Demented LRH wrote:
I think that TC knows everything that is happening behind the closed CoS doors, but he does not give a damn about little people who slave in RPF and RPF’s RPF. People who are at the top do not care about the cattle kept at the bottom. It is not about Hubbard’s writings extolling RPF, but it is about seeing self far superior to the ones who are swarming at the very bottom.
I understand Tom better than most because I was in a similar position.
No, I was not a top CoS executive -- I was at the bottom of the Sea Org command chain. But I had a tremendous ego, and was not planning to stay in Sea Org for long, I just wanted to get to the Class V level, leave Sea Org and do my own research in Dianetics.
I knew that I will become an SP once I commence the forbidden research, but that did not bother me a bit. I though that I was a genius in making, while long-time Sea Org members were the idiots not worthy my attention. The RPFers were even more stupid than regular Sea Org staff because they agreed to go to RPF. I did not know that some Sea Org members were forced onto RPF, but even if I knew that, my opinion about them would have remained the same.
I was the most horrific kind of Scientologist -- the one who does not care about human suffering because he sees himself far above the Scientology victims. I am not proud of what I was.
TC is my past. I changed my attitude towards the Scientology victims over the course of years, this was a slow process of realization of my erroneous views. Tom is much more stupid than I was, I do not think that he will ever turn against the cult.
I appreciate what you've written here, Demented LRH...I actually had no idea until I read Marc Headley's book (almost finished) how intense the security is at INT, what it really means to blow and how they come after you, the intensity of the emprisionment. I often felt contempt too when I heard the stories - I'd think, why don't they just say "See You" and walk off the base? Who would be stupid enough to sign up for hell? Anyway, I am grateful for this forum and for the Headley book because I really understand now the true horror of disconnection. I am very close with my sister, we talk almost every day, and I might sign up for a million RPF's if I thought I'd never get to speak or see her again. And to be sent there without a set punishment, but it just be there at someone's whim is truly horrifying. What's even stranger to me are the stories of Mike Rinder and others being in the Hole, brought out for special events, placed in a tux to give a speech and then as soon as it is over, being put right back in the Hole again to chip at rocks, or whatever. Unbelievable. Headley writes that at one event, a top executive, who always gave out awards, had to be replaced. He was in the hole, starving, overworked and tired, and when they went to get him like looked like a cancer victim. There was no amount of make-up that was going to cover that, and they ended up using someone else.
I think you captured the mentality of Tom - he even said in the leaked video (I'm not afraid to put "out ethics" to someone, because I do it to myself all the time.) I can see him dismissing the punishment and basically minding his own business.