing Of The Flag Service Org In Theory And Practice
How I Experienced David Miscavige's Role In Scientology
Document 7:
Source No. 90, November 1993, German edition, "The Magazine of the Flag Land Base".
Page 18: The announcement of the "Office of the RTC-Representatives". Quote from the text: "Mr. Miscavige said: "I have established an Office of RTC-Representatives here at Flag. I cannot always be here, and it is the wish of RTC, that nothing is in the way of those, who want to go OT as fast as possible." "
With the installation of a RTC-office at the FSO he bypasses the whole management of Scientology.
The FSO Under Hubbard
Document 8:
Some examples of "LRH Advices" which were contained in my "Full Hat Pack".
C) How Scientology Ethics Was Applied
Document 9:
Source No. 95, Spring 1995, German edition, "The Magazine of the Flag Land Base".
Page 16: Picture and interview with Richard Reiss, "Senior Case Supervisor FSO".
Document 10:
Source No. 95, Spring 1995, German edition, "The Magazine of the Flag Land Base".
Page 2: Picture of the "Executive Council of the FSO": Debbie Cook, Commanding Officer FSO is standing in front. Mark Lizer, the replacement of the "Executive Director" Wiebke Hansen of the Scientology-organization in Hamburg, is the fifth from left. Tristan Buchanan, former "Supercargo FSO" is standing far left.
E) The Politics Of Control Within the Sea Org
The Means Of Control
Document 11:
HCO Bulletin of 7 May 1968, "UPPER INDOC TRs". During one of the executive meetings we had to drill "Upper Indoc TRs" to get more able in controlling juniors.
Document 12:
HCO Policy Letter of 15 February 1979, "VERBAL TECH: PENALTIES". It shows that it isn't allowed in Scientology to discuss or interprete the "technology" of Hubbard.
H) "Fair Game" Or The Designated "Handling" Of "Squirrels"
Document 13:
HCO Policy Letter of 29 June 1968, "ENROLLMENT IN SUPPRESSIVE GROUPS". That policy was the guideline for the treatment of the public, mentioned in this chapter.
J) The Scientology Theory Of A World Conspiracy
Quotes Of Hubbard
Document 14:
Impact No. 55, Fall 1994, the magazine of the "International Association of Scientologists".
Page 6 and 7: The article "The criminal mind and the psychs" by L. Ron Hubbard.
How I Came Off
Document 15:
My self-made command-structure of the SS. At the far right one can see that the top-psychiatrist of the euthanasia-project had to report to two men of the SS.
Document 16:
The reply of a letter I wrote to the "Central Board of the Jews in Germany", in which I asked them if they knew anything about a big conspiracy of psychiatrists and psychologists against them during World War II. I was referred in that letter to the Institute of Contemporary History in Munich.
Document 17:
The letter of Frank McCall, in which he stated his theory about the "New World Order".
III) APPENDIX
I declare under penalty of perjury that the aforementioned facts set forth are true and correct.
Respectfully Submitted,
Dated: April 19, 1996



________________________
Martin Ottmann
c/o EZW
Hölderlinplatz 2 A
70193 Stuttgart
Germany

[Snow White]

http://stop-wise.biz/Dec_Geary_930905.html



DECLARATION OF ROBERT GEARY, D.D.S.
I, ROBERT GEARY, declare as follows:

I have personal knowledge of all facts contained within this declaration and if called to testify to those facts, I would be competently able to do so.

I am a dentist and reside in Medina, Ohio. Sometime around April of 1988 I received a brochure through the mail from Sterling Management Systems of Glendale, California. The brochure dealt with an introductory course that Sterling Management Systems was giving pertaining to the Management of the dental practices. I decided to attend the introductory seminar and signed up both myself and the staff of My dental practice to attend a seminar which was conducted around the beginning of May of 1988.

Prior to attending the introductory seminar, Sterling Management Systems sent out personality profiles to be completed by myself, my staff and my wife. [sentence lined out].

I attended the introductory seminar with my staff and found it to be a high intensity experience. I was impressed by the dedication of the leaders of the seminar who seemed to almost be under pressure to perform. At the seminar I heard some mention that the management techniques taught by Sterling Management Systems had been authored by L. Ron Hubbard who was described as a science-fiction writer, a great businessman and the founder of Dianetics. I do not recall any mention being made at the introductory seminar of the Church of Scientology.

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Near the conclusion of the introductory seminar it seemed to me that the seminar leaders orchestrated a situation to separate me from my staff. They asked me to stay behind to review the results of the personality profiles filled out before I took the introductory course. They pointed out a number of "defects" that were revealed by the personality profiles and exerted significant pressure on me to sign up for Sterling Management's courses offered in Glendale, California. I was somewhat reluctant to sign up and they had me call several persons who purported to be dentists who were satisfied with Sterling who gave their endorsement of the courses. I felt like I was pressured and could not leave until I signed up.

I am aware of the attached definition of "hard sell" (Exhibit "A") and I now feel that hard sell technique was applied to me to get me to sign up for the Sterling Management courses in Glendale.

Since I had used my American Dental Association Gold Card to sign up for the introductory Sterling seminar, the course leaders knew that I had this card available and before I left the introductory seminar, I signed up for the management course in Glendale, California which cost approximately $10,500.00.

I signed a copy of a contract with Sterling Management with reference to taking these courses. Although the contract may have mentioned L. Ron Hubbard and Dianetics, I do not recall any mention of the Church of Scientology. A true and correct copy of the contract I signed with Sterling Management is attached hereto as Exhibit "B". Immediately after signing up for the Sterling Management courses in Glendale, California, I came under intense

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pressure to begin the courses immediately. However, I resisted this pressure as it was simply impossible for me to abandon my practice on such short notice. I therefore informed the Sterling Management staff that I would be attending the course in approximately a month's time. Before I even left the introductory Sterling seminar I found myself having what I now recognize as Scientology terminology implanted in place of my own. I was told about suppressive persons.

The next day after having returned home from the introductory seminar, I received a telephone call from a Sterling representative who inquired as to whether any "suppressive persons" were trying to talk me out of attending the seminar. The Sterling representative kept up a regular contact with me in order to assure that I stayed on course to attend their seminar in Glendale, California. A personality profile and field questionaire were sent for my wife, staff to fill out prior to the course.

I made arrangements to take two weeks off of work so that my wife, and two daughters, and I could travel to Glendale. The Sterling Management seminar was seven days in length and I intended to attend the seminar for the first week and then take a second week vacation. My wife and daughters were going to go to the beach and Disneyland and generally vacation while I was attending the seminar.

When I arrived at Sterling Management's headquarters, I sat in the reception area for a while and then was called in and more information of a personal nature was extracted from me. I found that I was being shuffled from one person to another. All the personnel at Sterling Management were friendly and smiling but very businesslike. My first suspicion with reference to Sterling

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Sterling Management was when they started asking me questions as to why I was attending their management seminars. They inquired as to whether I was there of my own free will or whether I was there to investigate Sterling Management and if I worked for a newspaper. I apparently passed through this inquiry and eventually was introduced to my course consultant, Lee Cambique. Ms. Cambique went over my personality profile and identified a person that she said was a hostile staff member or potential trouble source. Ms. Cambique then started me on the courses that I had signed up to take. I was in a course room with other dentists taking courses and it appeared that one could come in at any time and simply start taking the courses rather than there being any set course time. We worked out of workbooks which had checklists for us to keep stats as we were tested on the course content. In addition, we were required to make clay figures to illustrate to our course supervisors that we understood the principles we were working with. I took such courses as the TR Drills 0, 1, 2, 3, Communication Courses and Word Clearing.

At the time I thought the courses were somewhat simplistic but I wanted to believe I was going to get what I paid for. I noticed that many of the course supervisors were very young and I was curious as to how they could teach us business management practice. This feeling was reinforced when I found out that Lee Cambique was an ex-hygienist and wondered what she could teach me about dental management.

I later came to learn that the courses I was taking at Sterling were an introduction to Scientology, although I was not aware of the fact at that time. I now feel that what I was

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learning at Sterling Management Systems was simply an introduction into Scientology and was making me over into a Scientology salesman.

During the course of my seven days at Sterling Management I was being continually pulled out of the course room to be taken to other rooms where I would be subjected to intense pressure to buy books, prints depicting various science-fiction themes by L. Ron Hubbard, etc. I was eventually pressured using the "hard sell" technique to become a member of an organization by the name of Concerned Businessmen Association. This organization was purportedly an anti-drug group. The alleged benefit to me of being a member of the Concerned Businessmen group was publicity for my practice. I was to spend approximately $3,500.00 to reach a very small number of people with a mailer addressing my concern about the drug problem in our community. In order to do this, I had to reveal a list of all my patients. Although I was quite uncomfortable with this scheme and knew that the $3,500.00 I was paying was all out of proportion to the alleged benefit, I felt like I was powerless to get out of the room and back to what I came to do and was paying to do, i.e., take a management course until I signed up for the group. I eventually signed up by using a credit card knowing that as soon as I was able to do so, I would cancel the purchase. I later in fact cancelled my payment for marketing the anti-drug campaign through Concerned Businessmen Association.

The way the courses were structured at Sterling Management systems, I would arrive at the offices at 8:00 in the morning and although they were scheduled to last only until 5:00 in the evening, they would generally stretch out until 10:00 or 11:00 at

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night. This went on all seven days.' On one evening we received lecture from a representative from the Orange County organization of the Church of Scientology whose name I believe to be Mark Scheffler. Mr. Scheffler was recruiting students to take courses at the Orange County Organization of the Church of Scientology. I myself was recruited by William Bradham, a recruiter for the Church of Scientology, San Francisco Organization. Mr. Bradham and Mr. Scheffler "used" Sterling offices. While I was at Sterling Management taking courses, several dentists were lulled from their "business management courses" at Sterling and sent to the Church of Scientology in Orange County for auditing rather than finishing their Sterling courses. The "hook" used for selling auditing was that the students were being sent out for more detailed interpretation of their personality profiles.

When I was recruited, I was taken into a small room that reminded me of rooms in auto dealerships used to close sales.

Mr. Bradham informed me that he was a representative of the "Dianetics Center" in San Francisco, but did not state that he was a representative of Scientology. He gave his personal success story with reference to Dianetics stating that it had saved both his business and his marriage. He informed me that he felt a close kinship to me because of the personal problems I was experiencing. Mr. Bradham seemed to have possession of a great deal of personal information about myself and it was only later that I realized that he must have gotten that information from the field questionairres (Exhibit C) that were filled out by my staff, myself, and my wife. Mr. Bradham knew personal information that

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he could not have obtained any other way.

Mr. Bradham used a "hard sell" approach to convince me to take Dianetic auditing courses. I was in the room with him for two to two and a half hours. Although I was not subjected to any physical restraints, I felt I could not leave the room without his permission although this was taking time away from the expensive courses I had signed up at Sterling to take. I was informed by one classmate that he had spent at least six hours in one of these rooms being subjected to the same type of sales pitch by Mark Scheffler of the Orange County Organization.

In order to get out of the room and get Mr. Bradham off my back, I advised him that I didn't think it would do any good to get audited if my wife was not also going to be audited. I informed him that my wife was not at all interested in getting involved in auditing and therefore I could not get involved. I knew for a fact that my wife, Dorothy was not interested in being involved in this experience and in fact, was not even in favor of my taking the expensive Sterling courses. Nevertheless, I went back to my wife and asked her if she was interested in being audited and she replied that she was not.

The next day when I arrived at Sterling Management I was surprised to see my wife in the hallway with Mr. Bradham who seemed to be quite pleased. Sterling Management had apparently called her at the hotel and convinced her to come in to Sterling management in order to support me in my endeavors. Since my wife has always been very supportive of me, she consented to come in.

I was informed by Mr. Bradham that my wife had already signed up for auditing so I felt I had no choice but to also sign up for

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auditing. Sterling Management played my wife and I off each other in order to sell these auditing courses. By the end of the week students were figuring out that there was a Scientology connection to Sterling Management. All the instructors seemed to be Scientologists and none of us knew exactly what the connection was. I knew that there was a controversy over Scientology and that it was considered a religion. At the time I did not understand I was being indoctrinated into Scientology dogma. I now know that the communication courses and what I was being taught about the Tone Scale was in fact part of the religious belief system of Scientology.

While I was at Sterling Management I wrote up a number of "success stories". These "success stories" were an absolute requirement in order to complete the courses I was taking. If one did not write up an adequate "success story" one could not complete the course work.

After my wife and I were signed up for the auditing courses at the San Francisco mission, I was put under pressure to take the second week of the time I was to spend in California and go immediately to San Francisco to take auditing. I resisted this pressure and informed them that we would be taking the courses in approximatley a month. Between the time I left Glendale and the time I arrived at San Francisco approximately a month later, Lee Cambique and representatives of the "Dianetics Center" in San Francisco were in constant contact with me. I was given a lot of reading to do and many statistics to keep. I had to set up an "Org Board" for my practice and at the same time take care of the

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backlog of patients accumulated while I was at Sterling. I felt that I was so busy I could not think straight.

