PURIFICATION RUNDOWN

[Sea Horse]

My story. I did the Purif. I hated it. I hated running in the sweltering southern summer heat for 20 minutes when I was not fit to begin with (I wouldn't have been able to jog 20 minutes in an air conditioned running track). I hate sweating (always have). I hated being in a sauna for five hours at a time -- too hot, can't have your glasses on (metal frames burn face), couldn't read, couldn't do nothing but talk to the other person there (blurred vision, no glasses, you realize that watching body language and facial expressions WAS part of normal conversation practice). You get tired of talking to the same person for 5 hours a day, for over two weeks straight.

I hated ingesting the oil (disgusting). I hated the CalMag drink (bitter). It gets harder (not easier) to gag down handfuls of vitamins each day. The Purif C/S won't tell you anything. Your hair turns to seaweed after showering 10 times a day.

You get no indoctrination before starting the Purif (what the hell you're doing, why, when does it end, etc.) You're told to read the book Clear Body, Clear Mind to get the idea of when to end. When the hell do you read the book? You have 5 hours in the sauna with no glasses and when you're done all you want to do is go home, turn up the A/C and crash. (Remember, it's 5 hours IN the sauna. Add 30 minutes for the exercise, add time for commute to and from the org, time to shower and dress at the end, time to write up your stupid reports and swallow dozens of vitamin pills.)

As a "first action" (first 'audited' thingy in Scientology) the new Scientologist doing the Purif has no fucking idea what to do or say to END a process or rundown. But somehow the C/S (Case Supervisor) is somehow expecting you to say something (in writing, in your log book, of course) that will indiciate to him that you're done.

With me, after over two weeks I protested enough that they put me in session (on the emeter) to do a Purif Repair List. In it, I was at least asked about my experience and was able to talk to a human (instead of talking to a silent piece of fucking paper). I was able to say how I hated it and had no clue why I was doing it and wanted it to stop. Thank god for one caring auditor who asked if I was DONE, saw a "read" or "floating needle" or whatever she saw on her emeter, and I was able to "be a completion" and end the HEATED NIGHTMARE which is the Scientology Purification Rundown.
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[Bea Kiddo]

Thats correct, Seahorse.

And the doctors visit is to check the heart and liver for any problems that would prevent them from doing a rigorous program like the Purif.

Even if they go to a non-Scino doctor, the doctor is supposed to be informed of the type of program that the person will be undergoing and sign specific papers that are part of the Purif program. A Case Supervisor will not start a person on the rundown without this doctor approval.
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My story in a nutshell: Born into Scn, raised in the SO. Trained to Class VI (SHSBC) Golden Age of Tech, OT V, Supervisor. Sea Org for 17 years. SP declared.

[caroline]

[lucy skywalker]

[caroline]

Hubbard makes it clear that the Purification Rundown is a one-size-fits-all entry onto the "The Bridge to Total Freedom."

[Bea Kiddo]

The paper that the doctor must sign lists out what must be checked and briefly explains the Purif program.

Anyone have a copy of the Purif Delivery manual handy? Its in that booklet.

And yes, there have been many times the doctor was not a Scino who would sign. As long as they signed the form from the book, it was ok.
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My story in a nutshell: Born into Scn, raised in the SO. Trained to Class VI (SHSBC) Golden Age of Tech, OT V, Supervisor. Sea Org for 17 years. SP declared.

[Roan]

[lucy skywalker]

[Gumbythetruth]

[caroline]

Here are some claims for the Purification Rundown from the dust jacket of Clear Body Clear Mind:

[Gumbythetruth]

[Gumbythetruth]

i think what caroline posted regarding Mr Hubbards response to Gerry's request says it all!

"L. Ron Hubbard wrote:

I’d got a long psychiatric record, by the way, in the navy,...
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[lucy skywalker]

[Twin A]

There is a sauna at 24 hour Fitness where I am a member and I hang out in there once a while for brief time periods. It's healthy. I also take a balanced high quality vitamin and mineral supplement. So I like a LITTLE sauna and vitamins for health.

What's in the Purification Rundown right now is dangerous to a certain number of people. People are gambling with their lives to go onto that program. C of S are lucky that they haven't had more problems with it than they have had.

