Hello, I'm not sure where to start so I will start of with intoducing myself, my name is Adam Taylor Wildeman, I'm 31 years old and struggling artist due to post tramatic syndrom from childhood sexual abuse. I was born in Scientology more or less my father was a scientologist since, from what I recently found out, 1974 two years before I was born. My father was OT 2 and a teacher of the tech I dont recall the technical Scientology name for it but that was his main role at the COS in Winnipeg Man. and was a Canvasser for them as well selling the tech books of L.R.H's writting on Dianetics.
Ever since I can remember my father would drag me to the COS every weekend against my wishes, I didnt want to go and I was borred and lonely and dealing with my parents recently spilt up. Most of the time I would try and keep myself busy by finding something to do I was a child what else would I do but play... with my toys or my kids books or draw and sometimes when allowed to enter the teching room to play with the playdoh. sometimes my father would get me to do contact assists to help ease away any pain I had when I hurt myself and or would get me to do the touch assocation and he would run other drills on me for what I thought were no reason I didnt now why but I was a child and had no mental problems at the time from what I understood about the CoS then is that it is a Self help Org for people with mental problems. As far as I was concerned I didnt need to be there.
Sometimes other Scientologist would bring their children to the CoS and we would be children and play outside or in the basement with the boxes or even draw on the walls which was bad but we didnt get into to much trouble for it but told to wash it off, so we did. My father is a strange man he always has been to me and I dont know, half the time I was the only child at the CoS then between the ages of 4-6, (1980-1982). I remember he would come back up stairs from taking a sauna and would start talking to me about things that made no sence to me and was completely non-sequitor to anything, or he would come out of an audit and he would start getting on my case about what I was doing what I was learning and attacking me asking if I knew the time when there was no clock around let alone even had a watch on, things he already knew the answer too, things he didnt need to ask me. My father was parrinod about something and thought something was wrong with me cause I wasnt talking... and had complained to the other scientologist about it. Why would I talk when there is no one to talk to.
One day in summer while I was outside looking at the Catapillers on a weeds beside a schools football field fence, my father was talking to a fellow sceintologist about a painting that my father was going to sell to him, he then turned to me and said," Yeah Adam I'm going to make you stick a dogs penis between your toes." and he just kind of looked at me, I had this blank expression on my face, not know again wtf he was talking about I think I went into immidate shock. Next thing I knew they were infront of me and then my father had asked me, What's Lisa McPherson was doing?" I thought that it was kind of strange he would ask me a question about someone I didnt know about then and thought wtf does he care it isnt any of his bussiness wtf does he care. I said nothing, and he had cocked his head of to one side and " Ah he aint nothing special." the other scientologist said nothing.... Another time I was at the CoS and I had just finished drawing a train, I was bored and was looking for something to do wondering what else I coud do to keep myself busy and quite and stay of the way. My father was talking with some other scientologist again about who know what and as I was standing there wonder what to do... my father again said something I didnt quit hear and for the most part blocked out of my head for as long as I could till recently.... he claims to have been only horse playing with this other scientologist but I know that was a lie and lied to me a lot. While standing there he was going to make me rape a cat, then the next thing I know my father was pinned against a wall in which a nail was sticking into his back, the other scientologist had rammed him into the wall. I dont know if there was a nail sticking out or not but he rammed him into it and just looked at him without saying a word... my father broke down in tears.... awwww.
On another day he said to me, "Great now I'm being investigated by Ranee Dawe" again I didnt know what he was talking about, and said nothing.