The basic auditing courses that my wife and I signed up for in San Francisco cost approximately $2,200.00 apiece. At the time I had some positive feelings about Sterling and felt that I wanted to make sure that my investment would pay off for me. When I travelled to San Francisco, I took one staff member, a receptionist and my two daughters with me. The staff member took some basic communication courses while my two children took some communication courses, both of which they stated they hated. The arrangements for accommodations in San Francisco were made by the Dianetics Center. The Dianetics Center in fact turned out to be located at the San Francisco "mission" of the Church of Scientology.

When we arrived in San Francisco we found that we were staying at the Nob Hill Apartments which were absolutely deplorable. When I got to the San Francisco "mission" I went through a similar registration process as I had gone through at sterling Management. I then signed up for courses, gave more personal information and began being shuffled from room to room ind person to person.

I was again interrogated as to whether I was at the mission to investigate it or whether I was a representative of the press or psychiatry. The "ethics officer" for the mission, an ex dentist working full time in Scientology, inquired of me as to whether I had heard anything negative about Scientology. I informed him that the day before I had left for San Francisco, one of my staff members had given me a book entitled "L. Ron

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Hubbard, Messiah or Madman. I had not had time to read it but had only read the cover. The ethics officer reached into his desk and pulled out a thick rebuttal to the book which purported to contain declarations rebutting each point made in the book. I later found out that the rebuttal was not factual but at the time I was convinced by the Scientologists that the world around me was filled with suppressive persons and this was just another example of their handiwork.

By this time I knew that I was involved in Scientology, but I still did not exactly know what Scientology was and continued to be subjected to a "hard sell" approach.

My wife and I underwent auditing at the San Francisco mission for approximately a week. At the end of the week I was subjected to more "hard sell" to sign up for a "clear" package. The package cost approximately $50,000.00. The staff encouraged me and pressured me to allow them to call my bank to have the limits on my credit card lifted to pay for Scientology services. Mr. Bradham, who styled himself a "financial expert" had me fill out a financial statement in order to finance the "clear package". This was one of the biggest mistakes I made because it now gave the Scientologists a detailed blueprint of what my family's assets were and they systematically went after them one by one.

Mr. Bradham encouraged me not to use my local bank to finance Scientology courses but convinced me that I could get a better rate at an Alaska credit union he had contacts with.

While at the San Francisco mission my wife and I both took auditing. The auditing I took was a very emotional process in

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which I hooked up to a "E-Meter" which I now know to be a form of a lie detector. I then confessed to the auditor under interrogation all types of personal problems which I felt would be kept confidential.

Toward the end of the week at the San Francisco mission my wife and I were taken into the Chaplain's Office where the chaplain asked us to reveal intimate personal and marital problems and we were led into what was an orchestrated and successful attempt to cause a breach between my wife and I. We had a huge argument as a result of being placed in this confrontational situation. The manipulation that we were being subjected to was mind-boggling. My wife was pressured to stay in San Francisco and undergo the Purification Rundown and initial auditing. We were told that there was a danger that if she came back to Ohio with me, our marriage would break up. I therefore left San Francisco with our receptionist and one daughter and went back to Ohio while my wife and the other daughter were moved to a new hotel and my wife continued to take courses at the San Francisco mission. She was to stay in San Francisco for only two weeks.

There was continued strong contact between Mr. Bradham and myself who made sure that I completed financing arrangements. When I returned to Ohio in August of 1988[?], I now had to take over my wife's job responsibilities in the office; payroll and accounts receivable. I had to take my regular patients plus the backlog of patients, take care of the house, my daughter and complete Sterling Management assignments. I was kept in a continual state of exhaustion.

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My wife and I continued to call back and forth but the phone calls were cold and impersonal. I felt she was being directed and monitored in what she said. Later, when she returned home to Ohio I found notes that were given to her to inform her what to say on the phone when she conversed with me. During this time period my wife was constantly calling requesting that more money be spent on Scientology courses and materials. In the orchestrated phone calls I would be told that my wife had already made out counter checks and that I would have to cover the debts. Additionally, I was being instructed to cash in IRA accounts and mortgage the house to feed a growing Scientology habit. My wife was being sold "special property" books by L. Ron Hubbard as investments which would finance our childrens' college education. Every asset my family had was being systematically targeted and attacked. I was being told to take out one loan to cover another and to take out home equity loans on our house. Even though my wife had not yet completed the auditing in the clear package, she was purchasing auditing at a higher level from the Flag Service organization of the Church of Scientology in Clearwater, Florida.

While my wife was in San Francisco alone, my office staff and myself were required to attend a Sterling Management Systems seminar in Chicago. While attending the course, Mr. Bradham arrived with a Scientologist auditor. They pulled me out of the course and away from my staff and took me to a hotel room where they audited me on the E-Meter. The auditing was done because they were concerned about my "money button" due to my resistance to the inordinate financial demands Scientology was making on my family.

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Shortly after this period of time the San Francisco mission had a 'field auditor" by the name of Louis Mancini living with me. In order to "save me money" he was to give me the Purification Rundown. This essentially consisted of sitting in a sauna for three or four hours a night at a local racquet club I belonged to and taking massive amounts of vitamins. Mr. Mancini began controlling my house, screening my calls, and was in constant communication with the San Francisco organization. When my wife had been in San Francisco for approximately three weeks and was not coming home for our anniversary or for the childrens' start of school, I began to become extremely concerned as my wife had always put the childrens' welfare first. At this time I was going to and from work with tears in my eyes and having to excuse myself from patients to go into another room and pull myself together. I determined that it was now time to go to San Francisco and get my wife, but I then received a phone call that she was on the verge of finishing and was going to come home promptly.

A little later I was told that my wife had reached the state of clear and was now going on for further auditing at the Flag Service Organization in Clearwater, Florida. She purchased airline tickets on a credit card I didn't even realize existed and went to Florida where the Church of Scientology booked her for in excess of $1000 worth of room fees. On the first night she was at the Flag Service Organization in Clearwater a phone call came in. I picked up on one extension while Mr. Mancini picked up on the other. He did not realize that I had picked up the phone or heard the conversation. A woman at the Flag Service Organization

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stated my wife was not in fact clear but was "whacko." I immediately ran downstairs and confronted Mr. Mancini who took out the red volumes of the religious doctrine of the Church of Scientology and assured me that this was either a PTS 1 or a PTS 2 problem and that he was there to handle the situation. Arrangements were made for my wife to come home. Mr. Mancini went to the airport the next day to meet her but I received a phone call from my wife that she had gotten off the plane when it had landed in Atlanta and she was not sure where she was or where she was to go. She didn't know if she was flying to San Francisco or Ohio. She was in such a distraught state that she needed someone to direct her in order to get her home. I helped her out with what to do and she eventually arrived home.

It became obvious when my wife arrived home that she was not in fact "okay". The San Francisco organization sent a lady chaplain by the name of Debbie Scanlon to live with us along with Mr. Mancini. I now had two Scientology staff members living in the house. They purported to know exactly what to do to cure my wife and they were doing a "destimulization" by taking my wife for long walks and depriving her of stimulus such as reading and watching TV. This "therapy" seemed to make no sense but at the time I seemed powerless to resist Scientology as I had now been completely convinced that psychiatry was bad and that if I went to my family doctor, he would refer her to a psychiatrist who would subject my wife to electroshock and she would never be the same. During this period my wife was not sleeping, she was on a crazy diet and was disassociating.

This situation went on for approximately two weeks when

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everyone finally became convinced that things were getting worse. After inquiries at the Flag Service Organization, it was determined that either I was a suppressive person toward my wife or there was simply too much stimulus in town and this was the potential trouble source. They convinced me that they needed to take my wife back to San Francisco. They required me to buy the airline tickets and they even wanted money to rent a house.

It was arranged that Sarah Tickner would be my contact person at the Church of Scientology mission. She was to call me on a daily basis but in fact only called me once or twice. William Bradham's wife, Caroline Bradham, became my next contact person and arranged for my wife to be kept at what was described as "mountain retreat". This turned out to be a rundown cabin somewhere near Redford, California in the Mount Shasta area. For

approximately two weeks my wife was virtually completely incognito at places unknown to me with three men constantly watching over her. I received constant assurances as to her condition but no solid information as to where she was or how I could contact her.

At the end of two weeks, my wife finally was allowed to call me. After the phone call I was in our bedroom. Around me were approximately 30 large boxes of books that my wife had purchased that had been sent to our house. They were sitting there unopened and I opened the boxes and began reading the material. The boxes contained many advanced courses in Scientology and only after I began reading these courses did I realize that there was much I did not know about Scientology and I did not believe in, such as their belief in past lives, and I began to come to my

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senses and realize what my wife and had been going through.

During this time period the Scientologists had sent two other Scientologists to town who were living in a hotel and kept insisting that I come to the hotel to be audited over my 'money button". These Scientologists had been sent from California and one was a representative of the Office of Special Affairs of the Church of Scientology while the other was a Class V auditor.

They kept attempting to get me to come into the hotel and be audited on the E-meter with reference to my "money button". I had been constantly in contact with the Church of Scientology to go over the receipts and determine what was owed and obtain an accounting, as I knew we owed a large amount of money. Instead, they wanted to audit me regarding my "money button". They tried to suggest to me that my wife's problems were due to "withholds" and my wife was possibly having affairs. This was the final straw for me as I knew my wife well and I knew this was an absolute falsehood.

I contacted our family doctor and talked to him about the problems my wife was experiencing. He gave a probable diagnosis of an acute psychotic episode caused by trauma and stated that the potential treatment would be a simple hospitalization where my wife would be given some drugs in order to allow her to rest and when she had enough sleep, she could begin to sort things out. I was surprised when my family doctor told me there was a help group already waiting for me if we asked for help. This help group consisted of my friends and the staff at my dental practice, my attorney and family doctor who were aware of and concerned about my family's situation.

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I met with my attorney who then had me call the Scientology office of Special Affairs representative and auditor into my attorney's offices. My attorney told the Scientology representatives that they were to immediately inform us where my wife was being held captive and fly my wife home with an escort for the trip and refund to my family all the money for unused expenses. He informed the Scientology representatives that if they did not meet these demands he would be contacting the media and making sure that our family's story got a considerable amount of coverage.

My wife was back in Ohio within 48 hours and when I met her at the airport I received checks in the amount of $113,000.00. In order to obtain these checks, I had to sign a release. I was still out of pocket somewhere between $50,000 to $100,000 for Scientology services, airline fares, living expenses, etc. In all, I estimate that between May and October of 1988 my wife and I spent somewhere in the area of approximately $180,000 for Sientology services. This was money we could obviously not afford to spend and without extreme undue influence there is absolutely no way we would have ever spent such sums. I have read a considerable amount about mind control and now realize that my wife and I were under mind control.

It has now been approximately five years from this experience. The first year was the worst for my wife and myself, but every year has gotten better. During the first year there were constant flashbacks to the experiences my wife and I suffered at the hands of the Church of Scientology.

There is absolutely no question in my mind that the Church

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of Scientology constitutes a destructive cult. I have personal knowledge and experience with them. Sterling Management Systems of Glendale, California is a branch of Scientology that is disguised as a secular management company and used to recruit new members into Scientology.

I declare, under penalty of perjury, that the foregoing is true and correct. Executed this 5th day of September, 1993 at Medina, Ohio. [signed]

ROBERT GEARY, D.D.S.

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© Mike Gormez (mgormez@chello.nl)

[Snow White]

I, Zoe Woodcraft declare as follows:

1. I am 16 years of age.

2. The statements herein are of my own personal knowledge and if called upon as a witness, I can testify competently thereto.

3. In 1986, when I was two years old, my parents and 15-year-old brother joined the Sea Organization at the Flag Land Base in Clearwater, Florida. My seven-year-old sister and myself were put into the care of the Cadet Organization at this time. My family and I lived at a building on U.S. Highway 19 called the "QI" which was an acronym for Quality Inn. This building was once a Quality Inn hotel. The cadet organization was located there.

4. The room we were assigned to live in was very small, approximately 12'X 20'. It was one room and one bath; very shabby, infested with cockroaches and smelling of mold. All five of us were in this room so it was very cramped and nearly unlivable.

5. My parents were shocked when we were first shown these living quarters. When they had been recruited to come into the Sea Organization to work for Flag they had been promised a new, two bedroom apartment in the Hacienda Garden complex; that we children would go to private school and that they would get one day off every two weeks. We soon found out none of this was true.

6. After about a year we returned to England to take care of our visas. I remember being in England and playing with a cousin and not wanting to return to Florida and our horrible living conditions.

7. I also remember my father being suddenly sent away and I had no idea when he might return. This frightened me, as I feared I would never see him again. I was told he had been sent to the ship but no one could tell me when he would return. He did return after 6 months.

8. We lived in Florida for about two years and then my mother was transferred to Los Angeles.

9. In Los Angeles I was placed in the "CEO" which stood for the "cadet estates organization." This was a building located next to Celebrity Center International. This is where I lived, by myself, for the next two years. My parents and brother were placed in adult living quarters and my older sister into the Cadet Org down the street. This building housed only younger children. We did not live with our parents, but were assigned to the care of "nannies."