I am one of the people that the Purification Rundown became dangerous for: I did it in mid 1995. I was on it for 2 months, and I never stopped having a niacin reaction. Eventually I just claimed "overrun" and quit. I lied that I'd had a "day" with no niacin reaction and that I'd gone past it. I thought they were trying to kill me. I lost over 20 pounds on it and I didn't need to lose weight!

THERE ARE SOME MAJOR FLAWS IN THIS PROGRAM. I wrote these all down for the Snr CS INT to make changes in 2000, and I was never acknowledged. I was told by someone in OSA that, "LRH is Source of the program, not scientists at some college somewhere"

Doctors' don't know everything to examine for. They don't know what can go wrong. All I got was a general medical check up, from Dr. Denk himself. He gave me to A OK. I also had a non-Scn doctor give me an OK after she'd scanned through the Purif Book. They don't test to see if there are any thyroid conditions or food allergies or obscure heart disorders...

This is what happened to me: In the middle of the program, I had an allergic reaction to the All Blend Oil (I'm allergic to SOY). I broke out into bleeding,pussing hives all over my feet, legs and knees. The longer I stayed on the program, the higher up the hives would creep. They weren't "running out". They fucking itched too! And the second I'd scratch, I'd start bleeding. Some of the sores got infected. Finally I convinced the MLO ASST to let me see one of the other non-Scientology doctors who'd given me a go ahead on the program and the Dr. took a look at me and said that it was food allergy. The MLO GOLD had wanted me to just keep going on the program, that the hives would just "run out." and that allergies were 'psychosomatic" .

My Dr. disagreed, she said that it didn't matter if it was psychosomatic anyway, an allergy can kill someone whether it's mentally generated or not. So she had me take a food allergy test. It cost me about 180.00. I had to pay for it myself. It was everything I had. My test came back and we spotted that I needed to get individual oils and not use the all blend oil with the soy. I was allergic to SOY.

The next thing that happened were two things at once: My metabolism sped up, way up. My stomach went into overdrive. I was constantly painfully hungry and I could not eat enough. I felt like a hole was burning into my stomach. It probably was because I had to get treated for a duodenal ulcer later. Again.. I went to see this non-Scn doctor and she said that I needed to stop taking anything with Iodine in it, because I'd been taking too much and my Thyroid had become seriously hyper. So, then I had to get special non-iodized salt. I had to get special vitamins bought for me that were not vitamin complexes including iodine. I had to stop eating all sea food. It took months to get my thyroid to calm down again. I had a sore throat area for months.

Then, along with the above... I started smelling like ammonia. Very strongly. I thought that I was "running out" the toxin of ammonia, perhaps because this was used in cleaning regularly at Gold. I stupidly tried to stay in the sauna daily to "run out" the ammonia. Plus I kept having a niacin reaction somewhere. I stank so badly that no one could be in the same sauna with me. The other purif people went into the second sauna. There were two at Gold. After about a week, the ammonia smell wasn't going away. I crapped some solid green liquid, like alien diarreah, a couple of times. That was weird, because I had not been eating anything really all that green... hey maybe I got rid of some aliens!! (joke)

I started having heart palpitations. I'd get these shooting pains down my arms and numbness in one of my arms, and pain in my neck and chest. I'd have a little shortness of breath and I'd get really tired.

The MLO ASST was concerned and so she took me off the program and took me to a heart specialist in Hemet. The guy put me on an EKG and said that I had "WPW" Wolf Parkinson's White Heart Disorder. It is something that 1 in every 2000 people have ( hey does that make me a 2.5 percenter?) most of them don't even notice it. It's relatively minor. It is however, really important to know if one has it or not and have it in their medical records because a tachycardia (too rapid heart beat) for a WPW person cannot be treated with the regular meds given to a tachycardia victim, the regular meds would kill someone with WPW. So it's important to have the prescription or a note with you in your wallet or something too for if you have a tachycardia due to WPW.