One time he had even took me out of school for a 2 days claiming I wasnt learning anything at school and that I could learn more at the CoS then I would at school. Durring these two day I was forceably taken out of school I was reporgrammed for the worst.... but then again the reprogram had already begun. I cant quit recall right now what he said when he came back up stairs from his sauna but if I thought about it long enough I could remember, but thats besides the point its what he started saying to me and doing to me while at the CoS that is the cause of my troubles and heartache. I remember he was complaining that I wasnt talking again and thought that something was wrong with me so he asked me to come over to him and so I did and he asked me if I knew that the moles I have on my right forarm are, I said no and he told me that they are the moles of Eve, and he said I was a woman last life time, I told him I was not and he disagreed and insisted I was and then he claimed to know what they actually are and told me that they are the outline points of a cat body. When in all factuality they are a constillation in the night sky. at the time he was say this all to me was holding my thumb back onto my forarm or trying to I was double jointed then when I was alittle younger and it hurt me when he was trying to see if I could still do that, next think I knew I I had seen a cats outline run into my forarm and look at me, it was the same cat the that my father was later to buy for my stepmother whom he had met earlier and brought to scientology to clear hear engrams and abberations that her own father had caused her by raper her, he claimed that the auditing did nothing for her and she felt no alivation from her pain and anguish. So after my father had fisished bending my thumb backwords and seeing the cat in my arm my father then askes me what beastiality is. I frowned and had got this really disgusted on my face and went into shock again and felt my mind warping as he said, but at the sametime he asked he I heard someone else cut in before him and add on to his sentance to me that said, " What is Adam's Dad doing making Adam preform act of beastiality." And I was kinda blown away by all that and even more confused about what my father was say or what he was really saying to me. I didnt care to answer and psychologialy disturbed by the fact that he asked me that... I wondered where Kami was my step mother and she popped up behind him and said here I am and just looked at me with this smile on her face.... the rest of the other scientologist did nothing but just watched.
On the second day out of school bored and alone at the CoS I decided to do some writting I was thinking of writing an idea down for a script a play or movie if you will. Some of you may or may not believe what I am telling you, personally I don't care you don't, if you do thank you. What I had wrote is here at this link http://www.xenu.net/archive/OTIII-scholar/
I can explain to you what I had ment by what I had wrote then and will. When I had wrote that I was about 5 or 6 and at the time I had wrote it I felt as if there was an incredible about of pressure on me and I felt as if I was under stress and someones watchful eye, and I didnt fell like myself and while I was writing it I was extreamly worried about my spelling and grammer and only to wind up making mistakes anyhow and finding myself being over powered as I wrote it, it was a very strange sensation and I didnt like it. Yet no one at time I was writing it at the desk in the open at the CoS in Winnpeg, was visible to me everyone was either doing a drill an audit or learning LRH tech. My father from what I recall was doing something in LRH's office at the time.
Data (1) (1)
Data, was to be the title (1) respresented the Act one, scene one.
The head of the Galactic
Confederation (76 planets around
larger stars visible from here)
self explanitory, 76 because it was the year I was born, 1976.
(founded 95,000,000 yrs ago, very space opera)
time frame of place, notes for later elaberation, very space opera ment long winded and drawn out more or less boring intro to the story line was to be with lots of action and narration of events leading the story.
solved overpopulation (250 billion
or so per planet) -- 178 billion
average) by mass implanting.
Mass implanting was actually to be written as mass replanting as in moving people from one planet to a new unpopulated one, also part of the intro.
He caused people to be brought to
Teegeeack (Earth) and put an H Bomb
on the principal volcanoes (Incident 2)
Incident 2 was actually to be writen as Act 2, one of the mistake I had while writing it and my forarm felt funny and strange. TeeGeeAck was actually TheGeekAck but changed it to TeeGeeAck as not insult anyone.
and then the Pacific area ones
were taken in boxes to Hawaii
and the Atlantic Area ones to
Las Palmas and there "packaged."
His name was Xenu.
Xenu was to be the main character and was the underlining heroin and also antagonist for these H-bombs where to be used to kill the criminals of the people that he had brougth to TeeGeeAck.
He used renegades. Various misleading
data by means of circuits etc.
were placed in the implants.
The renegade where the rebels of the Confederacy that were fighting for good but were viewed as bad... giving false information to the confederacy and there was going to be a malfunction in the computer due to damage taken while under fire from a confederacy ship.
When through with his crime Loyal Officers
(to the people) captured him
after 6 years of battle
and put him in an electronic
mountain trap where he still
Xenu was to be captured and put on trial for his crimes against the confederacy (the People) loyal officers of the Confed were to capture him and the trial would start in semi detail of the claims against him and his treasons even though he was doing what he was asked by the confederacy, after he was to be convicted and imprissoned for the rest of his life in a fake mountiine on earth this was all before man naturally evolved on earth.
"They" are gone. The place (Confed.)
has since been a desert.
They refers to the confederation and the place earth is deserted so that xenu was the only one left on this planet and was in prison in a fake moutine, he was then to escape and send a sos to his friends in space.