10. Eventually my father had to take a leave of absence from the Sea Org to further take care of visa problems. He rented an apartment at this point and our family moved in. He then began working for a company owned by a Scientologist. He was supposed to work in this company for one year in order for our family members to obtain green cards. Technically, I lived in this apartment with my parents, however because both of my parents worked such long hours I would be taken to the CEO in the early morning and then picked up by my parents late in the evening. This was my basic schedule until I was six years old.

11. When I was six I was moved to what is called the "Int Ranch." This is a compound in Happy Valley, CA. We were told that this was a secret location and I was instructed not to tell my father where it was as he and my mother were now divorced and my father was no longer in the Sea Org.

12. I was placed in a dorm that was acceptable; i.e. nice carpet, neat etc. However, neither of my parents lived on premises and there was a sixteen year-old boy named Sterling Thompson who was in charge of about twenty of us younger children, known as "pre-cadets." All together there was a staff of about six or eight adults who ran the compound and about one hundred children living there.

13. My schedule at the ranch was: wake up at 7:00 a.m., take one half hour to get dressed for the day then go to breakfast. Meals were highly regulated. We were assigned seats and each table had a "table captain" who made sure the assigned steward brought our food from the kitchen to the table. It was placed on the table and we served ourselves. Afterward we cleaned our own tables. We had half an hour to eat.

14. After breakfast we worked, dumping trash, mopping floors, sweeping etc. We were assigned cleaning stations throughout the compound. All our work was supervised by Sterling. We worked for about 20 minutes.

15. We then went to school for four hours with one fifteen minute break. Often, the school schedule was changed. Sometimes we did four hours in the morning and two at night, after working in the afternoon, and sometimes we did six hours straight.

16. Most of what I studied was Scientology materials. I remember doing the Basic Study Manual when I was six or seven years old and it was very difficult for me. This is a course geared for adults. When I did not score well on the final test, the instructor first told me to redo sections of the course and then told me to redo the entire course. I then had to start all over on this course. The only other subjects studied were reading and math.

17. After school, we had half an hour for lunch, and then we lined up and did group drills. We did "left/right/left marching, chanting of Scientology doctrines, and relay races to increase our "particle flow" so we could work faster. Then we received our work assignments for the afternoon.

18. The work consisted of such things as collecting rocks from a stream, putting them in a wheelbarrow and taking them to where a stone wall was being built; raking the football field after it had been mowed; and weeding. Most of the time we pulled weeds as the appearance of the compound was very important. We were often told how lucky we were to be allowed to live here. We worked all afternoon from lunch to dinner.

19. Before dinner, we showered. After dinner, we went to study for two more hours.

20. One thing that occurred some months after I had been there was that one afternoon we were all gathered up and directed to go to a house that was for what we called the "big boys." This was the house that Justin Miscavige lived in with several other boys. It was a very nice place, much better than the dorms. They had art paintings on the wall, whereas in our dorms we were only allowed pictures of L. Ron Hubbard or the Apollo ship. They also had different colors on the walls and the bedding, whereas the dorms were in nautical colors: navy and gold. There was no house for the big girls. Older girls just lived in the dorms with us younger children.

21. The day we were taken to the big boys house we were told to stay inside. I was told by the adult watching us that what was happening was we had too many kids at the ranch and a health inspector had come to check on us. So, we were hiding until he was gone.

22. In describing my bedroom, I again state all bedrooms were done in dark colors. Bedspreads were navy with a gold Sea Org symbol imprinted on them. The curtains were navy; the carpet was blue. We had brown dressers upon which we were not allowed to place personal items or family photos. We were not allowed to hang any personal photos or pictures; only the LRH or Apollo pictures.

23. One of the courses I had to do soon after arriving was the "make the bed" course. I had to learn how to fold the sheet corners so the bed was perfectly tucked and no wrinkles on anything. The final drill was making a perfect bed in less than five minutes.

24. At the ranch we dressed in uniforms. These consisted of khaki shorts with a red t-shirt or polo shirt with the Sea Org emblem embroidered on it. We also had sweat pants and dress pants and a vest. We could not wear our own clothes ever while on the ranch with the exception of pajamas.

25. As far as free or play time, there was none. Every aspect of our time was scheduled and controlled. Sometimes in the summer we were given twenty-five minutes to swim but that is all.

26. At the ranch there is also a form of punishment called "pigs berthing." This is levied against those who had a dirty dorm or dorm area. The punishment varies in different cadet orgs, but in this one offenders had to spend the night in what was called "The big house." The big house was an abandoned building with rotting floorboards and broken windows filled with insects, rats and bats. I clearly recall two girls about nine years old who were forced to spend the night there and in the middle on the night they ran screaming and crying from the building. One of the girls afterward told me that they had been terrified by the bats and couldn't stand it anymore.

27. This ranch was hours away from normal civilization. In the year plus that I lived there we never went into town for a field trip; never went to a movie, shopping or anything. We were totally isolated. The only time I ever left was when I was allowed once to take a leave of absence to visit my father at Christmas.

28. At the age of seven I was also made an MAA. This is a person who watches out to make sure no one is slacking in his or her work and to write reports when other children are misbehaving. For example one incident I had to write up on myself was when I had snuck into a snack shack and taken a bite of someone's candy bar. Another boy was made to stand up in front of the group and list off things he had stolen, such as a pen from a teacher. He listed about thirty such incidents of having taken or borrowed things without asking. This was extremely humiliating for him - he was about ten years old - and the next day he was kicked off the ranch.

29. Every Friday night my mother came at about 2:00 in the morning to pick me up in a car. We would return to her housing about half hour away and I would visit her until 12:00 noon the next day. This was the extent of my time with her. On alternate weeks, when I was to visit my father, my mother arranged for a friend of hers to pick me up and take me to my father's house as my father was forbidden to come to the ranch. I would stay there with my dad over night until 10:30 a.m. then I would have to return to the ranch. I often asked to stay longer, but I was always refused permission. This often upset my father and me. I felt like I had spent a lot of my life saying goodbye to my father.

30. The last few weeks I was at the ranch, I learned my mother had been sent to New York on a mission. After she was gone about three weeks, I was sent to be with her.

31. I was now in Manhattan. Here, I lived in a room with my mother. There was a bunk bed and I slept on top and she on the bottom. This room was relatively clean and nice as my mother was an "Int Missionaire" which meant she was highly ranked and the other staff members were frightened of her authority.

32. My schedule here was to hang out all day with six or seven other kids also in the building. I did no schooling during the entire time I was in New York, which turned out to be eleven months. My mother once asked me if I wanted to go to public school, but I thought public school was horrible and "the enemy" as this is what I had been taught all my life. I told her I didn't want to go and she said ok. While in New York, I turned eight.

33. At one point my mom put me in the Scientology course room to study training routines, but I didn't like it and upset the supervisor and eventually stopped. I did get to go out each day to either a comic store or to get a slice of pizza. Other than that I had no outside contact with non-scientologists. Also, there was a guy named Eugene who's job it was to watch the kids and he did take us to Central Park and to the empire state building.

34. Each Thursday night, my mother had to do the financial planning for the scientology organization and she would not come to our room in the evening. I would go to bed, but early in the morning hours I would get scared and wander around the building looking for her. I usually found her typing away in an office and I would stay with her until she came to bed.

35. Right before my ninth birthday, we returned to Los Angeles. I could not return to the ranch, as they had no more room for me. So now I went to the Apollo Training Academy.

36. The Apollo Training Academy is a training organization for scientology cadets i.e. children age seven and up. While a member of this organization I lived in the Anthony Building [AB] located on Fountain Street. The AB was a four-story heap: the pool was covered over with plywood and we were instructed not to walk on it, as it was flimsy and unsafe. Children played on it anyway as we were often unsupervised. The carpets were old and smelly and there were a lot of cockroaches. We slept in metal bunk beads with chipping paint. There was no proper bedding; not one of us had a complete sheet set, blanket and pillow. I slept without a pillow for many months.

37. All of the furniture was very old and decrepit. For light, we had bare bulbs hanging from the ceiling. The kitchens had also been ripped out to make more room for people so there were exposed pipes everywhere. These were the worst conditions I lived in during my tenure as a child of scientology.

38. This building was in an unsafe area of Los Angeles and I often heard gunshots at night. It was a very frightening place for me to live. The adult woman who was supposed to be our nanny - there were about eleven girls in my dorm - was missing most of the time. She didn't even sleep there and I remember never knowing where she was. At this time, my mother was again on a mission, this time in Mexico, so I did not see her at all. My dad, however, did begin picking me up again every two or three nights so I could stay with him.

39. The fact that I had contact with my father, who was not living within the confines of scientology, made me happy. This was a place I could go and have nice surroundings and eat whatever I wanted and he would give me spending money, as otherwise I had no money at all. I also had better clothing than the other children, who were wearing very poor clothing as their parents could not afford nice clothes and there were no uniforms here.

40. Meals at the AB were served three times a day. I don't remember what sort of food it was just that it was bad.

41. The bathrooms in the AB were also not fully functional and we often had no warm water, the tiles in the shower were moldy and we had no soap or towels.

42. In addition, the elevators in this four-story building never worked so we always had to use the steps.

43. My schooling during this year took place at the ATA building that was a five-minute bus ride away in a scientology complex. I again studied scientology principles and policies, math, reading and spelling. There were about two hundred kids in this school and we were just packed together. Kids even studied in the cafeteria where they would have to clean up their studies so we could eat. We also had no real schedule at this school. Every Monday was beach day and I did no studies on that day. We would often go to a park and spend the whole day there, also. They would also take us to a fifty-cent swimming pool, however a lot of the kids did not have the money to swim so we just sat around all day. If we asked the teacher for money, she said no and told us it was too bad for us we had no money.

44. Another activity we were assigned at the AB was what we called "chicken picking" the carpet. Since we had no vacuum cleaner, we children were instructed to get down on our hands and knees and pick dirt out of the carpet. This dirt included paint chips and we were expected to leave our section in perfect condition. This was very hard to do, especially in the small space between the carpet and the wall. There would be all sorts of small trash in there including paint and staples that hurt my fingers.

45. I lived in the Anthony Building for about two years in 1992 to early 1993 when I received a call from my mother, who I had rarely seen during this time. She asked me how would I like to come visit her in Florida for about three months. I didn't even really know where she was. I said yes, I would like to go. I didn't think I was moving permanently to Florida, because I didn't want to leave my dad. I just wanted to see my mom as I hadn't seen her in a long time.

46. So, I was flown out to Clearwater, Florida where my mom met me at the airport. She took me to her room at the Hacienda Gardens where I spent the night on her bedroom floor, which she shared with another staff member.

47. The next night, after I had been taken to a nice meal at a steak house, my mom took me to the Quality Inn (QI). She led me to a dorm room and exclaimed, "This is your room! It's nice!" and then she prepared to leave. At this point I begged her not to go and leave me. I cried and did not want to stay alone. It was one of the worst nights of my life. I was afraid at this point that I was going to be staying here permanently.

48. Later as I lay in bed, very upset and missing my father and sister in Los Angeles, I became sick and threw up my steak dinner. The next day I started on the schedule of the cadet organization.

49. Now, I had to work every day. I worked in my mom's office (Hubbard Communications Office) every afternoon filing and sorting letters. It was a similar schedule to the Int ranch schedule except instead of working outside in the afternoon I worked in an office.

50. It was at this point also that I signed a Sea Org contract. Actually, I had signed such a contract at some point earlier; this was the second one I had signed. This contract says I will work for the scientology organization for this entire life and the next one billion years. I also was told to read a policy that stated that if anyone is in scientology and does not want to be there they can just tell the captain and they will be allowed to leave. Of course, I didn't want to stay but I didn't want to upset my mother. Also, I was nine years old.

51. Schooling during this period was a bit broader than my previous experience. We studied some geography and some cultural information. We also had more diverse reading. Always, about forty percent of my schooling was scientology study. When I first got there, I only did four hours of school per day, in the morning, then worked in the afternoon, then just hung out at the QI and played at night. No one supervised our play in our rooms. After some time I started studying in the evenings also. This was called night school and it was purely scientology study.

52. Though I did see my mother in her office every day I did not spend any time with her. She was very busy and if I wandered into her room she would tell me to get back to work. The only time we spent together was Saturday mornings when I visited her at the Hacienda. This was also the only time she had to clean her room, so it was not real quality time. Occasionally, I went to her apartment the Friday night before and stayed the night. This was special to me.

53. Contact with my father during this time was very difficult. I did not know how to initiate contact and my mother was not happy with me when I sought her help. I found out later that he would call and call and finally fax angry messages demanding to speak to me. I did eventually receive these messages and permission to call him, but the deputy cadet commander always sat in the room with me when we spoke. From the time of my arrival at Flag, it was three months before my first contact with my dad, and about four months between calls thereafter.

54. After some time at the base, I was given permission to visit him twice a year. I originally visited him once in the summer and once at Christmas, however my mother and the cadet org frowned upon this as I was staying away longer than the time allowed for "leave of absence." We were only allowed three weeks leave per year and I would often extend my visits with dad because I didn't want to go back. I told my dad I didn't want to go back, but he was still a scientologist at that time and told me I had to.