The doctor explained that there is a 'circuit' between the left and right sides of the heart. It's kind of like an electrical circuit. It keeps the pumping of the left and right sides of the heart in sync and regular. In my heart I have TWO circuits between my left and right sides. One of them is shorter, it's like a short cut. If I get low on electrolytes (magnesium,potassium, etc.) my heart will start using the shorter circuit and my heart will start beating faster and faster, racing.

The doctor prescribed a numbing drug to help me to slow down my heart rate if my heart should start racing too much. He wanted to do more tests to determine to what extent I had WPW. Usually in a young strong heart, it is unnoticeable, besides maybe feeling a little more tired once in a while when the heart gets into beating faster. He did not quite understand why I was having chest pains, even when I explained the sauna treatment to him. Actually I didn't talk to him about that, the MLO ASST did. Maybe she didn't tell him, or he didn't register.

So I did two more tests. One was I had to wear a halter monitor, a portable heart rate monitor and recorder with me for a week. I had to take it into the sauna with me. Then I had to run on a treadmill for a long time at it's uphill setting. They were trying to find my "threshold", at what point would my heart go into a tachycardia and start racing out of control and would it at all? Was my problem only that my heart would race a little faster, or was I in danger of it continuing to race faster and faster?

the MLO Asst did not fill my prescription. She wanted to see if giving me extra magnesium shots would help the chest pains. She wanted to raise my electrolytes. She had me drinking not just filtered water while I was in the sauna but gatorade, something with electrolytes in it. Actually I think she got some other kind of sports replenishment drink because I didn't like the sugar in gatorade. Luckily I didnt' have to pay for this. The MLO Asst bought it for me.

I passed the halter monitor test and the treadmill test. My heart was not at risk of beating TOO fast. I was merely suffering from a more rapid heart rate but it was not dangerous to me. At least not according to this Heart Specialist.

At the end of the week with my heart rate monitor, I did stop having chest pains. But my heart rate continued to be higher than normal. It wasn't like I was just sitting in a sauna for four hours. It was like I was running in terms of how fast my heart was beating.

I began feeling weaker and kind of scared all the time. This strange anxiety and fear. There was this anxiety feeling I'd never had before. I got really jumpy. Kind of like I was on too much cafein but I wasn't. I had trouble sleeping. I started sitting in the sauna "thinking" about my case (since I'd been told earlier that my physical aches and pains were from my case) and I'd say weird things to some of my Purif partners. This may have contributed to why I was put on the Introspection Rundown years later, I don't know.

I checked my weight at the beginning of my last day on the Purif. It said 112 pounds. I compared it too the weight I'd had two weeks ago. My weight at the beginning of the program was 132 pounds. I'd lost 20 pounds! I didn't need to lose weight!

This thought flashed through my head, "these people are trying to KILL me?" and I felt enormous paranoia. I squelched the thought. It was just my case. It had to be. No one would intentionally want to kill me. But wait? Doesn't the CS LOOK at my reports daily? How could they have let me stay on the program losing so much weight? I'd been told to take more oil, but it wasn't working. I wasn't fat. I didn't need to be losing weight.

My eyes were bright, my skin was perfectly smooth and healthy looking, I looked clean and pure. But I felt like shit. I was jumpy and nervous all the time. My at rest heart rate went from a previous 60 beats up to 80 beats or 90. My higher rate was higher too. I was in overdrive. My stomach was still killing me, I was still hungry all the time. I'd eat three plates of food. I was eating as much as three people and I was still losing weight. I had to get off the program. No one was sounding any alarms. It was up to me. so I lied my way off the program.

I was walking up on the North side of the Gold property the few days after I finished the Purif and David Miscavige came by. He was on his motorcycle and his wife Shelly was sitting behind him. He stopped his motorcycle in front of me and said, 'Hi Mo, Wow... you have lost so much weight? What happened?" I said, "Well Sir, I don't know...I've been thinking about it and I.... (I was about to start talking about my case, about what I was thinking about maybe I was feeling fear and anxiety about my past life because I was breaking through a big barrier... and the bank didn't want to let me through, to knowing my real past life...I was getting up the bridge TOO fast... and that could be deadly....bla bla bla) Shelly made a noise while I was in the middle of talking and I looked back at her behind DM. She was waving her hands at me as if she wanted me to shut up. I was confused. DM didn't see her waving. I kind of froze up and just was staring at them both. DM said, "Well, OK... MO.. let me know when you find out then...don't lose any more weight."