I had stopped after writing only a page because I started looking over what I had wrote and realising that my hand writing was not uniform and uneven but it did seem to have an eligance to it I read it over and thought it was garbage and changed my mind about it, as I sat there I started to have a halucination of sorts as I did when I was at the CoS and only at the CoS I heard a noticed someones presence near me it was of a man I recently indirectly met in court for an assult charge that was later dropped hes presence then told me that I should probably keep that and while looking directly at his invisable form I started to see the world in his left eye and began to see parts of my future as I often did and still ocassionally do, see bits of a telavision show we all know as Star Trek
the next generation and hearing a voice whine about me and what I do in my now current time frame of life me looking up things on google earth. I was sceptical and untrusting of what I was expericancing and didnt like it I dont recall what I exactly thought back to him but he knows... after only seeing bits and peices of things were non-secquitor I took the writing and crummpled it up in a ball and throw it in the trash can beside me as I often did with my drawings after I was done... the next day I went to school and all my classmated greated me with enthusiasim and welcome.. they missed me and I missed them but I had a bad time of remembering names when I was child feeling increabling dumb at time as if I was being forceable made stupid when I was try to recall names and seeing this yellow white light in a phenomal way.. the day went on and closed like any other. The weekend came and again I was brought the Cos I went out to play in the snow it was winter later on in the afternoon when I was inside and warm. I over heard an audio file again those same audio files that are on the above link loud and clear from LRH's room where my father and stepmother were. I began wondering what LRH was doing my garbage and why he was reading it aloud, but then I began to question if I was really hearing LRH because to me it sounded like Kami giving her best LRH impression and I know my father had a reel to reel and he had brought it to LRH office why I didnt know I think he mentioned that the was going to listen to LRH's no tape and he asked me to be quite and stay out of the way. After they were done listening to LRH's tape they all came out and my father started going on about what a bunch of bullshit the OT3 was how there was no magic power or anything to geting psychic powers I was later asked if I wanted to be a scientologist... thinking about what my father and already done to me and realising he wasnt quite right in the head I said No cause I feared it would only get worse if I started to actually learn anything about the tech after all why would I want to be like my father the supressive asshole that he is to me, why so I can go up to be an asshole to others and think I am above the law and supresss others into doing things against there will.. No thanks...
Now this all happend over 20 years ago I've tried to recount the events in order as best I can to my recallection there is some other phenomenal things that I have experianced due to my father and his covert use of Scientology on me.... as I stated earlier that my stepmother claimed it didnt work for them and that it didnt help I'm not sure if they were actually PTs handled because of what my father had said about LRH... but either way when they decided to go I found that I wanted to stay, nowing that my father was going to make me do those things me against my own will I was scared and worried, to be psychologically coherised into sexual activities of anykind is sexual abuse, years down the road I eventually did what my father said he would make me do. I tried not to.. I know I didnt want.. and I've been struggling with it every since then and ever since then I've had other strange phenomenal occianceses in my life precogating people and times and events since I was young....
I also went to the Dianetics center here in Toronto Canada to try and get some help for my afflections by this preprogram deja-vu Bullshit which extreamly upsets me and angers me so but no no avail they could do nothing for me and wasted only about 50 bucks on a Cause of Supression Course, and a book or two for shit I already new for shit that solved no problems for me, to meet people that only cause more headaches for me and all I see and hear from them is the're lies and head games..
Now I suffer from post traumatic stress disorder and who know what else.. I'm seeing a psychologist once a week when I can, and I have made a report to the police about what my father did to me and met DC Renee Dawe, but I'm not sure if they are doing anything about it and said it would take time and that it may or may not go to trial and that my father may get up to ten years in prison, but at the sametime I dont think she believes me and she told me that all she heard was a bunch of prophecies and have not goten one responce back from any email that I have wrote her asking for information..
I want to Sue the CoS for brainwashing my father and getting him to braiwash me into beastality because he viewed me as a threat to the Org in some bizzare manner god only knows how, fucked if I know. What I do know is that scientology views is as acceptable to beastfy people whom they view as a threat how in gods name can a man view his own fleash and blood as a threat to scientology before hes done anything wrong to anyone, I want my life back and can never have that back I'm not who I was supposed to be and now I'm stuggeling to be what I want to be in my carrier and life.