55. I always got very depressed when it was time to return. I would cry through the whole flight and often upset the stewards on the plane. However, I composed myself as the flight neared Florida because I didn't want my mother to see that I was upset. She always became angry if I showed I did not like living at Flag. I also knew my mom did not like my father. She said he was "Ex-Sea Org and therefore a DB [degraded being]." There is church policy that states this as a fact that sea org members believe wholeheartedly.

56. I stayed in the cadet org for many years. At one point I moved dorms because I had been originally placed in a nice dorm, as my mom was "International management." However, when she got posted to Flag and became regular personnel, I was no longer privileged.

57. The room I was moved to was much worse. The pink carpet had brown stains on it and it had the most cockroaches I had ever had to live with. Only one other girl lived in this room. I didn't know her because I hadn't lived there long and I was shy and this girl was considered to have bad ethics. I stayed in this dorm for some months, and then I moved again. From 1994 to 2000 I lived at the QI in various dorms, some nicer than the others. I moved nine times that I can remember. Only during the final six months of 2000 did I live with my mother. By that time I was 15 years old.

58. All of this moving was very unsettling. Often, once you had become comfortable you would all of a sudden be told you had to move. Usually, this was to accommodate someone of a higher rank moving into the area. When you were told to move you had to quickly gather your belongings and go to wherever they assigned you whether you liked it or not.

59. One of my work assignments was to demolish the walls of a room. This was a strange room that had plywood attached in two layers on all the walls. We were ripping the plywood off the walls. When I asked the cadet coordinator what this room was he told me it was for "ethics particles" who had become upset or hysterical. He would place them (children) in this room and lock them in. Some of them had become so upset that they were kicking holes in the original walls as they were only drywall, so he had layered the walls with plywood so no one could kick through.

60. Life at the QI was overall depressing and dreary. The only place to play was the parking lot. We were always on a boring and strict schedule. I was never allowed to leave the QI premises and we rarely went on outings. I worked every afternoon and the entire day on Sundays. In fact, on Sundays we had "renos" (renovations) day where we worked to fix up the premises of the QI. If we did not have special permission on Saturday afternoons, after our parental visits, we also had to do renos. We were allowed to watch movies every Saturday night in the cadet room and this was our one point of fun, although we never got to select the movies; they were chosen by the governess Italia and at one point she was in love with a move called "White Knight" and we had to watch that movie over and over again for weeks. This was not a children's movie and it was unbelievably boring.

61. After one change of cadet coordinators, our reading and music selections were censored. Our rooms were searched for offensive materials and if something not approved was found it was confiscated. For example an Alanis Morrisett tape was taken away because she was "downtone" and "too much in anger." Archie Magazines were considered "too sexually oriented" and these were forbidden. Seventeen Magazine was also not allowed, nor were any fashion magazines because of the "middle class orientation" and sexual content.

62. Over the years I rose up in post. (By the way, I was considered a "missionaire" from the cadet org during the time I worked in my mom's office.) I once was the animal room I/C (in charge) of the pets. We had snakes and a tarantula and rats and a bunny. I liked this job. I then went to work as an "MAA" (Master At Arms), which deals with ethics. I had many other jobs in the HCO division and eventually became Exec Esto. On this post I carried out programs written by myself and the cadet coordinator to improve the cadet org. When I was the LC (LRH Communicator) one of my jobs was to make sure all the pictures of Ron Hubbard looked nice, so I was always cleaning cockroach feces out of the frames and the cardboard backing. I would also lead people in the chanting of scientology doctrines.

63. As the HAS and Director of Inspections and Reports I had to read the "overt write ups" of the other cadets. This would include the reports written up about masturbation and other sexual activity between the cadets. I also participated in courts of ethics and committees of evidence for children. These are disciplinary actions per church policies.

64. During some of these years I was considered a pre-cadet and at around age 11 I became a cadet. There is some pressure applied to convince children to become cadets.

65. First, it is made clear that at around the age of ten or eleven you should become a cadet and if you do not you are constantly asked why you are not a cadet.

66. Secondly, cadets receive privileges that other children do not. Cadets are paid weekly. When I first became a cadet I was paid sixteen dollars a week, but this was reduced to eight dollars some time later. There were special certificates that one could earn for extra money. These were originally worth $25.00 but were also reduced to be worth only $12.00. I did earn these certificates through good behavior and high production on my job.

67. Thirdly, cadets were given better accommodations. Non-cadets (called simply "children") and cadets had to live separately. If you were a plain "child" at the age of ten and not a "cadet" in cadet quarters you were treated differently and looked down upon.

68. Fourth, cadets were allowed more freedom of movement. They could leave the QI premises by themselves (in pairs- never alone) and if their stats were up they were allowed to go bowling. If they were "Cadet of the week" they received ice cream.

69. The drawback to becoming a cadet was that you were now, per the church policy, on the route to becoming a sea org officer. Per the policy, the definition of a cadet is "one who is training to be an officer."

70. The first time I was asked to become a cadet I said I was not sure I wanted to be in the Sea Org. I was missing my dad and thinking of returning to California. The cadet coordinator was shocked and told me I had to work this out. I told him I might want to go to college. He told me I had to do a condition of doubt. He also notified my mother.

71. I then did the condition of doubt that is designed to keep people in the Scientology organization. During this condition you have to compare the statistics of two groups you are trying to decide between. I was shown church propaganda about how wonderful the Scientology organization was, like Freedom magazine. I was then shown statistics concerning crime and children using Ritalin, as well as news stories about arsons and death. This was to prove to me that the scientology world had better statistics and was more ethical than the "Wog" (non-scientology) world. I was told about how bad psychiatrist were and all the horrible things they do to people in order to compare how scientology is a much better method of mental health. Also, I was so ashamed of being assigned this condition that I simply wanted to get out of it. The condition of doubt is a lower condition and one also loses privileges and is looked down upon when in doubt.

72. I also had a conversation with my mom about my doubt. She was angry about my not wanting to be in the Sea Org. She asked me if my father had been influencing me against scientology. She even called my sister in Los Angeles and told her to relay the message to my father to not say anything to me against scientology. She asked me where I got the idea that I might want to go to college. She thought this was completely insane.

73. At this point, I decided to stay in the Cadet org. I was eleven years old.


74. When I was twelve or thirteen I was recruited into the Cadet TTC (Technical Training Corps.) We were in training to become supervisors and word-clearers for the cadet org. I now studied the works of L. Ron Hubbard eleven hours a day, six days a week. On Sundays, I did ten hours of regular schooling. I was studying adult courses like the Student Hat course and the Hubbard Qualified Scientologist course. These are the same courses offered to adults in the orgs and missions around the world. I did this for almost a year.

75. During this time I had no free days other than Sea Org day and Christmas day and one two week trip which was very fun. We drove on a bus and went camping and visited Washington D.C. and Pennsylvania. This was an extraordinarily special trip and only a few cadets were allowed to go. In ten years there had only been four such trips all of which were arranged by Rusty Hilton and his wife.

76. I was studying the Student Hat course for seven months. It was very difficult and I hated it. Soon, I was being asked to leave the cadet org and go into the Sea Org proper. This looked attractive to me, as I hated the TTC and the Student Hat course. I decided to join the Sea Org (SO) and was routed onto what is called the "EPF" or Estates Project Force, which is the first step in training for the SO. I was fourteen years old.

77. Now, I begin the EPF. Again I am moved to a new dorm, which was quite crowded and located at the Hacienda Gardens. I studied at the staff training building near the Super Power building.

78. The general schedule was to wake at 7:30 or 8:00 to be at muster {meeting} by 9:00. We then had twenty-five minutes or less to eat breakfast. Then we had to race to quickly clean up after meal. From there I went to work doing cleaning or heavy-duty physical work. This included mopping floors, polishing and dusting banisters, vacuuming, carrying camera equipment for Gold studios, putting up plywood in the Hacienda Gardens where they were renovating, laying carpeting and shoveling gravel, intended for the Sandcastle roof, into the bed of a dump truck.

79. Specifically, for many days I worked all day in the heat of a Florida summer shoveling gravel into the bed of a truck. The truck was very tall and I had to reach and strain to toss the gravel from the heavy shovel. I became dizzy and faint while doing this work. Sometimes we were given water but not often and we were not allowed to take many breaks, as there was so much work to be done.

80. Another time we were re-carpeting the Clearwater bank building. There were a lot of teenagers working on this project. There was one hired carpet layer and a bunch of EPFers. We were tearing out carpet, putting down glue, ripping out sideboards and using a "knee pusher" to flatten out the carpet. I worked at this for a week, sleeping during the day and working during the night, all through the night. The staff was eating in this building during the day.

81. While I was doing the above a older Russian man (about 60) named Sasha had a carpet knife and accidentally slashed his arm. He was bleeding terribly and no one was doing anything to stop the bleeding. I grabbed hold of his arm and put pressure on it to stop the bleeding. We walked to a van outside, trailing blood, and drove to the hospital. There was so much blood all over that the nurse had to ask which one of us was bleeding.

82. At the hospital, the doctor was trying to communicate to Sasha but he didn't speak English. I finally told him we were with scientology and he agreed to treat him. He received stitches and I returned to work.

83. Another project we did was remove upholstery tacks from the nautical chairs in the CB and replace them with new ones. Again, we were working all night long and sleeping and studying during daylight hours. We did this for three nights in a row.

84. Mr. Dave Englehart, who was the EPF In charge, was known to have a very bad temper. One man named Vladimir from Russia had smelly feet and Mr. Englehart told him to handle it. One morning at muster he screamed, "What's that fucking smell! I thought you to get that handled!" He then pushed another EPF person (dorm captain) so the whole line of people was knocked about. He then went to Vladimir, who spoke and understood no English, and yanked up his foot and knocked Vladimir to the ground. He tore the shoe from his foot and threw it, yelling at Vladimir that he should have soaked his feet in bleach water. Vladimir was very upset and shaken by this as were we all.


85. There was another young man named Josh Greenwood who was younger than me. There was a bad storm and we all went to the Sandcastle to place sandbags. Mr. Englehart told us this was very important to protect the Sandcastle and if any of us fell in the ocean to swim to the side and for no one else to jump in to help. Josh snickered at the intensity of Mr. Englehart's speech and Mr. Englehart responded by shoving the boy and dangling him over the edge of a high stoop - about five feet high - and pretending he would drop him to the pavement below. The boy was very shaken and cowed. 86. On the EPF we had to be with our group at all times. Once I walked to the store by myself and the EPF captain ran after me and asked me where I was going as I knew I wasn't allowed to go by myself. Also, all phone calls to anyone outside of scientology were regulated. In fact I was told that frequent contact with outside family members was forbidden; once a week was too frequent. Often, he would allow no phone calls at all, always complaining about the outer contact.

87. I was on the EPF for nine months. This is an extremely long time to be on the EPF. Most people do it in weeks. I had to go back for word clearing on what I had studied on the TTC. All of this study correction and discipline for going slow and being told I wasn't smart really shook my confidence and made me think I was a dull person. Eventually, I just went back to the cadet org. This was in mid-1999.

88. Here I worked again, reposted to a new job. Of course, I was back in a new dorm, but now I could also visit my mom on Saturday mornings. On the EPF, I couldn't see her at all because those on the EPF are not allowed the Saturday morning time off.

89. It is hard for me to remember what happened next. At some point they were working to get me to return to the EPF. I kept saying no, no, no. I finally told them I was not at all sure I wanted to dedicate my entire life to the Sea Org. The moment I became honest and told them this, I was again placed in a condition of doubt.

90. In addition, I was placed on a program to "handle" my feelings aboutnot wanting to be a Sea Org member. While doing this program, my father and sister (who was by now out of the sea org herself and living a normal life with my father in Los Angeles) invited me on a vacation to Hawaii. I really wanted to go with them and I sought permission. At first, permission was denied, but I argued and argued until I was allowed to go.

91. During this trip, my dad would mildly criticize the sea org and scientology. I always immediately defended both organizations, just as I had always been taught. When we returned to LA from Hawaii, my dad really came down hard on me about the sea org. Eventually, he broke through. I admitted I really didn't want to be in the Sea Org and I did want to try going to school like a regular kid. He told me I could stay with him right then, but I felt so guilty and loyal to the church I insisted I go back and route out properly.

92. I then returned to Clearwater and upon my return my roommate Nicole Graham warned me that they were again going to try to get me to re-start the EPF, as there was some post that needed filled immediately. She was also trying to route out and that is the only reason a sea org member would tell me something like this. I was then able to mentally prepare myself for what was to come.

93. Three days after I returned, my mom came to visit the QI. This was her fist visit to the QI in years. I immediately knew what she was up to. Acting very motherly and using her affection, she and the cadet coordinator, Jim Sydjeko, asked me to take a walk. As soon as we were outside the office, they stopped and my mom started in.

94. She told me I had been working on my program and she wanted to know what I had decided. She said there was some post I was needed for and I should return to the EPF. Well, I answered her honestly, telling her I wanted to go to college and become an interior decorator. When she heard this, my mother was absolutely floored. She became visibly irritated and her "motherliness" no longer came through so well.