Months later, I found out I had a tape worm in my intestinal tract. The Purif doesn't get rid of those, and they produce more toxins under pressure. It was eating my food and poisoning me too. I found out that I also had a duodenal ulcer and that despite all the water I was drinking, I was dehydrated which is what contributed to the ulcer getting worse.
I continued to occassionally get chest pains and rapid heart rate. I'd lost 20 pounds so it seemed my heart had gotten smaller too. It was having to work harder. But I also had this feeling of paranoia and fear. It was amazing.

YEARS later, after I got off of staff and I was living in Glendale as a public Scientologist, I went to see a professional Personal Trainer because I only weighed 100 pounds and I was underweight, so I wanted to get help to gain back weight. I wanted to get back up to 130. I had lifted weight before and I had always been very strong, so I wanted my muscle collection back! Damn it. I felt weak and vulnerable without them. (note: I'm back up to 120 now. Highest since 1995. Man, it's taken a long time)

The Personal Trainer explained to me the subject of "target heart rate" and that a person wanting to gain or maintain muscle mass MUST always have a heart rate monitor when excersizing and make sure they do not continue to excersize for a long time at or beyond their "target heart rate." The Personal Trainer assigned me a target heart rate. I think it was 150 beats, I can't recall. I remembered when I was in the sauna for four hours and when I had the heart rate monitor. I'd met that rate and stayed at it for hour.

I asked my Personal Trainer what would happen if I stayed too long at my "target heart rate" and he explained to me that at a certain point the body goes into a 'fight or flight' mode. It starts metabolizing it's own muscle tissue instead of metabolizing fats and other food stores, including the heart muscle. He explained to me that because ammonia is a byproduct of protein metabolism, that sometimes people stink like ammonia who are burning their own muscle tissue for energy. He explained to me that it was particularly important for people who are experiencing stress in their lives, already in some kind of pain from a past injury, or otherwise under the weather to take it more easy, since they are already close to being in the 'fight or flight' mode.

So, after I learned all this, I learned that I wasn't sweating out my fat near the end of my Purif, I was sweating out my own muscle!! I was canabalizing my muscles and my own heart. 20 pounds of it. The ammonia smell was because I should not have been in that sauna at all!!!

Then, the personal trainer told me how long it would take for me to build back up my muscle to 130 pounds like I had it before and he said it would take me two years of dedicated working out and working with my diet to do this. He said he'd help me for 3,000 dollars. Well I did not have that kind of money, so I wasn't able to start building back my muscle yet. But I wanted to get GOLD to pay for my muscles!!! That program made me lose them in the first place!

So, I wrote up a really long report to the Snr CS Int Office through my OSA person and explained that I wanted 1) The Purif Bulletin to be corrected to include basic information about heart rate and metabolism, to include a heart rate monitor for everyone on the program, to include allergy testing BEFORE the program, to include a test for people with WPW.

and 2) I wanted 3,000 so that I could hire a personal trainer and get my muscles back.

Of course, I was ignored and treated like my failures on the Purif were all my fault. someone showed me a section of the Purif bulletin which says that you have to get out of the sauna and take breaks if it gets "too hot" but it was never "too hot" for me! I didn't feel too hot. I lived in the dessert, I was used to the heat. I mean, how does someone measure that? Too Hot? So, somehow I was wrong for not following the bulletin exactly. Whatever.....

I think the Purif is dangerous and that it should be illegal. It's only luck that more people haven't been harmed by it.

There are detox programs that are much easier on the system. I've done some intestinal cleansing programs which handles parasites and goop in the intestines. That was easier to do. There are also good liver detox programs that are helpful and not dangerous.

If there is anything that I could do to get this program made illegal, I would do it. Aren't High does of vitamins considered administering drugs? The Cof S has made it clear that they aren't going to change it or revise it just becuase of the "failures" What percentage of people have to complain and say it's caused harm for them to take heed?

[ZenuEtrawl]