Remind me to tell you about it sometime.

This is a story as told to me by an exscientologist:
She had been having alot of problems with recounting her ordeal as a scientologist, due to disconnection there were a lot of family she had no idea of the exsistance of, as she had been disconnected from family most of her life.So on this particular day she finds an e-mail in her in box saying :

Hi, I think we are sisters, I've been reading some stuff on the internet and the names and timeline all add up. I would like to get in contact, here is my phone number. I have no interest in being in contact with my parents but siblings is different. I understand if you would rather not, but I think it would be a good idea.

Well, this exscientologist was besides herself as it was only a little while previously that she had learnt the name of this sister and suddenly out of the blue this sister is trying to make contact.She had to think really long and hard about whether or not it was a good idea to make contact, as she was having a really hard time of it, years and years of no family and suddenly they were popping up out of the woodworks right and left.She figured what did she have to loose, so phoned the sister. They got on really well in this one long phone conversation, but the sister told the exscientologist some things that although put some light on some things that had been bothering her and was unable to get any headway in accounting for in the past totally devastated her aswell.

It was told to her that her Father upon leaving Scientology had started up another family, although they didn't actually live together for some time, as things were tough, trying to find work and having very little money. The Father lived in a slum in London, which eventually everyone got evicted from.On at least one occasion Seas Org officers turned up to collect a lot of money which was owed as a freeloaders bill.The Fathers girlfriend had a baby which was adopted. The Father and girlfriend got married but were only married a few days when the new wife dissappeared, never to be heard of again.

The new girlfriend was the Mother of the sister, by all accounts both the Father and the Mother were very damaged people but for very different reasons.One had been heavily indoctrinated as both a Scientologist and a Sea Org member and the other had a very strict upbringing in the Catholic chuch and also had a very abusive and alcoholic Father.What a combination.

The sister dosn't recollect much about her Father, but the Mother says the Father was very paronoid much of the time.He did not like any of his possessions to be moved, he got quite distraught if the Mother tried to move them. The Father also had a big thing about perfumes and went as far as to not allow the Mother to buy any toiletries including soap.The Father also had an obsession that the Mother was seeing someone else behind his back. She swears this was not the case, but he was obsessed. One night in a violent row, the Father beat the living daylights out of the Mother with a hobnailed boot according to the Mother. There was blood every where, all up the walls. The Police came but the Mother refused to press charges as long as the Father left.Which he did.

The sister says many years later when they were redecorating the room where the vicious assault took place, upon stripping the wallpaper off of the walls, there were blood stains all over the walls, which the sister questioned her Mother about, as previously the Mother had never talked about it.

After this phone conversation with the sister, the exscientologist was extremely upset.It preyed on her mind for ages, especially in light of what she already knew.The exscientologist told the sister that as far as she was concerned the Father had never been violent in any capacity prior to being indoctrinated with L. Ron Hubbards Scientology and his Sea Organization, and at times he had worked quite closely with Hubbard. His head was messed up beyond comprehension.

The sister then sent an e-mail suggesting that the exscientologist talkes to the sisters Mother and gave a phone number, also saying she had lost the exscientologists phone numbers.The exscientologist phoned the Mother and had a long conversation, which was quite bizarre to say the least.The Mother told the exscientologist some extrordinary things and then when the exscien told the Mother what she knew, the Mother said "thats why he was so caved in".

The Mother then went on to say "Has your Father got life insurance?" the Exscien was quite taken aback and said she had no idea. The Mother then went on to insist that the exscien got life insurance for her Father.
For the rest of that week the Exscientologist kept trying to phone the sister but no one answered the phone. Then on the last attempt, the phone line was dead.She attempted to phone several more times but the line was deffinitely dead.

The exscientologist was then left wondering what the hell was that all about, and was extremely upset.

I'll let you come to your own conclusions, I wonder if they are the same as mine.

Very very strange. Looks like someone is trying to get some life insurance money for their bridge or for regging? Could mean the father had passed away. She should look into it, I mean try and locate the father and find out what is going on. But she may not want to do that.

The exscientologist did contact her Father and He said "it wasn't a hobnailed boot but a slipper". The exscien said "there is quite a difference between a hobnailed boot and a slipper". The Father said "Lets agree it was a shoe of some sort".The exscien was still very upset and the Father said "In hindsight he regretted greatly this had happened". But he didn't regret what had happened to the exscientologist because he thought he was James Bond 007.

The exscientologist had seen the Father just a few months after this incident took place, although she had absolutely no idea about it until just recently, all these years later.When she saw the Father he believed the GO were after him, he was mentally very disturbed and he thought he was James Bond then too.The exscientologist was still only a kid really at the time and she could not cope.

The exscientologist does now know exactly what she has to do, but she does understand the sisters plight also.



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It was very difficult for me having this conversation, in view of my own Father and what happened to him and me. One can't help but wonder if sometimes things are better left, not opened, not looked at, but then one will always go on wondering............. and then if you don't get closure on something it does fester in the mind and keeps knawing away and all the while, you become restless and can't settle. There are many and varying accounts of what my Father was like before Scientology and it does appear that perhaps there were some mental health issues.I only knew him for say 7 years that I remember well, but I do know this, for the 7 years I remember well, whatever happened to him in Scientology certainly tipped him over the edge.

If someone or an organization can make you believe you are a ficticious character out of a book, then I call that 'mind bending' and NO amount of packaging and glossing over will ever change my mind on that.

To all sisters and brothers out there, my love to you always.
Sharone

I believe scientology is extremely dangerous for people who have pre-existing mental health issues. Perhaps a stable, healthy mind is more capable of withstanding the extreme pressures that come with scientology's mind control system. An unstable mind can more easily be driven to snap. It is so very sad when this happens and the outcome is so often tragic. The scientology system "thinks" it has a workable screening process, but it does not because it does not know the first thing about mental illness. They think people who seek help from psychology/psychiatry are the crazy ones, and reject them. What they do not know is that so many who do not seek help, have hidden issues. Scientology is no more than a cult of squirrelly psychology. If that won't mess up heads, I don't know what will.

I think people who endure scientology, and eventually escape to live a meaningful and happy life, to me, are the true testimony of a sane mind. I applaud and support all Exes of scientology. No, there is not something wrong with them because they got in. But there is something very right with them because they got out, and survived.

Thank you Dorothy for your input on this.

The exscientologist, just like myself is still trying to piece together a variety of information from different sources.



I couldn't agree more, what a lovely way of putting it.

apparently, the exscientologist has been walking around the same town as an adopted sister for 39 years and never knew till a couple of months ago. Spooky. She has decided to leave that one well alone.

I haven't seen or spoken to the exscientologist since, but when we parted I gave her two things, I would recommend the uncommon item is used so I know its her.
Love,
Sharone