95. Of course, for the next hour and a half she tried to talk me intostaying and rejoining the EPF. She asked me how I was going to help the planet by going top college and a lot of other stuff I just didn't know at the age of 15. However, I had seen my mother do her work on many other people. Often, she had held me up as a shining example of a cadet, even though I was a thoroughly miserable child. I knew what was going to come out of her mouth before she said it. Thus, I was able to maintain my position. I wanted to leave.

96. Now, I was given what is called a "routing out" program. These were steps I had to take to leave the Sea Org. Most of the steps had to be worked with other people and I soon found that, as a matter of course, there was no one able to help me. After weeks of no help and no progress, I grew angry. Additionally, steps were continually being added to my program. Eventually, my mother said I should word clear the entire Student Hat, which is a huge course, and this was added to the program.

97. I became very upset when they added the Student Hat. I had been word clearing for years and all it made me do was think there was something wrong with me. When I became upset they blamed me, saying I was only angry because I still had mis-understood words. At this point, also, I was supposed to still be attending regular school, but now 90% of my studies were Scientology doctrines and policies.

98. During this time I was trying to stay in touch with Astra (my sister) and my dad. I called them every week or two. This was seriously frowned upon and the staff and my mother often scolded me for it. I was made to feel guilty and told I was doing something wrong (i.e. it was an overt to stay in contact with these "outside influences.")

99. After a couple of months, I was so filled with anger that I began arguing frequently with Jim Sydjeko, the cadet coordinator, begging for a word clearer and the other help I needed to do my program. He just yelled at me and said I was out-ethics and selfish, that they had more important things to do than work with me. When you are routing out you are no longer important and no one will help you or treat you well.

100. Sometimes, he would yell at me and advance towards me, backing me against the wall and yelling at me so hard that spit flew from his mouth into my face. I would start sobbing when he did this, and he did it several times.

101. My mother also did not like Jim and was blaming him because he had not "handled" me as a cadet to stay in the Sea Org. In the afternoons, I would see my mom when I went in to Flag to work (I still had to work every day.) She would tell me she could get me word clearing at the FH, but this happened only three or four times. At this rate, I knew it was going to take years for me to route out and I started getting feelings of dread and hopelessness.

102. After three months of trying to route out, I sort of gave up and just started working for my mom full time, not going to school at all. I returned to the QI to sleep at night. One day some cadets arrived at mom's office while I was working, carrying many of my belongings in a cardboard box and my laundry basket. I asked what was going on and they said they didn't know, Jim had just told them to bring me my stuff. Now, I really flipped out because the one place I had always lived was the QI and now I had been removed from there. I had no idea where I was supposed to go.

103. When I met my mom on break I told her what had happened. She said, oh, I thought you wanted to come live with me. This had never been discussed before and it was really upsetting to me. I did not want to live with her because I knew she was very controlling and trying to get me to stay in the Sea Org and this would only aid her. Nonetheless, I moved in with her, as I had no place else to go.

104. In my mom's small bedroom at the Hacienda Gardens, which she shared with an 80-year-old lady, I slept on the floor squeezed between a table and my mom's bed with no mattress, just a pillow and a blanket.

105. Now, I worked all day from 9:00 a.m. to 11:00 p.m. At this time, I started sneaking to the Clearwater library in the mornings just to read, as I had been forbidden to read so much for so long. I started reading magazines, newspapers, and books -- whatever I could. My mom was angry with this and told me not to do this but I continued.

106. My mom now got me back into school again at the cadet org but only on Sunday for 10 hours a day. However, all I studied was Scientology and I quit after three weeks. My schedule then became work all day seven days a week, no schooling except for my visits to the library, sleeping on my mom's floor, eating my meals in the Clearwater Building. I was no longer even working on my routing out program. I was very depressed; it was one of the worst periods of my life, because people no longer like me because I wanted to leave, I was not in uniform anymore, my friends talked to me only to convince me to stay, and all the people who had known me through the years shunned me.

107. As Christmas time approached, I started pushing again to finish my leaving staff program so I could be with my dad at Christmas. My mom would not agree or help me so I went to the Chaplain. The Chaplain talked to mom, who convinced him not to help me as I am just out-ethics. So, I spent Christmas with my mother.

108. This Christmas, my mother and my grandmother (also in the Sea Org) bought me lesser gifts and gave them seemingly begrudgingly and my mom only took the morning off to be with me.

109. Soon after Christmas, I began calling my father and sister more frequently; several times a week. I called from public phones, often from the Library, either collect or using my dad's calling card number so my mother wouldn't know. I really started complaining about not going to school and not being allowed to leave. I was becoming more and more angry.

110. In late January during one of these calls, my sister said to me, "How about you just leave? We'll come get you or buy you a ticket." At this point I was sick of feeling ashamed of myself for wanting to leave and certain they would never let me finish my leaving program. Also, I had recently been subject to re-recruitment efforts to re-start the EPF and this frightened me. Some time before, the Commanding Officer of the Commodores Messenger Organization (CMO, a specialized organization comprised mostly of young girls) had become very angry with me when I had refused to rejoin. She had ordered me to go start the EPF at once. I ran crying to my mom for help but she said she could not help and started asking, "Why don't you go on the EPF again?" I had then just gone home and refused to go to work at all for the next week.

111. So this time when Astra said just leave, I felt sudden relief. This is what I wanted to do. So we started planning. We decided I would leave at the end of February 2000. I was afraid to call a cab; I had rarely even rode in a car, so my dad agreed to fly out and rent a car and pick me up near Flag.

112. I started to sneakily pack my stuff in a cardboard box and two backpacks. The night before I was leaving I kissed my grandmother good night, feeling very sad because I wondered if I would ever see her again. Then I went to bed. The next morning was my escape day.

113. I woke up late! Nervously, I grabbed my stuff and for one of the first times in my life caught a ride with a staff member who drove a vehicle (he had a vehicle because he worked for renovations and needed it. Most staff are not allowed cars.) My cardboard box was stashed in a hidden closet in the Coachman building. I had been bringing my stuff in my backpacks every day and secretly filling the box. I was so nervous every time I spoke to anyone, thinking they would know I was going to blow.

114. When I got to work, I made up an excuse to see my mother, who was on study. Normally, it is not permitted to interrupt staff study. I gave her a kiss and said I would see her later. She was a bit annoyed by my visit. I felt so bad because I was leaving her, but on the other hand I didn't want her to know and stop me. She was like my mother and the enemy.

115. Now, I took my two tightly packed backpacks and headed for the Clearwater Library. A sea org member saw me walking and approached me. I freaked out inside, but he just made small talk and I smiled and answered, then walked on. When I got to the library, I saw my dad sitting there in a car. Now, I knew I was really leaving. I was so excited and emotional I wanted to cry but knew we really had to rush to catch our flight out.

116. I talked with him briefly then told him I had to get my cardboard box. My dad waited in the parking lot and I ran back to the coachman building to get the box from the closet. I grabbed the box, but it started falling apart and I couldn't let others see my clothes falling out. I left the box in an alley nearby, ran back to my dad and jumped in the car. We then drove over to the coachman to get the box in the alley, ducking as we passed the known surveillance cameras all over the streets of Clearwater.

117. We got to the alley and I dashed out to grab the box. Dad came to assist. My knees were shaking and I was constantly looking around to see if any Sea Org members were noticing. We managed to get the box and all the contents into the car, jump in and head for the airport.

118. I was in emotional turmoil at this time. When we got on the airplane, I began to really question what I was doing and started to cry. I was afraid I was ruining my life. However, I went through with it.

119. When we got to LA, I called Flag and left a message for my mom, telling her I had arrived in LA safely. Then, I went home with my dad. By the time we got to his apartment, there were messages from mom telling me to call her. I didn't call her even though I was an emotional mess, shaking and crying. Soon, she called back and the first thing she said to me was "Well, that wasn't very smart, was it?" Her attitude and mean spiritedness convinced me that I had done the right thing in leaving.

120. Additional incidents, which were not recounted in the above narrative, include the heavy labor children did at the QI. For example I used a jackhammer to break up concrete block and frequently used a circular saw to cut wood for bunk beds. All the children made their own, wood bunk beds.

121. When I used a jackhammer I was happy to do so as normally we were made to break up concrete with a large pick axe.

122. The QI has two floors and there are iron railings running all around. We children were made to sand the rust from them and paint them and try to make them stable with screws and nails. They were often so loose you could not lean on them and they would be tied to the roof with rope to secure them.

123. Children also painted the doors to the rooms and walls, fix holes in drywall, layed tile, cut scrap carpet and fit the pieces together to make a whole and lay on the floor. They would also use acid to wash bathroom floors that were caked with mineral deposits.

124. These are all samples of the labor done by children in keeping the building in satisfactory condition.

125. Regarding medical treatment while I was in the Sea Org, I once fractured my foot when I was about 13. My bone was fractured from my pinky bone to my ankle and I was in terrible pain. I couldn't walk at all and stayed in bed late, but still had to get up and work. The cadet coordinator checked me and told me I just had a sprain. After about a week it was not better so I went to the MLO. I waited all day and no one helped me. They finally helped me toward the end of the day. One of the MLOs took me to a nearby scientology chiropractor.

126. I was told this chiropractor would take cheap x-rays. She took them, saw the fracture and pointed it out to me and advised me to see a doctor. I was never taken to a doctor. To this day, my foot still hurts and aches when I run.

127. While I was on the EPF, I was working a lot with acid. I had no protective gloves and my skin became very dry and chapped and started peeling off. Something also happened to my feet as they became sore and red, then crusty even on top. They would crack and bleed and the bottoms were so sore I could hardly touch them. I had to continue working until I begged to go to the MLO. By this time, I could barely walk or move my fingers.

128. The MLO, who is not even a medically trained person, said it looked like some sort of fungus and would go away. I was given no treatment and sent immediately back to work. I bought my own lotion at the store and was constantly using it to take away the pain.

129. I suffered this condition up to the time I went with my father to Hawaii. When he saw my hands and feet he immediately got me some medicine and applied it frequently. By the time I returned to the Sea Org it had cleared up.

130. I want to state that the church promises you that all your medical cares will be attended to. This is not true. Medical cares are ignored unless they are extreme. You are considered to be doing something wrong if you are sick or injured.

131. Any care that costs money has to go through a long process ofapproval
that can take months. I know my grandmother paid for some of her friends surgery or medical treatment because they could not get the funds approved through the church system and were in dire need of treatment.

132. I also once cut my arm badly, where I could see white flesh, and this received no treatment other than wrapping. I have a very bad scar on my arm from this injury.

133. Another thing that happened was we children were hauled around in old, broken down school buses. These would often break down and on three occasions I and other children were directed to get out of the bus when it broke down and push it to the side of the road while the driver steered.

134. At times, the cadets received no pay at all because the base was not making enough money. One of the things we had to spend our money on was doing our laundry and buying our own hygiene items. This included laundry detergent, shampoo, tampons, soap and toothpaste. We also were responsible for certain items of clothing like underwear, socks, bras and our own hair brushes etc. This was all to come from our $8.00 to $12.00 per week pay.

135. We had to wash our clothes in the coin-operated machines provided at the QI. This would take up to half the pay I received as a cadet.

136. The other part of my pay I often spent on food because I couldn't stand what we were served at the QI. Our meals were leftovers brought from the Clearwater Bank building. One of our dinner meals was bread with cheese melted on top of it. This was served once a week. When I left in 2000 there were no desserts served ever as the base was not making enough money for these treats.

137. We also did marching drills at the QI and on the EPF. We marched together and learned formations like the number eight. We also had to run and do double and triple time and what we called the "dead run" where we had to run all-out as a group keeping in marching formation, up stairs and all over.

138. Another drill we had to do on the EPF was to run up all ten flights of stairs. In fact, no EPFers were allowed to use the elevators in the Fort Harrison hotel. When we did maid work or any work in the FH (like painting on the tenth floor) we had to run up and down the stairs all day long.

139. On the EPF we would get so hungry that we would take food from the trays left over by the "public" staying in the hotel room. When we were working, if we passed these trays in the hall or near the kitchen we would always steal any left over food. This was a regular occurrence while I was there in 1998 and 1999.

I declare under penalty of perjury under the laws of the United States of America and the state of Florida that the foregoing is true and correct.

Executed in Clearwater, Florida this 24th day of January 2001.

Zoe Woodcraft

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I, Zoe Woodcraft declare as follows:

1. I am 16 years of age.

2. The statements herein are of my own personal knowledge and if called upon as a witness, I can testify competently thereto.

3. In 1986, when I was two years old, my parents and 15-year-old brother joined the Sea Organization at the Flag Land Base in Clearwater, Florida. My seven-year-old sister and myself were put into the care of the Cadet Organization at this time. My family and I lived at a building on U.S. Highway 19 called the "QI" which was an acronym for Quality Inn. This building was once a Quality Inn hotel. The cadet organization was located there.

4. The room we were assigned to live in was very small, approximately 12'X 20'. It was one room and one bath; very shabby, infested with cockroaches and smelling of mold. All five of us were in this room so it was very cramped and nearly unlivable.

5. My parents were shocked when we were first shown these living quarters. When they had been recruited to come into the Sea Organization to work for Flag they had been promised a new, two bedroom apartment in the Hacienda Garden complex; that we children would go to private school and that they would get one day off every two weeks. We soon found out none of this was true.

6. After about a year we returned to England to take care of our visas. I remember being in England and playing with a cousin and not wanting to return to Florida and our horrible living conditions.

7. I also remember my father being suddenly sent away and I had no idea when he might return. This frightened me, as I feared I would never see him again. I was told he had been sent to the ship but no one could tell me when he would return. He did return after 6 months.

8. We lived in Florida for about two years and then my mother was transferred to Los Angeles.

9. In Los Angeles I was placed in the "CEO" which stood for the "cadet estates organization." This was a building located next to Celebrity Center International. This is where I lived, by myself, for the next two years. My parents and brother were placed in adult living quarters and my older sister into the Cadet Org down the street. This building housed only younger children. We did not live with our parents, but were assigned to the care of "nannies."

10. Eventually my father had to take a leave of absence from the Sea Org to further take care of visa problems. He rented an apartment at this point and our family moved in. He then began working for a company owned by a Scientologist. He was supposed to work in this company for one year in order for our family members to obtain green cards. Technically, I lived in this apartment with my parents, however because both of my parents worked such long hours I would be taken to the CEO in the early morning and then picked up by my parents late in the evening. This was my basic schedule until I was six years old.

11. When I was six I was moved to what is called the "Int Ranch." This is a compound in Happy Valley, CA. We were told that this was a secret location and I was instructed not to tell my father where it was as he and my mother were now divorced and my father was no longer in the Sea Org.

12. I was placed in a dorm that was acceptable; i.e. nice carpet, neat etc. However, neither of my parents lived on premises and there was a sixteen year-old boy named Sterling Thompson who was in charge of about twenty of us younger children, known as "pre-cadets." All together there was a staff of about six or eight adults who ran the compound and about one hundred children living there.

13. My schedule at the ranch was: wake up at 7:00 a.m., take one half hour to get dressed for the day then go to breakfast. Meals were highly regulated. We were assigned seats and each table had a "table captain" who made sure the assigned steward brought our food from the kitchen to the table. It was placed on the table and we served ourselves. Afterward we cleaned our own tables. We had half an hour to eat.

14. After breakfast we worked, dumping trash, mopping floors, sweeping etc. We were assigned cleaning stations throughout the compound. All our work was supervised by Sterling. We worked for about 20 minutes.

15. We then went to school for four hours with one fifteen minute break. Often, the school schedule was changed. Sometimes we did four hours in the morning and two at night, after working in the afternoon, and sometimes we did six hours straight.

16. Most of what I studied was Scientology materials. I remember doing the Basic Study Manual when I was six or seven years old and it was very difficult for me. This is a course geared for adults. When I did not score well on the final test, the instructor first told me to redo sections of the course and then told me to redo the entire course. I then had to start all over on this course. The only other subjects studied were reading and math.

17. After school, we had half an hour for lunch, and then we lined up and did group drills. We did "left/right/left marching, chanting of Scientology doctrines, and relay races to increase our "particle flow" so we could work faster. Then we received our work assignments for the afternoon.

18. The work consisted of such things as collecting rocks from a stream, putting them in a wheelbarrow and taking them to where a stone wall was being built; raking the football field after it had been mowed; and weeding. Most of the time we pulled weeds as the appearance of the compound was very important. We were often told how lucky we were to be allowed to live here. We worked all afternoon from lunch to dinner.

19. Before dinner, we showered. After dinner, we went to study for two more hours.

20. One thing that occurred some months after I had been there was that one afternoon we were all gathered up and directed to go to a house that was for what we called the "big boys." This was the house that Justin Miscavige lived in with several other boys. It was a very nice place, much better than the dorms. They had art paintings on the wall, whereas in our dorms we were only allowed pictures of L. Ron Hubbard or the Apollo ship. They also had different colors on the walls and the bedding, whereas the dorms were in nautical colors: navy and gold. There was no house for the big girls. Older girls just lived in the dorms with us younger children.

21. The day we were taken to the big boys house we were told to stay inside. I was told by the adult watching us that what was happening was we had too many kids at the ranch and a health inspector had come to check on us. So, we were hiding until he was gone.

22. In describing my bedroom, I again state all bedrooms were done in dark colors. Bedspreads were navy with a gold Sea Org symbol imprinted on them. The curtains were navy; the carpet was blue. We had brown dressers upon which we were not allowed to place personal items or family photos. We were not allowed to hang any personal photos or pictures; only the LRH or Apollo pictures.

23. One of the courses I had to do soon after arriving was the "make the bed" course. I had to learn how to fold the sheet corners so the bed was perfectly tucked and no wrinkles on anything. The final drill was making a perfect bed in less than five minutes.

24. At the ranch we dressed in uniforms. These consisted of khaki shorts with a red t-shirt or polo shirt with the Sea Org emblem embroidered on it. We also had sweat pants and dress pants and a vest. We could not wear our own clothes ever while on the ranch with the exception of pajamas.

25. As far as free or play time, there was none. Every aspect of our time was scheduled and controlled. Sometimes in the summer we were given twenty-five minutes to swim but that is all.

26. At the ranch there is also a form of punishment called "pigs berthing." This is levied against those who had a dirty dorm or dorm area. The punishment varies in different cadet orgs, but in this one offenders had to spend the night in what was called "The big house." The big house was an abandoned building with rotting floorboards and broken windows filled with insects, rats and bats. I clearly recall two girls about nine years old who were forced to spend the night there and in the middle on the night they ran screaming and crying from the building. One of the girls afterward told me that they had been terrified by the bats and couldn't stand it anymore.

27. This ranch was hours away from normal civilization. In the year plus that I lived there we never went into town for a field trip; never went to a movie, shopping or anything. We were totally isolated. The only time I ever left was when I was allowed once to take a leave of absence to visit my father at Christmas.

28. At the age of seven I was also made an MAA. This is a person who watches out to make sure no one is slacking in his or her work and to write reports when other children are misbehaving. For example one incident I had to write up on myself was when I had snuck into a snack shack and taken a bite of someone's candy bar. Another boy was made to stand up in front of the group and list off things he had stolen, such as a pen from a teacher. He listed about thirty such incidents of having taken or borrowed things without asking. This was extremely humiliating for him - he was about ten years old - and the next day he was kicked off the ranch.

29. Every Friday night my mother came at about 2:00 in the morning to pick me up in a car. We would return to her housing about half hour away and I would visit her until 12:00 noon the next day. This was the extent of my time with her. On alternate weeks, when I was to visit my father, my mother arranged for a friend of hers to pick me up and take me to my father's house as my father was forbidden to come to the ranch. I would stay there with my dad over night until 10:30 a.m. then I would have to return to the ranch. I often asked to stay longer, but I was always refused permission. This often upset my father and me. I felt like I had spent a lot of my life saying goodbye to my father.

30. The last few weeks I was at the ranch, I learned my mother had been sent to New York on a mission. After she was gone about three weeks, I was sent to be with her.

31. I was now in Manhattan. Here, I lived in a room with my mother. There was a bunk bed and I slept on top and she on the bottom. This room was relatively clean and nice as my mother was an "Int Missionaire" which meant she was highly ranked and the other staff members were frightened of her authority.

32. My schedule here was to hang out all day with six or seven other kids also in the building. I did no schooling during the entire time I was in New York, which turned out to be eleven months. My mother once asked me if I wanted to go to public school, but I thought public school was horrible and "the enemy" as this is what I had been taught all my life. I told her I didn't want to go and she said ok. While in New York, I turned eight.

33. At one point my mom put me in the Scientology course room to study training routines, but I didn't like it and upset the supervisor and eventually stopped. I did get to go out each day to either a comic store or to get a slice of pizza. Other than that I had no outside contact with non-scientologists. Also, there was a guy named Eugene who's job it was to watch the kids and he did take us to Central Park and to the empire state building.

34. Each Thursday night, my mother had to do the financial planning for the scientology organization and she would not come to our room in the evening. I would go to bed, but early in the morning hours I would get scared and wander around the building looking for her. I usually found her typing away in an office and I would stay with her until she came to bed.

35. Right before my ninth birthday, we returned to Los Angeles. I could not return to the ranch, as they had no more room for me. So now I went to the Apollo Training Academy.

36. The Apollo Training Academy is a training organization for scientology cadets i.e. children age seven and up. While a member of this organization I lived in the Anthony Building [AB] located on Fountain Street. The AB was a four-story heap: the pool was covered over with plywood and we were instructed not to walk on it, as it was flimsy and unsafe. Children played on it anyway as we were often unsupervised. The carpets were old and smelly and there were a lot of cockroaches. We slept in metal bunk beads with chipping paint. There was no proper bedding; not one of us had a complete sheet set, blanket and pillow. I slept without a pillow for many months.

37. All of the furniture was very old and decrepit. For light, we had bare bulbs hanging from the ceiling. The kitchens had also been ripped out to make more room for people so there were exposed pipes everywhere. These were the worst conditions I lived in during my tenure as a child of scientology.

38. This building was in an unsafe area of Los Angeles and I often heard gunshots at night. It was a very frightening place for me to live. The adult woman who was supposed to be our nanny - there were about eleven girls in my dorm - was missing most of the time. She didn't even sleep there and I remember never knowing where she was. At this time, my mother was again on a mission, this time in Mexico, so I did not see her at all. My dad, however, did begin picking me up again every two or three nights so I could stay with him.

39. The fact that I had contact with my father, who was not living within the confines of scientology, made me happy. This was a place I could go and have nice surroundings and eat whatever I wanted and he would give me spending money, as otherwise I had no money at all. I also had better clothing than the other children, who were wearing very poor clothing as their parents could not afford nice clothes and there were no uniforms here.

40. Meals at the AB were served three times a day. I don't remember what sort of food it was just that it was bad.

41. The bathrooms in the AB were also not fully functional and we often had no warm water, the tiles in the shower were moldy and we had no soap or towels.

42. In addition, the elevators in this four-story building never worked so we always had to use the steps.

43. My schooling during this year took place at the ATA building that was a five-minute bus ride away in a scientology complex. I again studied scientology principles and policies, math, reading and spelling. There were about two hundred kids in this school and we were just packed together. Kids even studied in the cafeteria where they would have to clean up their studies so we could eat. We also had no real schedule at this school. Every Monday was beach day and I did no studies on that day. We would often go to a park and spend the whole day there, also. They would also take us to a fifty-cent swimming pool, however a lot of the kids did not have the money to swim so we just sat around all day. If we asked the teacher for money, she said no and told us it was too bad for us we had no money.

44. Another activity we were assigned at the AB was what we called "chicken picking" the carpet. Since we had no vacuum cleaner, we children were instructed to get down on our hands and knees and pick dirt out of the carpet. This dirt included paint chips and we were expected to leave our section in perfect condition. This was very hard to do, especially in the small space between the carpet and the wall. There would be all sorts of small trash in there including paint and staples that hurt my fingers.

45. I lived in the Anthony Building for about two years in 1992 to early 1993 when I received a call from my mother, who I had rarely seen during this time. She asked me how would I like to come visit her in Florida for about three months. I didn't even really know where she was. I said yes, I would like to go. I didn't think I was moving permanently to Florida, because I didn't want to leave my dad. I just wanted to see my mom as I hadn't seen her in a long time.

46. So, I was flown out to Clearwater, Florida where my mom met me at the airport. She took me to her room at the Hacienda Gardens where I spent the night on her bedroom floor, which she shared with another staff member.

47. The next night, after I had been taken to a nice meal at a steak house, my mom took me to the Quality Inn (QI). She led me to a dorm room and exclaimed, "This is your room! It's nice!" and then she prepared to leave. At this point I begged her not to go and leave me. I cried and did not want to stay alone. It was one of the worst nights of my life. I was afraid at this point that I was going to be staying here permanently.

48. Later as I lay in bed, very upset and missing my father and sister in Los Angeles, I became sick and threw up my steak dinner. The next day I started on the schedule of the cadet organization.

49. Now, I had to work every day. I worked in my mom's office (Hubbard Communications Office) every afternoon filing and sorting letters. It was a similar schedule to the Int ranch schedule except instead of working outside in the afternoon I worked in an office.

50. It was at this point also that I signed a Sea Org contract. Actually, I had signed such a contract at some point earlier; this was the second one I had signed. This contract says I will work for the scientology organization for this entire life and the next one billion years. I also was told to read a policy that stated that if anyone is in scientology and does not want to be there they can just tell the captain and they will be allowed to leave. Of course, I didn't want to stay but I didn't want to upset my mother. Also, I was nine years old.

51. Schooling during this period was a bit broader than my previous experience. We studied some geography and some cultural information. We also had more diverse reading. Always, about forty percent of my schooling was scientology study. When I first got there, I only did four hours of school per day, in the morning, then worked in the afternoon, then just hung out at the QI and played at night. No one supervised our play in our rooms. After some time I started studying in the evenings also. This was called night school and it was purely scientology study.

52. Though I did see my mother in her office every day I did not spend any time with her. She was very busy and if I wandered into her room she would tell me to get back to work. The only time we spent together was Saturday mornings when I visited her at the Hacienda. This was also the only time she had to clean her room, so it was not real quality time. Occasionally, I went to her apartment the Friday night before and stayed the night. This was special to me.

53. Contact with my father during this time was very difficult. I did not know how to initiate contact and my mother was not happy with me when I sought her help. I found out later that he would call and call and finally fax angry messages demanding to speak to me. I did eventually receive these messages and permission to call him, but the deputy cadet commander always sat in the room with me when we spoke. From the time of my arrival at Flag, it was three months before my first contact with my dad, and about four months between calls thereafter.

54. After some time at the base, I was given permission to visit him twice a year. I originally visited him once in the summer and once at Christmas, however my mother and the cadet org frowned upon this as I was staying away longer than the time allowed for "leave of absence." We were only allowed three weeks leave per year and I would often extend my visits with dad because I didn't want to go back. I told my dad I didn't want to go back, but he was still a scientologist at that time and told me I had to.

55. I always got very depressed when it was time to return. I would cry through the whole flight and often upset the stewards on the plane. However, I composed myself as the flight neared Florida because I didn't want my mother to see that I was upset. She always became angry if I showed I did not like living at Flag. I also knew my mom did not like my father. She said he was "Ex-Sea Org and therefore a DB [degraded being]." There is church policy that states this as a fact that sea org members believe wholeheartedly.

56. I stayed in the cadet org for many years. At one point I moved dorms because I had been originally placed in a nice dorm, as my mom was "International management." However, when she got posted to Flag and became regular personnel, I was no longer privileged.

57. The room I was moved to was much worse. The pink carpet had brown stains on it and it had the most cockroaches I had ever had to live with. Only one other girl lived in this room. I didn't know her because I hadn't lived there long and I was shy and this girl was considered to have bad ethics. I stayed in this dorm for some months, and then I moved again. From 1994 to 2000 I lived at the QI in various dorms, some nicer than the others. I moved nine times that I can remember. Only during the final six months of 2000 did I live with my mother. By that time I was 15 years old.

58. All of this moving was very unsettling. Often, once you had become comfortable you would all of a sudden be told you had to move. Usually, this was to accommodate someone of a higher rank moving into the area. When you were told to move you had to quickly gather your belongings and go to wherever they assigned you whether you liked it or not.

59. One of my work assignments was to demolish the walls of a room. This was a strange room that had plywood attached in two layers on all the walls. We were ripping the plywood off the walls. When I asked the cadet coordinator what this room was he told me it was for "ethics particles" who had become upset or hysterical. He would place them (children) in this room and lock them in. Some of them had become so upset that they were kicking holes in the original walls as they were only drywall, so he had layered the walls with plywood so no one could kick through.

60. Life at the QI was overall depressing and dreary. The only place to play was the parking lot. We were always on a boring and strict schedule. I was never allowed to leave the QI premises and we rarely went on outings. I worked every afternoon and the entire day on Sundays. In fact, on Sundays we had "renos" (renovations) day where we worked to fix up the premises of the QI. If we did not have special permission on Saturday afternoons, after our parental visits, we also had to do renos. We were allowed to watch movies every Saturday night in the cadet room and this was our one point of fun, although we never got to select the movies; they were chosen by the governess Italia and at one point she was in love with a move called "White Knight" and we had to watch that movie over and over again for weeks. This was not a children's movie and it was unbelievably boring.

61. After one change of cadet coordinators, our reading and music selections were censored. Our rooms were searched for offensive materials and if something not approved was found it was confiscated. For example an Alanis Morrisett tape was taken away because she was "downtone" and "too much in anger." Archie Magazines were considered "too sexually oriented" and these were forbidden. Seventeen Magazine was also not allowed, nor were any fashion magazines because of the "middle class orientation" and sexual content.

62. Over the years I rose up in post. (By the way, I was considered a "missionaire" from the cadet org during the time I worked in my mom's office.) I once was the animal room I/C (in charge) of the pets. We had snakes and a tarantula and rats and a bunny. I liked this job. I then went to work as an "MAA" (Master At Arms), which deals with ethics. I had many other jobs in the HCO division and eventually became Exec Esto. On this post I carried out programs written by myself and the cadet coordinator to improve the cadet org. When I was the LC (LRH Communicator) one of my jobs was to make sure all the pictures of Ron Hubbard looked nice, so I was always cleaning cockroach feces out of the frames and the cardboard backing. I would also lead people in the chanting of scientology doctrines.

63. As the HAS and Director of Inspections and Reports I had to read the "overt write ups" of the other cadets. This would include the reports written up about masturbation and other sexual activity between the cadets. I also participated in courts of ethics and committees of evidence for children. These are disciplinary actions per church policies.

64. During some of these years I was considered a pre-cadet and at around age 11 I became a cadet. There is some pressure applied to convince children to become cadets.

65. First, it is made clear that at around the age of ten or eleven you should become a cadet and if you do not you are constantly asked why you are not a cadet.

66. Secondly, cadets receive privileges that other children do not. Cadets are paid weekly. When I first became a cadet I was paid sixteen dollars a week, but this was reduced to eight dollars some time later. There were special certificates that one could earn for extra money. These were originally worth $25.00 but were also reduced to be worth only $12.00. I did earn these certificates through good behavior and high production on my job.

67. Thirdly, cadets were given better accommodations. Non-cadets (called simply "children") and cadets had to live separately. If you were a plain "child" at the age of ten and not a "cadet" in cadet quarters you were treated differently and looked down upon.

68. Fourth, cadets were allowed more freedom of movement. They could leave the QI premises by themselves (in pairs- never alone) and if their stats were up they were allowed to go bowling. If they were "Cadet of the week" they received ice cream.

69. The drawback to becoming a cadet was that you were now, per the church policy, on the route to becoming a sea org officer. Per the policy, the definition of a cadet is "one who is training to be an officer."

70. The first time I was asked to become a cadet I said I was not sure I wanted to be in the Sea Org. I was missing my dad and thinking of returning to California. The cadet coordinator was shocked and told me I had to work this out. I told him I might want to go to college. He told me I had to do a condition of doubt. He also notified my mother.

71. I then did the condition of doubt that is designed to keep people in the Scientology organization. During this condition you have to compare the statistics of two groups you are trying to decide between. I was shown church propaganda about how wonderful the Scientology organization was, like Freedom magazine. I was then shown statistics concerning crime and children using Ritalin, as well as news stories about arsons and death. This was to prove to me that the scientology world had better statistics and was more ethical than the "Wog" (non-scientology) world. I was told about how bad psychiatrist were and all the horrible things they do to people in order to compare how scientology is a much better method of mental health. Also, I was so ashamed of being assigned this condition that I simply wanted to get out of it. The condition of doubt is a lower condition and one also loses privileges and is looked down upon when in doubt.

72. I also had a conversation with my mom about my doubt. She was angry about my not wanting to be in the Sea Org. She asked me if my father had been influencing me against scientology. She even called my sister in Los Angeles and told her to relay the message to my father to not say anything to me against scientology. She asked me where I got the idea that I might want to go to college. She thought this was completely insane.

73. At this point, I decided to stay in the Cadet org. I was eleven years old.


74. When I was twelve or thirteen I was recruited into the Cadet TTC (Technical Training Corps.) We were in training to become supervisors and word-clearers for the cadet org. I now studied the works of L. Ron Hubbard eleven hours a day, six days a week. On Sundays, I did ten hours of regular schooling. I was studying adult courses like the Student Hat course and the Hubbard Qualified Scientologist course. These are the same courses offered to adults in the orgs and missions around the world. I did this for almost a year.

75. During this time I had no free days other than Sea Org day and Christmas day and one two week trip which was very fun. We drove on a bus and went camping and visited Washington D.C. and Pennsylvania. This was an extraordinarily special trip and only a few cadets were allowed to go. In ten years there had only been four such trips all of which were arranged by Rusty Hilton and his wife.

76. I was studying the Student Hat course for seven months. It was very difficult and I hated it. Soon, I was being asked to leave the cadet org and go into the Sea Org proper. This looked attractive to me, as I hated the TTC and the Student Hat course. I decided to join the Sea Org (SO) and was routed onto what is called the "EPF" or Estates Project Force, which is the first step in training for the SO. I was fourteen years old.

77. Now, I begin the EPF. Again I am moved to a new dorm, which was quite crowded and located at the Hacienda Gardens. I studied at the staff training building near the Super Power building.

78. The general schedule was to wake at 7:30 or 8:00 to be at muster {meeting} by 9:00. We then had twenty-five minutes or less to eat breakfast. Then we had to race to quickly clean up after meal. From there I went to work doing cleaning or heavy-duty physical work. This included mopping floors, polishing and dusting banisters, vacuuming, carrying camera equipment for Gold studios, putting up plywood in the Hacienda Gardens where they were renovating, laying carpeting and shoveling gravel, intended for the Sandcastle roof, into the bed of a dump truck.

79. Specifically, for many days I worked all day in the heat of a Florida summer shoveling gravel into the bed of a truck. The truck was very tall and I had to reach and strain to toss the gravel from the heavy shovel. I became dizzy and faint while doing this work. Sometimes we were given water but not often and we were not allowed to take many breaks, as there was so much work to be done.

80. Another time we were re-carpeting the Clearwater bank building. There were a lot of teenagers working on this project. There was one hired carpet layer and a bunch of EPFers. We were tearing out carpet, putting down glue, ripping out sideboards and using a "knee pusher" to flatten out the carpet. I worked at this for a week, sleeping during the day and working during the night, all through the night. The staff was eating in this building during the day.

81. While I was doing the above a older Russian man (about 60) named Sasha had a carpet knife and accidentally slashed his arm. He was bleeding terribly and no one was doing anything to stop the bleeding. I grabbed hold of his arm and put pressure on it to stop the bleeding. We walked to a van outside, trailing blood, and drove to the hospital. There was so much blood all over that the nurse had to ask which one of us was bleeding.

82. At the hospital, the doctor was trying to communicate to Sasha but he didn't speak English. I finally told him we were with scientology and he agreed to treat him. He received stitches and I returned to work.

83. Another project we did was remove upholstery tacks from the nautical chairs in the CB and replace them with new ones. Again, we were working all night long and sleeping and studying during daylight hours. We did this for three nights in a row.

84. Mr. Dave Englehart, who was the EPF In charge, was known to have a very bad temper. One man named Vladimir from Russia had smelly feet and Mr. Englehart told him to handle it. One morning at muster he screamed, "What's that fucking smell! I thought you to get that handled!" He then pushed another EPF person (dorm captain) so the whole line of people was knocked about. He then went to Vladimir, who spoke and understood no English, and yanked up his foot and knocked Vladimir to the ground. He tore the shoe from his foot and threw it, yelling at Vladimir that he should have soaked his feet in bleach water. Vladimir was very upset and shaken by this as were we all.


85. There was another young man named Josh Greenwood who was younger than me. There was a bad storm and we all went to the Sandcastle to place sandbags. Mr. Englehart told us this was very important to protect the Sandcastle and if any of us fell in the ocean to swim to the side and for no one else to jump in to help. Josh snickered at the intensity of Mr. Englehart's speech and Mr. Englehart responded by shoving the boy and dangling him over the edge of a high stoop - about five feet high - and pretending he would drop him to the pavement below. The boy was very shaken and cowed. 86. On the EPF we had to be with our group at all times. Once I walked to the store by myself and the EPF captain ran after me and asked me where I was going as I knew I wasn't allowed to go by myself. Also, all phone calls to anyone outside of scientology were regulated. In fact I was told that frequent contact with outside family members was forbidden; once a week was too frequent. Often, he would allow no phone calls at all, always complaining about the outer contact.

87. I was on the EPF for nine months. This is an extremely long time to be on the EPF. Most people do it in weeks. I had to go back for word clearing on what I had studied on the TTC. All of this study correction and discipline for going slow and being told I wasn't smart really shook my confidence and made me think I was a dull person. Eventually, I just went back to the cadet org. This was in mid-1999.

88. Here I worked again, reposted to a new job. Of course, I was back in a new dorm, but now I could also visit my mom on Saturday mornings. On the EPF, I couldn't see her at all because those on the EPF are not allowed the Saturday morning time off.

89. It is hard for me to remember what happened next. At some point they were working to get me to return to the EPF. I kept saying no, no, no. I finally told them I was not at all sure I wanted to dedicate my entire life to the Sea Org. The moment I became honest and told them this, I was again placed in a condition of doubt.

90. In addition, I was placed on a program to "handle" my feelings aboutnot wanting to be a Sea Org member. While doing this program, my father and sister (who was by now out of the sea org herself and living a normal life with my father in Los Angeles) invited me on a vacation to Hawaii. I really wanted to go with them and I sought permission. At first, permission was denied, but I argued and argued until I was allowed to go.

91. During this trip, my dad would mildly criticize the sea org and scientology. I always immediately defended both organizations, just as I had always been taught. When we returned to LA from Hawaii, my dad really came down hard on me about the sea org. Eventually, he broke through. I admitted I really didn't want to be in the Sea Org and I did want to try going to school like a regular kid. He told me I could stay with him right then, but I felt so guilty and loyal to the church I insisted I go back and route out properly.

92. I then returned to Clearwater and upon my return my roommate Nicole Graham warned me that they were again going to try to get me to re-start the EPF, as there was some post that needed filled immediately. She was also trying to route out and that is the only reason a sea org member would tell me something like this. I was then able to mentally prepare myself for what was to come.

93. Three days after I returned, my mom came to visit the QI. This was her fist visit to the QI in years. I immediately knew what she was up to. Acting very motherly and using her affection, she and the cadet coordinator, Jim Sydjeko, asked me to take a walk. As soon as we were outside the office, they stopped and my mom started in.

94. She told me I had been working on my program and she wanted to know what I had decided. She said there was some post I was needed for and I should return to the EPF. Well, I answered her honestly, telling her I wanted to go to college and become an interior decorator. When she heard this, my mother was absolutely floored. She became visibly irritated and her "motherliness" no longer came through so well.

95. Of course, for the next hour and a half she tried to talk me intostaying and rejoining the EPF. She asked me how I was going to help the planet by going top college and a lot of other stuff I just didn't know at the age of 15. However, I had seen my mother do her work on many other people. Often, she had held me up as a shining example of a cadet, even though I was a thoroughly miserable child. I knew what was going to come out of her mouth before she said it. Thus, I was able to maintain my position. I wanted to leave.

96. Now, I was given what is called a "routing out" program. These were steps I had to take to leave the Sea Org. Most of the steps had to be worked with other people and I soon found that, as a matter of course, there was no one able to help me. After weeks of no help and no progress, I grew angry. Additionally, steps were continually being added to my program. Eventually, my mother said I should word clear the entire Student Hat, which is a huge course, and this was added to the program.

97. I became very upset when they added the Student Hat. I had been word clearing for years and all it made me do was think there was something wrong with me. When I became upset they blamed me, saying I was only angry because I still had mis-understood words. At this point, also, I was supposed to still be attending regular school, but now 90% of my studies were Scientology doctrines and policies.

98. During this time I was trying to stay in touch with Astra (my sister) and my dad. I called them every week or two. This was seriously frowned upon and the staff and my mother often scolded me for it. I was made to feel guilty and told I was doing something wrong (i.e. it was an overt to stay in contact with these "outside influences.")

99. After a couple of months, I was so filled with anger that I began arguing frequently with Jim Sydjeko, the cadet coordinator, begging for a word clearer and the other help I needed to do my program. He just yelled at me and said I was out-ethics and selfish, that they had more important things to do than work with me. When you are routing out you are no longer important and no one will help you or treat you well.

100. Sometimes, he would yell at me and advance towards me, backing me against the wall and yelling at me so hard that spit flew from his mouth into my face. I would start sobbing when he did this, and he did it several times.

101. My mother also did not like Jim and was blaming him because he had not "handled" me as a cadet to stay in the Sea Org. In the afternoons, I would see my mom when I went in to Flag to work (I still had to work every day.) She would tell me she could get me word clearing at the FH, but this happened only three or four times. At this rate, I knew it was going to take years for me to route out and I started getting feelings of dread and hopelessness.

102. After three months of trying to route out, I sort of gave up and just started working for my mom full time, not going to school at all. I returned to the QI to sleep at night. One day some cadets arrived at mom's office while I was working, carrying many of my belongings in a cardboard box and my laundry basket. I asked what was going on and they said they didn't know, Jim had just told them to bring me my stuff. Now, I really flipped out because the one place I had always lived was the QI and now I had been removed from there. I had no idea where I was supposed to go.

103. When I met my mom on break I told her what had happened. She said, oh, I thought you wanted to come live with me. This had never been discussed before and it was really upsetting to me. I did not want to live with her because I knew she was very controlling and trying to get me to stay in the Sea Org and this would only aid her. Nonetheless, I moved in with her, as I had no place else to go.

104. In my mom's small bedroom at the Hacienda Gardens, which she shared with an 80-year-old lady, I slept on the floor squeezed between a table and my mom's bed with no mattress, just a pillow and a blanket.

105. Now, I worked all day from 9:00 a.m. to 11:00 p.m. At this time, I started sneaking to the Clearwater library in the mornings just to read, as I had been forbidden to read so much for so long. I started reading magazines, newspapers, and books -- whatever I could. My mom was angry with this and told me not to do this but I continued.

106. My mom now got me back into school again at the cadet org but only on Sunday for 10 hours a day. However, all I studied was Scientology and I quit after three weeks. My schedule then became work all day seven days a week, no schooling except for my visits to the library, sleeping on my mom's floor, eating my meals in the Clearwater Building. I was no longer even working on my routing out program. I was very depressed; it was one of the worst periods of my life, because people no longer like me because I wanted to leave, I was not in uniform anymore, my friends talked to me only to convince me to stay, and all the people who had known me through the years shunned me.

107. As Christmas time approached, I started pushing again to finish my leaving staff program so I could be with my dad at Christmas. My mom would not agree or help me so I went to the Chaplain. The Chaplain talked to mom, who convinced him not to help me as I am just out-ethics. So, I spent Christmas with my mother.

108. This Christmas, my mother and my grandmother (also in the Sea Org) bought me lesser gifts and gave them seemingly begrudgingly and my mom only took the morning off to be with me.

109. Soon after Christmas, I began calling my father and sister more frequently; several times a week. I called from public phones, often from the Library, either collect or using my dad's calling card number so my mother wouldn't know. I really started complaining about not going to school and not being allowed to leave. I was becoming more and more angry.

110. In late January during one of these calls, my sister said to me, "How about you just leave? We'll come get you or buy you a ticket." At this point I was sick of feeling ashamed of myself for wanting to leave and certain they would never let me finish my leaving program. Also, I had recently been subject to re-recruitment efforts to re-start the EPF and this frightened me. Some time before, the Commanding Officer of the Commodores Messenger Organization (CMO, a specialized organization comprised mostly of young girls) had become very angry with me when I had refused to rejoin. She had ordered me to go start the EPF at once. I ran crying to my mom for help but she said she could not help and started asking, "Why don't you go on the EPF again?" I had then just gone home and refused to go to work at all for the next week.

111. So this time when Astra said just leave, I felt sudden relief. This is what I wanted to do. So we started planning. We decided I would leave at the end of February 2000. I was afraid to call a cab; I had rarely even rode in a car, so my dad agreed to fly out and rent a car and pick me up near Flag.

112. I started to sneakily pack my stuff in a cardboard box and two backpacks. The night before I was leaving I kissed my grandmother good night, feeling very sad because I wondered if I would ever see her again. Then I went to bed. The next morning was my escape day.

113. I woke up late! Nervously, I grabbed my stuff and for one of the first times in my life caught a ride with a staff member who drove a vehicle (he had a vehicle because he worked for renovations and needed it. Most staff are not allowed cars.) My cardboard box was stashed in a hidden closet in the Coachman building. I had been bringing my stuff in my backpacks every day and secretly filling the box. I was so nervous every time I spoke to anyone, thinking they would know I was going to blow.

114. When I got to work, I made up an excuse to see my mother, who was on study. Normally, it is not permitted to interrupt staff study. I gave her a kiss and said I would see her later. She was a bit annoyed by my visit. I felt so bad because I was leaving her, but on the other hand I didn't want her to know and stop me. She was like my mother and the enemy.

115. Now, I took my two tightly packed backpacks and headed for the Clearwater Library. A sea org member saw me walking and approached me. I freaked out inside, but he just made small talk and I smiled and answered, then walked on. When I got to the library, I saw my dad sitting there in a car. Now, I knew I was really leaving. I was so excited and emotional I wanted to cry but knew we really had to rush to catch our flight out.

116. I talked with him briefly then told him I had to get my cardboard box. My dad waited in the parking lot and I ran back to the coachman building to get the box from the closet. I grabbed the box, but it started falling apart and I couldn't let others see my clothes falling out. I left the box in an alley nearby, ran back to my dad and jumped in the car. We then drove over to the coachman to get the box in the alley, ducking as we passed the known surveillance cameras all over the streets of Clearwater.

117. We got to the alley and I dashed out to grab the box. Dad came to assist. My knees were shaking and I was constantly looking around to see if any Sea Org members were noticing. We managed to get the box and all the contents into the car, jump in and head for the airport.

118. I was in emotional turmoil at this time. When we got on the airplane, I began to really question what I was doing and started to cry. I was afraid I was ruining my life. However, I went through with it.

119. When we got to LA, I called Flag and left a message for my mom, telling her I had arrived in LA safely. Then, I went home with my dad. By the time we got to his apartment, there were messages from mom telling me to call her. I didn't call her even though I was an emotional mess, shaking and crying. Soon, she called back and the first thing she said to me was "Well, that wasn't very smart, was it?" Her attitude and mean spiritedness convinced me that I had done the right thing in leaving.

120. Additional incidents, which were not recounted in the above narrative, include the heavy labor children did at the QI. For example I used a jackhammer to break up concrete block and frequently used a circular saw to cut wood for bunk beds. All the children made their own, wood bunk beds.

121. When I used a jackhammer I was happy to do so as normally we were made to break up concrete with a large pick axe.

122. The QI has two floors and there are iron railings running all around. We children were made to sand the rust from them and paint them and try to make them stable with screws and nails. They were often so loose you could not lean on them and they would be tied to the roof with rope to secure them.

123. Children also painted the doors to the rooms and walls, fix holes in drywall, layed tile, cut scrap carpet and fit the pieces together to make a whole and lay on the floor. They would also use acid to wash bathroom floors that were caked with mineral deposits.

124. These are all samples of the labor done by children in keeping the building in satisfactory condition.

125. Regarding medical treatment while I was in the Sea Org, I once fractured my foot when I was about 13. My bone was fractured from my pinky bone to my ankle and I was in terrible pain. I couldn't walk at all and stayed in bed late, but still had to get up and work. The cadet coordinator checked me and told me I just had a sprain. After about a week it was not better so I went to the MLO. I waited all day and no one helped me. They finally helped me toward the end of the day. One of the MLOs took me to a nearby scientology chiropractor.

126. I was told this chiropractor would take cheap x-rays. She took them, saw the fracture and pointed it out to me and advised me to see a doctor. I was never taken to a doctor. To this day, my foot still hurts and aches when I run.

127. While I was on the EPF, I was working a lot with acid. I had no protective gloves and my skin became very dry and chapped and started peeling off. Something also happened to my feet as they became sore and red, then crusty even on top. They would crack and bleed and the bottoms were so sore I could hardly touch them. I had to continue working until I begged to go to the MLO. By this time, I could barely walk or move my fingers.

128. The MLO, who is not even a medically trained person, said it looked like some sort of fungus and would go away. I was given no treatment and sent immediately back to work. I bought my own lotion at the store and was constantly using it to take away the pain.

129. I suffered this condition up to the time I went with my father to Hawaii. When he saw my hands and feet he immediately got me some medicine and applied it frequently. By the time I returned to the Sea Org it had cleared up.

130. I want to state that the church promises you that all your medical cares will be attended to. This is not true. Medical cares are ignored unless they are extreme. You are considered to be doing something wrong if you are sick or injured.

131. Any care that costs money has to go through a long process ofapproval
that can take months. I know my grandmother paid for some of her friends surgery or medical treatment because they could not get the funds approved through the church system and were in dire need of treatment.

132. I also once cut my arm badly, where I could see white flesh, and this received no treatment other than wrapping. I have a very bad scar on my arm from this injury.

133. Another thing that happened was we children were hauled around in old, broken down school buses. These would often break down and on three occasions I and other children were directed to get out of the bus when it broke down and push it to the side of the road while the driver steered.

134. At times, the cadets received no pay at all because the base was not making enough money. One of the things we had to spend our money on was doing our laundry and buying our own hygiene items. This included laundry detergent, shampoo, tampons, soap and toothpaste. We also were responsible for certain items of clothing like underwear, socks, bras and our own hair brushes etc. This was all to come from our $8.00 to $12.00 per week pay.

135. We had to wash our clothes in the coin-operated machines provided at the QI. This would take up to half the pay I received as a cadet.

136. The other part of my pay I often spent on food because I couldn't stand what we were served at the QI. Our meals were leftovers brought from the Clearwater Bank building. One of our dinner meals was bread with cheese melted on top of it. This was served once a week. When I left in 2000 there were no desserts served ever as the base was not making enough money for these treats.

137. We also did marching drills at the QI and on the EPF. We marched together and learned formations like the number eight. We also had to run and do double and triple time and what we called the "dead run" where we had to run all-out as a group keeping in marching formation, up stairs and all over.

138. Another drill we had to do on the EPF was to run up all ten flights of stairs. In fact, no EPFers were allowed to use the elevators in the Fort Harrison hotel. When we did maid work or any work in the FH (like painting on the tenth floor) we had to run up and down the stairs all day long.

139. On the EPF we would get so hungry that we would take food from the trays left over by the "public" staying in the hotel room. When we were working, if we passed these trays in the hall or near the kitchen we would always steal any left over food. This was a regular occurrence while I was there in 1998 and 1999.

I declare under penalty of perjury under the laws of the United States of America and the state of Florida that the foregoing is true and correct.

Executed in Clearwater, Florida this 24th day of January 2001.

Zoe Woodcraft